Deathbeds
Liquor&Love Lost
Lacie
I knew I should have stayed to at least try to hear him out properly, but I couldn’t. I didn’t want to hear him say sorry anymore. I wasn’t sure if I could trust him to come back into my life although that’s what I wanted. We had both moved on and I needed to remember that.
It had been a day since we had spoken and I had my day off of work. Things weren’t going to great between me and my boyfriend Cody we had been arguing more than we usually did. Of course telling him that Oli had spoken to me didn’t make situations any better. The fact that he had seen us made things 10 times worse.
“You can’t tell me that nothing is going on Lace, I saw you. I saw him holding your face. I can’t be with you if you still have feelings for someone else. It just not going to work is it?”
Everything had calmed down at this point, there were no more heated discussions, he was talking slowly to me, and he looked upset, whereas I didn’t feel anything.
“Nothing is going on Cody, we spoke, and that’s it. I’m always going to feel that way for him you can’t tell me that you don’t still have feelings for your first girlfriend”
“That’s where you’re wrong, I don’t. I wanted to be with you it’s different with my first girlfriend those feelings are a lot more different there not like what I thought I had with you, I can’t do this Lacie I don’t want to be second best to him because let’s face it if he wanted you back you would take him.”
“I’m sorry Cody I thought I was over it, I thought if he came back there would be nothing but there is. I can’t lie to you. I have too much respect for you to do that”
“So that’s it? We are over?”
“I don’t want it to be like this, but it has to. It’s unfair on the both of us to just keep having the same argument over and over again.”
“I’ll get my things”
So that was it the end of another relationships again it didn’t last longer than 4 weeks. I thought that with Cody things would be different, but they aren’t I still have no feeling over the fact that he’s just walked out of my flat and he’s not coming back. The worse thing was is that I knew I couldn’t have Oliver.
I needed something stronger than coffee, I needed something to make everything go numb even if it was just for 24 hours. I texted one of the girls from work telling to get ready and that I’d be round to pick her up in 2 hours I knew she couldn’t resist a night out especially on a weekend off.
To:Cassie
From:Lacie
Girl get ready we’re going out. I’ll come round in 2 hours to get you! Let’s go hit the town. x
To:Lacie
From:Cassie
Sure thing, I have a number to give you as well. xx
To:Cassie
From:Lacie
Okay, see you in a couple of hour’s chick. xx
I ran to my room trying to find something that would make me feel good find out one of my old black dresses and shoes. I jumped into a boiling hot shower letting the water fall down.
About an hour after the shower I was all ready to go, make up done clothes on. I grabbed my car keys knowing I had an hour to kill I went to the local off-licence grabbing a bottle of Jack and a bottle of Vodka, then making my way over to Cassie’s place.
I opened the door to let myself in
“Cass you ready?”
“Of course I am”
“We are going to have a few here and I’ll call us a taxi?”
“We can just walk? Saves us money”
“Sure makes more sense it’s only 10 minutes right?”
“Yup”
I passed Cass over the two bottles she quickly puts a drink into my hand.
“So what’s gone wrong chick?”
“What do you mean?”
“Well you never go out unless you’re feeling like crap so come on talk to me”
“Me and Cody are over”
“Oh shit, why?”
“You know that guy that’s been in and out of the coffee shop a lot lately the one who I spent most of my break with yesterday? Well he’s my ex but he’s the only serious ex I’ve had. He was my high school sweetheart, I still love him it’s been hard. He’s had a lot to apologise for, but Cody saw us talking and he doesn’t want to be with someone who has feelings for someone else. So it was only fair really”
“I’m sorry hunny, maybe it will work out but thinking back to that guy I have something for you”
She handed me over a scrappy piece of paper
“He gave it to me after you had left yesterday."
I opened it up, it was a sentence reading “For what it’s worth I’m sorry, if you want to talk call me”
He left his phone number at the bottom, part of me wanted to just throw it away but I couldn’t do that. What if I did want to talk to him?
“I think we should ditch my house now, let’s hit the town come on”
Cassie gave a hand to me and we left her house, I wasn’t sure how I was feeling.
“Look don’t worry about the number tonight it was only because you brought him up that I even remembered I wish I never gave it to you, please cheer back up?”
I painted a smile on and lightly tugged on Cass’s arm to make her move faster. That was one of the only things I remembered about last night, when I woke up with a pounding headache in a lace I didn’t recognise as my own or Cass’s. I wasn’t sure where I was too and slowly my breathing hitched as I remember a drunken phone call.
“Are you sleeping?”
“No”
“Do you drive?”
“Yes”
“Can you come pick me up?”
“Why?”
“Because I’m very drunk and I’ve lost my friend, I don’t want to be on my own anymore, please”
“I’ve literally just got into bed”
“Please?”
“What about my girlfriend?”
“It will be fine I’m just a friend you picked up”
“A friend? Are we classed as that now?”
“Sure”
“Okay text me where you’re too and I’ll drop my girlfriend home and I’ll come get you okay sweet”
“Thank you Oliver”
“Please call me Oli Lace”
“Okay Oliver”
Someone has changed my clothes leaving me in just a shirt, I knew whose house this was, but why was I here? Why didn’t I go home, I couldn’t catch my breath as I felt hand on my shoulder trying to soothe me?
“Eh calm down Lace its okay. What’s wrong?”
I tried to calm down for his sake, why would he want to see me like this, this is the reason he had left.
It took about 10 minutes for I started to fill normal again I looked at Oli
“Why am I here? Where’s Cass?”
“You’re here because you couldn’t remember where your place was, and no nothing happened you slept in the bed I stayed on the floor. Cass is at home she text you about 30 minutes ago, so no more panicking.
“Can you take me home please?”
“Can I take you to breakfast please; we are friends now after all”
“When did I say that?”
“Before I came to pick you up and then every 10 minutes after that until you fell asleep”
“Oh, I’m so sorry oli”
“Its fine sweet, I haven’t seen you that drunk in a while, it was an experience to say he least”
I heard a giggle come out of his mouth, making him even cuter; this is not how I should see my ‘friend’ was he just a friend though?
“Come on then ya drunken mess let’s go get some food to cure your wonderful hangover”
“I have no clothes”
“Let stop at your place first then okay?”
I dragged myself off of the bed holding my head as I moved. Oli swung an arm around me.
“Just to keep you standing up dear. Nothing more.”
I’m pretty sure he was trying to wind me up. I was okay with it though as long as I had him close to me.
I knew I should have stayed to at least try to hear him out properly, but I couldn’t. I didn’t want to hear him say sorry anymore. I wasn’t sure if I could trust him to come back into my life although that’s what I wanted. We had both moved on and I needed to remember that.
It had been a day since we had spoken and I had my day off of work. Things weren’t going to great between me and my boyfriend Cody we had been arguing more than we usually did. Of course telling him that Oli had spoken to me didn’t make situations any better. The fact that he had seen us made things 10 times worse.
“You can’t tell me that nothing is going on Lace, I saw you. I saw him holding your face. I can’t be with you if you still have feelings for someone else. It just not going to work is it?”
Everything had calmed down at this point, there were no more heated discussions, he was talking slowly to me, and he looked upset, whereas I didn’t feel anything.
“Nothing is going on Cody, we spoke, and that’s it. I’m always going to feel that way for him you can’t tell me that you don’t still have feelings for your first girlfriend”
“That’s where you’re wrong, I don’t. I wanted to be with you it’s different with my first girlfriend those feelings are a lot more different there not like what I thought I had with you, I can’t do this Lacie I don’t want to be second best to him because let’s face it if he wanted you back you would take him.”
“I’m sorry Cody I thought I was over it, I thought if he came back there would be nothing but there is. I can’t lie to you. I have too much respect for you to do that”
“So that’s it? We are over?”
“I don’t want it to be like this, but it has to. It’s unfair on the both of us to just keep having the same argument over and over again.”
“I’ll get my things”
So that was it the end of another relationships again it didn’t last longer than 4 weeks. I thought that with Cody things would be different, but they aren’t I still have no feeling over the fact that he’s just walked out of my flat and he’s not coming back. The worse thing was is that I knew I couldn’t have Oliver.
I needed something stronger than coffee, I needed something to make everything go numb even if it was just for 24 hours. I texted one of the girls from work telling to get ready and that I’d be round to pick her up in 2 hours I knew she couldn’t resist a night out especially on a weekend off.
To:Cassie
From:Lacie
Girl get ready we’re going out. I’ll come round in 2 hours to get you! Let’s go hit the town. x
To:Lacie
From:Cassie
Sure thing, I have a number to give you as well. xx
To:Cassie
From:Lacie
Okay, see you in a couple of hour’s chick. xx
I ran to my room trying to find something that would make me feel good find out one of my old black dresses and shoes. I jumped into a boiling hot shower letting the water fall down.
About an hour after the shower I was all ready to go, make up done clothes on. I grabbed my car keys knowing I had an hour to kill I went to the local off-licence grabbing a bottle of Jack and a bottle of Vodka, then making my way over to Cassie’s place.
I opened the door to let myself in
“Cass you ready?”
“Of course I am”
“We are going to have a few here and I’ll call us a taxi?”
“We can just walk? Saves us money”
“Sure makes more sense it’s only 10 minutes right?”
“Yup”
I passed Cass over the two bottles she quickly puts a drink into my hand.
“So what’s gone wrong chick?”
“What do you mean?”
“Well you never go out unless you’re feeling like crap so come on talk to me”
“Me and Cody are over”
“Oh shit, why?”
“You know that guy that’s been in and out of the coffee shop a lot lately the one who I spent most of my break with yesterday? Well he’s my ex but he’s the only serious ex I’ve had. He was my high school sweetheart, I still love him it’s been hard. He’s had a lot to apologise for, but Cody saw us talking and he doesn’t want to be with someone who has feelings for someone else. So it was only fair really”
“I’m sorry hunny, maybe it will work out but thinking back to that guy I have something for you”
She handed me over a scrappy piece of paper
“He gave it to me after you had left yesterday."
I opened it up, it was a sentence reading “For what it’s worth I’m sorry, if you want to talk call me”
He left his phone number at the bottom, part of me wanted to just throw it away but I couldn’t do that. What if I did want to talk to him?
“I think we should ditch my house now, let’s hit the town come on”
Cassie gave a hand to me and we left her house, I wasn’t sure how I was feeling.
“Look don’t worry about the number tonight it was only because you brought him up that I even remembered I wish I never gave it to you, please cheer back up?”
I painted a smile on and lightly tugged on Cass’s arm to make her move faster. That was one of the only things I remembered about last night, when I woke up with a pounding headache in a lace I didn’t recognise as my own or Cass’s. I wasn’t sure where I was too and slowly my breathing hitched as I remember a drunken phone call.
“Are you sleeping?”
“No”
“Do you drive?”
“Yes”
“Can you come pick me up?”
“Why?”
“Because I’m very drunk and I’ve lost my friend, I don’t want to be on my own anymore, please”
“I’ve literally just got into bed”
“Please?”
“What about my girlfriend?”
“It will be fine I’m just a friend you picked up”
“A friend? Are we classed as that now?”
“Sure”
“Okay text me where you’re too and I’ll drop my girlfriend home and I’ll come get you okay sweet”
“Thank you Oliver”
“Please call me Oli Lace”
“Okay Oliver”
Someone has changed my clothes leaving me in just a shirt, I knew whose house this was, but why was I here? Why didn’t I go home, I couldn’t catch my breath as I felt hand on my shoulder trying to soothe me?
“Eh calm down Lace its okay. What’s wrong?”
I tried to calm down for his sake, why would he want to see me like this, this is the reason he had left.
It took about 10 minutes for I started to fill normal again I looked at Oli
“Why am I here? Where’s Cass?”
“You’re here because you couldn’t remember where your place was, and no nothing happened you slept in the bed I stayed on the floor. Cass is at home she text you about 30 minutes ago, so no more panicking.
“Can you take me home please?”
“Can I take you to breakfast please; we are friends now after all”
“When did I say that?”
“Before I came to pick you up and then every 10 minutes after that until you fell asleep”
“Oh, I’m so sorry oli”
“Its fine sweet, I haven’t seen you that drunk in a while, it was an experience to say he least”
I heard a giggle come out of his mouth, making him even cuter; this is not how I should see my ‘friend’ was he just a friend though?
“Come on then ya drunken mess let’s go get some food to cure your wonderful hangover”
“I have no clothes”
“Let stop at your place first then okay?”
I dragged myself off of the bed holding my head as I moved. Oli swung an arm around me.
“Just to keep you standing up dear. Nothing more.”
I’m pretty sure he was trying to wind me up. I was okay with it though as long as I had him close to me.
Notes
So I know it's been just over 2 weeks since updated , the time went too fast!
I've had a lot of college work to catch up on, but it's done I'm now finished for good!
So Lacie and Oliver seem to be friends, will that last?
Also I've gone back on the last two chapters and added outfits so go look at them if you want!
And also here are;
Lacie's and Cassie's outfit
-Kay
Lol well I'm glad he's okay.
Ik it was too good to hope they started getting close. They gave things to work out and she doesn't trust him. But I hope they can be happy eventually, or at least not let this drag them down
1/7/16