Leaving the cave, going into the unknown

It was hard to believe that a week had already gone by and it was my last night with the boys. As much as I loved being on tour I was ready to go home, I wanted a bigger bed to sleep in. I woke up in the morning to see Alan sleeping beside me; I kissed his cheek before crawling over him to get out. I was just out of the bunk when two arms pulled me back and I fell onto Alan’s chest. He warped me in his arms and I felt like I was in a prison lock.

“No, you’re not allowed to leave yet.” He said in a toddler voice, I just rolled my eyes.

“But I have to pee!” I said flailing my arms and legs to try and spring free but it didn’t seem to make a difference.

“I don’t mean the bunk I mean in general, I don’t want you to leave yet.” I let out a long breath before I fell back onto him, looking in his eyes.

“Alan you know I have to go back, it’ll only be two weeks then you’ll be home and I’ll see you again. Don’t get all emotional on me now, we have the whole day left together” Alan had scheduled my flight for 10pm so I would have to leave just before the show starts.

“Fine. Go pee than come right back. Promise?” He held up his pinky, which I gripped with my own.

“Promise.”

I smiled down at him than made my way to the bathroom, did my business and went to walk back to the bunks. I was stopped however by a sad looking Austin blocking my path.

“What’s up Aust?” I looked up at the tall man wondering what was bothering him so much he almost never got sad.

“I’m gonna miss you Alex. And I know how much Alan enjoys when you’re here, he’s going to go back to sad Alan now until tours done.” He pulled me into a giant hug that almost suffocated me.

“Don’t worry he’ll be fine, you’ll be fine and I’ll be fine. It’s like 2 weeks away just keep him distracted and do fun shit with him.” I smiled at him and walked past towards the bunks. I didn’t really think I made that much of an impact on their lives to matter when I left but I guess I was wrong. I crawled back into bed with Alan where we cuddled for the next hour, talking about the memories that we made in this short time together.

I was carried out of the bunk and into the front lounge where all of the boys had come together with cupcakes and party hats. I was really confused, it wasn’t my birthday and I couldn’t think of anyone else that was celebrating one.

“What’s with the cupcakes and hats” Alan sat down and put me on his knee to face the group.

“It’s for you Alex. Like a going away party, but not cool and with these stupid hats that Austin made us wear.” Phil huffed from the side, I just laughed at their silliness and grabbed a hat from the table and a cupcake.

“Well thank you guys, this is a fantastic party.” I smiled at them all and dove into my cupcake.

“We should get going, band stuff and ya we should just leave. Just have sex or something let’s be honest the second we leave Alan is gonna be on top of her and I don’t wanna be here to see that.” Tino said while pulling the other guys out of the bus, I turned red as a tomato while Alan just laughed into my hair.

“I think we should do as the man says Alex, I’d hate to let the band down.” Before I could reject I was carried away back to the bunks by a happy ginger.






Soon enough though it was time to leave Alan and the boys and after what Alan and I did this afternoon it made it harder to leave. First I went threw each boy and hugged them, it was hard to go but it was only two weeks and I could handle that. Last as always was Alan, his eyes were slightly watering but I think he was trying not to show it because mine were also watering. We looked at each other for a moment before I dived into his arms and broke down, I’m sure he let out a couple of tears as well just didn’t want to show it yet.

“I’m gonna miss you so much, and being in your house is going to make it harder.” I cried, he just shushed me and rubbed my back.

“It’ll be ok, you know it’ll be ok. You and Sophie can curl up in my bed every night and soon enough I’ll be there with you. I love you never forget that.” I smiled up at him before giving him one last kiss and walked into my cab. They had to run inside to their performance but Alan just watched my cab leave. It was going to be a long two weeks, that’s for sure.

Notes

Hey guys sorry this is a little i was prepping for my job interview...
Long story short i didn't get it i think cause i was a little bit bigger than the other applicants i'm not fat but i'm also not a stick which is fine but i'm just tired of getting judged by my weight
Anyway i ended up getting my septum pierced cause i wanted it really bad and you can flip it up..... It was the most painful piercing i've ever gotten worse than any tattoo i have.... just owe i have my nose pierced and when he was putting the ring in it got slightly stuck on my other piercing...
Anyway hope you guys liked this chapter let me know what you think!