"Wake up! Wake up!"

"Go away Matt! I'm sleeping!"

"No! It's my birthday! It's my birthday!" I swear, he was an excited 5 year old on Christmas morning.

"I know! Happy Birthday! Please shut up..."

"Never! I'm hungry and I'm going to go get food from your kitchen. I expect to see your ass downstairs in 15 minutes!" Matt slightly slapped my butt before running downstairs. Grr, I guess I have to get up...

"Jesus Matt! You almost gave me a heart attack!" I heard Dad say.

"Sorry Sir!" I laughed and got out my journal.

August 18, 9:19am, 2003

I just got woken up by an extremely excited Matt. Yay for annoying best friends.

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After brushing my hair and getting dressed, I head downstairs to get something to eat. Matt and Kellin were sitting at the table while Jaime was under the table.

"Umm, what are you doing under there?" I asked him.

"Kellin is trying to steal my cereal!"

"That's my cereal!" I told him.

"Not anymore," he grinned innocently. I rolled my eyes and stood up, heading over to the cupboard and grabbing the cereal box.

"Where's my dad?" I asked, pouring the cereal into a bowl and adding milk before grabbing a spoon and sitting down.

"He went to work," Kellin answered me, drinking some juice. Why do people just help themselves to my food? I mean, rude!

"Of course he did," I muttered. "So what's on today's agenda?"

"We're going to Mike and Vic's house. Viv has made Matt a birthday cake and we are having a small party there before getting drunk tonight," Jaime informed me, sitting next to me.

"Why do we get drunk all the time?" I asked, truly curious.

"Because we are all probably going to turn into alcoholics," Kellin answered with a shrug.

"Most likely," Matt nodded.

"Alcohol is not always the answer!" I said.

"Well, you could always stay here alone..."

"I'm in!" I quickly said.





"How's Oliver treating you?" Viv asked me. I stopped cutting the tomatoes for a few seconds before continuing.

"I don't know what you're talking about,"

"Don't play dumb with me," she chuckled, shaking her head slightly. "I see the way you two look at each other. It's the same way Papa and I look at each other,"

"It's nothing," I shrugged.

"You know, I always thought it was going to be you and Mike for a while. But I see it now,"

"See what?"

"Why are you denying it?"

"Because I don't want to admit out loud that it won't last,"

"How do you know that?" Viv asked.

"Because in my life, nothing good seems to last forever," I answered with a frown.

"You love him?"

"I do. Very much," I smiled.

"What are you two talking about?" Vic asked, Walking into the room.

"Nothing," I quickly answered, while Viv raised an eyebrow at me.

"He doesn't know," I mouthed to her when Vic wasn't looking.

"Well, alright. You almost done Bon? Oli wants you," Viv started giggling like a little school girl and I glared at her back. Way to make it subtle Vivian! Vic looked confused, but decided to leave it. I followed him out and seen everyone sitting down while Matt was putting all his presents into a bag Viv supplied him. I sat down next to Oli and he smiled, slowly shuffling closer to me.

"When is it cake time?" Matt asked for the fortieth time.

"After dinner Matt," Alan sighed, patting his back. I think they were both suffering from cake separation.

"Kellin, do you have to?" Stella groaned as Kellin started to make a really annoying clicking noise with his tongue.

"Yes,"

"Stop being a dick," Mike slapped the back of his head.

"I like this noise," Kellin smirked, continuing to do it.

"You're an ass," Austin chuckled, throwing his arm around Stella's shoulder.

"The fact that you two are fucking makes me disgusted," Kellin scrunched up his nose, looking at his cousin and best friend.

We we all laughed and started talking while we patiently waited for dinner. Well, most of us patiently...

"I'M SO HUNGRY!" Alan complained, rolling around on the floor. "This carpet smells like strawberries!"

"It'll be ready so Alan! Be patient boy!" Victor scolded him.

"Yes Papa," Alan sighed, sitting up.

"Come out with me tomorrow," Oli whispered in my ear.

"Okay," I nodded.

"Keeping secrets over there, are we?" Vic asked with a smirk.

"Yeah. He was telling me about how ridiculous your shirt looks,"

"Ouch," Vic laughed, playfully rolling his eyes.

"It is an ugly shirt..." Jaime observed, putting the material in between his fingers and studying it.

"Wow. Thanks guys! Feeling totally secure right now!" That sarcasm just killed me.

"Dinner's ready!" All of our heads snapped up at Viv's voice and ran to the kitchen.

"DINNER!"





One drink, two drinks, three drinks, four! Five drinks, six drinks, seven drinks, floor! I mentally sung as I face planted the floor.

"Baby, get up!" Stella laughed, helping me up. We both swayed and ended up falling onto the couch with her on top of me.

"Thank you for being light!" I giggled.

"You're welcome my love!"

"Austin, they're lesbianing again!" Alan called, pointing at us.

"Good! It's hot!" Austin remarked, drunkenly walking into the room.

"We are not lesbianing together! We fell over," Stella slurred.

"You're warm," I started hugging her. Tonight we learnt that Stella and I are very touchy feely with each other when we are drunk.

"MORE SHOTS!" Matt called from the kitchen.

"YAY!" Stella and I both cheered. We stood up and started to head to the kitchen when I was pulled back.

"No more drinks for you," Oli said.

"But no!"

"But yes!"

"I'm not even drunk," I laughed, looking at the ground. Woah, when did Matt's carpet turn rainbow?!

"Yes, you really are,"

"No, I'm not. Don't be silly!" I denied.

"Do you want a timeout?" Oli pointed at the stairs. I looked there and quickly shook my head.

"Didn't think so,"

"I need to go to the bathroom," I said.

"C'mon then. I'll help you up," Oli took my hand and guided me up the stairs to the bathroom. After doing my business and washing my hands, I pulled the door open and grabbed Oli's arm, bringing him inside with me.

"What are you ?-" I cut him off by roughly pressing my lips to his, wrapping my arms around his neck and pulling him closer to my body. He immediately responded, hooking his hands under my thighs and lifting me up before placing me on the counter of the sink, standing in between my legs.

Oli moved his way to my neck, kissing and nipping lightly at the skin as I tugged a the bottom of his shirt and pulled it over his head, throwing it to the floor. His lips left my neck for a mere second so he could throw my t-shirt on the ground before pressing kisses to my neck down to my collarbone.

"Ooh bathroom sex!"

I screamed and Oli pulled away from me, quickly tossing me my shirt. I pulled it over my head and we both glared at a grinning Jaime.

I don't think I've ever been so embarrassed in my life.

Notes

RESTORING FORCE! <3 Holy perf! My favourite song is Space Enough To Grow! I really love the lyrics and the instruments, and Austin's vocals are perfect. Really, really love this album!