I never imagined my life would turn out like this.

I never knew I was going to have such amazing friends who I could trust with my life.

I never knew I was going to smile and laugh again.

I never knew I was going to live to this point in my life happily.

And I definitely never knew I was going to be walking down the road through town with the guy I'm in love with, looking at shops and holding hands with the most perfect boy I've ever met, and that he loves me back.

It takes time to be happy. It takes time to pick up the pieces and get over it. But the wait was definitely worth it.

"Bon, look at it!" I was pulled out of my thoughts by Oli tugging on my hand, then pointing at a little Rottweiler puppy on the ground.

"Aww, it's so cute!" I cooed. The owner looked down at the dog and smiled.

"His name's Storm," he told us. "You can pat him if you'd like. He loves attention,"

"Thank you," I smiled, bending down and patting Storm.

"Aren't you just the cutest little thing?" Oli grinned, rubbing the puppy's tummy. Storm made the cutest little noise ever and I 'aww'ed, before he licked my hand.

We said thank you to the owner and started our walk again.

"He's so cute!"

"I know!" Oli agreed. "I don't know who's cuter. AC or Storm,"

"Ooh, that's a hard one. But I'm going to have to go with Alice Cooper for that one. I mean, he is my best turtle friend,"

"I'm sure Tony is going to be thrilled to hear that," Oli smirked.

"Shut up," I playfully rolled my eyes. "Tony's an asshole,"

"Why is Tony an asshole?"

"Because Tony made AC like him more than me! I'm the one who looks after him and takes him on walks!"

"Bonnie, you let him walk for 10 seconds before you pick him up again,"

"It's because he's so damn slow! Someone get him a skateboard or something!"

"He's a turtle! Of course he's slow!"

"The Ninja Turtles aren't," I muttered.

"The Ninja Turtles aren't real," Oli said calmly, as if explaining Santa Claus isn't real to a child.

"Oliver's your real name. Should I start calling you that, Oliver?" I asked smartly. He didn't say anything, so I stuck my head up in pride with a smirk on my lips.

....

Until I walked straight into a pole, making a bang noise as my forehead made contact with it. I stood there confused at what just happened while Oli laughed like a crazy person.

"Who put that pole there?!" I demanded. I swear, that thing wasn't there 5 seconds ago.

"You're so special," he laughed, kissing my forehead which was probably bruising before taking my hand again.





We arrived at a nice small cafe to get a cake and a drink. We sat outside in the sun, quiet and enjoying each other's company.

"Bonnie?" I turned to face a seemingly very nervous Oli. "I need to ask you something..."

"Shoot," I said, although I was quite nervous myself. He better not be breaking up with me or I'll have to kick his pretty ass to China.

"Will you...? Ugh, never mind,"

"Oliver. Just spit it out," I laughed, nudging him gently with my shoulder.

"Well, I was going to ask if you wanted to be my girlfriend... Officially," he said quietly.

"Wait, as in you want to tell everyone about... us?" I asked, pointing at both of us.

"Well, yeah... It's cool if you don't want to. Now I just feel like an idiot. I'm sorry," Oli apologized, a look of embarrassment crossing his face.

"No!" I quickly said. "It's not that. I'd love to be official. I just didn't think you wanted to,"

"You thought I wouldn't want to show you off?" I just shrugged, him knowing the answer already.

"You're beautiful Bonnie. I want people to know that you're mine. I love you," I smiled and kissed his cheek.

"I would love to be your girlfriend,"

"Well, that's a relief," Oli chuckled, making me grin at his nervousness.

"I love you too, you know," I said.

"I will never get sick of hearing you say that."





"So what do you want to talk to us about?" Austin asked curiously, looking at Oli and I.

"Just say it," I whispered to Oli, scared about what their reactions were going to be.

"Bonnie and I are... together," It was silent for a minute before Alan let out an awkward whistle.

"Well, didn't exactly see that coming," he said.

"What about Angelina?" Matt and that Angelina girl, I swear!

"She's not real Matt," Jaime said, patting the poor boys back.

"Oh, and who was supposed to know that?" Matt asked with a sarcastic roll of his eyes as if it was the hardest thing to believe. Ever.

"I did," Tony raised his hand.

"Yeah, me too," Jaime raised his.

"I only knew because Bonnie told me," Mike shrugged his shoulders.

"Now that I think about it, it was very obvious," Kellin nodded to himself. "Congratulations guys,"

"Yeah. Congratulations. I hope you're happy together," Vic spat at us, heading upstairs into my room and slamming the door.

"... He needs to get laid," Austin said after a minute of awkward silence.

"Definitely," Stella agreed with a nod of her head.

"Eww," Mike frowned. "I'm going for a smoke,"

"You always smoke. Why?" Alan asked, following Mike outside. Oh have fun Michael. Alan is in his 'Why' mood.

"Because I want to," I heard Mike faintly reply as the door closed.

"I'm going to try talk to him," I motioned my head towards the stairs.

"Okay. Be back down soon." I nodded and Oli kissed my head before letting my hand go.





I opened my bedroom door and looked at Vic lying on my bed, facing the wall.

"Vic?" He didn't answer.

"Viccy, please don't be like this," I sighed, joining him on the bed and wrapping my arms around his middle. He didn't even move.

"Give me a reason why I shouldn't be like this," he muttered.

"Because you're my best friend..."

"Best friend?" Vic scoffed, removing my hands from his body and turning to face me. "You don't even talk to me anymore,"

"That's a lie," I mumbled, kind of hurt that he just pushed me away like that.

"No Bonnie, it's not. When was the last time you ever told me something important? A secret? How you are? We never talk. Get that through your brain!" he snapped.

"Maybe we haven't talked as much as we used to, I admit that. But that doesn't mean I care any less about you!"

"You've replaced me! I'm sure Tony knew about yours and Oli's secret relationship!"

"Yeah, but that's because he guessed! If you would've just -"

"I knew it," Vic cut me off. "I fucking knew it. Of course Tony knows. Tony and Oli know everything,"

"You can't blame them! Face it Vic. I love Oli. I love him so much it fucking hurts. And maybe if you were paying more attention and put in more effort to talk to me you would've known!"

"Oh, so now it's my fault? What the fuck did I do, Bonnie? How many times did you ignore my texts and calls when I wanted to catch up?" A lot... "And how many times did you attempt to contact me back? That's right. None!" We were pretty much yelling at each other now, and I'm sure everyone downstairs could hear us.

"I'm sorry, okay!" I yelled, tears started to well up in my eyes.

"No, I'm sorry for ever getting involved with you in the first place!" And just like that, it felt like my heart was ripped in two, broken beyond repair. "I'm so done! Now go away!"

"This is my room," I whispered, all the energy drained from my body all of a sudden.

"You're right. Have a great fucking life Bonnie!" I closed my eyes as he left, slamming the door behind him. The tears ran freely now as I heard his feet on the steps, muffled voices and the front door slamming. I grabbed my journal and flipped over to a new page, tear drops landing on the paper.

August 21, 5:07am, 2003

I think I just lost my best friend. The guy who picked me up when I fell down. He stopped me from hurting myself. He made me happy. I ruined it, and I deserve this. Vic deserves better.

It's all my fault.

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Closing the journal, I threw it on the floor and jumped into bed, soaking the pillow with my tears and ignoring the calls of my name downstairs.

Notes

Sorry guys! Just settled in at public high school for the first time in ages! I was just getting used to everything, and now I'm back! Hope you all didn't miss me too much ;P