Austin stroked my cheek and I opened my eyes. He had slept next to me the whole night and he looked tired. Like he hadn’t slept a thing.
"Chris, promise me that you won’t cry" he said and looked at me. I just looked back and I knew what he was going to say. He was leaving. He would leave me. Go away, and not look back. I swallowed.
"I think… How should I say this?" he said and closed his eyes. I swallowed again and I wanted to cry, but no tears came. My eyes stayed "dried" and I just looked at him. He opened his eyes again and he looked at me.
"I think you shouldn’t do an abortion" he said. He swallowed and looked at me. My whole body froze. He thought what?
"What..?" I asked, even thought it was more like a really quite whisper.
"I think… I think you should keep the babies. I will stay and I will take care of you and the twins, i will…" he said and I just stared.
"Austin, I’m not putting you through that… It’s not even your babies" I said.
"If it only had been one baby I would have been fine with it, but Chris… this is two babies, twins… you can’t just… take them away" he said and looked me in the eye. I was really shocked about Austin. Never had I believe he would say that.
"But I can’t do that to you" I whispered.
"Don’t think about me, think about yourself… and the babies growing inside you… Do you really want to take them away? Two lives?" he asked. I swallowed. He was right. Actually I didn’t even want to take two lives. But I didn’t want Austin to suffer just because I kept them, when it wasn’t his babies. He was not even related to them at all.
"So please… don’t do it" he whispered and closed his eyes.
So this was the reason why he hadn’t slept all night? He had been thinking about this. About the twins.

A few hours later I woke up, and now Austin was sleeping next to me. Sleeping for real. I slowly sat up and looked around. It was sunny outside and I felt an urge to do breakfast for Austin. So I stood up and realized I was completely naked after the shower yesterday. So I hurried over to my closet and put on some underwear and a big tee. Then I looked out to see if Austin was still sleeping and yes he was. I walked downstairs and i started to do some scrambled eggs and bacon. Nothing fancy but still something to eat. I poured up juice and I picked out my pills with extra vitamins. Because if Austin had barely slept he could use some vitamins. when I finished I walked upstairs again and saw that he had moved over to my side of the bed. Hugging one of the pillows.
"Austin? Babe… Wake up" I whispered and stroked his back. He grunted a little and pressed his face down on my pillow.
"Austin… I made breakfast" I said and smiled a little. He was cute in the mornings. When he was like this. He grunted again and slowly peeked out from the pillow. He looked at me and he couldn’t help but to smile when I stood there and smiled as well.
"Breakfast?" he asked.
"I made breakfast for the both of us" I said and stroked his hair. He took a deep breath and yawned. But he slowly sat up and scratched his head. I leaned forward and kissed him, and he got a bit surprised. But he kissed me back.

He looked at me when I sat across the table and ate my breakfast.
"So.. about what we talked about?" he asked.
"I don’t know… I don’t want you to go through something like that" I said and looked at him.
"But I’m fine with it Chris, I’ll be here" he said.
"But do you really think that it won’t bother me when I get two babies, raising them and I’ll see you with them and I’ll know that you’ll know that they would never be related to you?" I said and swallowed.
He looked at me and then he smiled. A warm smile.
"Chris, it doesn’t matter if I’m related to them or not… I will be their father. Blood or not, the twins are my babies" he said.