A Small Affection For You
Chapter 34
Fuck it, another tour? With the babies coming up and all? Fuck this. I let out a sigh and I opened up the door and I just stared. Chris was crying. Not because of happiness but she looked heartbroken. Her whole body was shaking and she was sobbing real loudly. What was going on?The midwife tried to calm her down but nothing could calm her.
"Chris, what is going on?" I said and walked over to her. She looked at me and all I could see was fear in her eyes.
"What is going on?" I asked the midwife and she shook her head. She had no idea.
"i just told her how far along she was with the pregnancy, and she started to cry" the midwife said. My heart dropped. I didn’t need an explanation. I knew what was going on.
"Dave" I whispered and Chris stopped, she just stared at me with fear again. She was pregnant with Dave’s twins. This was not my twins. Not my babies. I swallowed. Now I understood why Chris was so scared. she thought I would leave. Like she thought before. Because now I really did have a reason not to stay. My hands trembled and my brain screamed in my head "LEAVE FOR GOODNESS SAKE, LEAVE", but when I looked at her I just couldn’t. I loved this woman. I loved her.
"Don’t be scared Chris, I’m not leaving" I said and took her hands. I kissed her fingers and she looked at me.
"I want to do an abortion" she whispered and her voice trembled.
"Are you sure? Because it’s okay" I said and looked at her. She nodded and I squeezed her hand.
"So an abortion?" the midwife asked and looked at Chris. Chris looked at her and nodded.
"We don’t have a time until next week, that will give you time to think over your decision, but I put you up for that time" she said and wrote something on her computer.
Chris put on her clothes again and she was still trembling, and I could hear small sobs. I took her hand and I pulled her into my arms.
"It’s okay, everything will be okay" I whispered and kissed her forehead.
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I really thought Austin would leave when he found out. That was the reason why I decided to do an abortion. Because I saw the sadness in his eyes when he found out. It wasn’t his babies. It was Dave’s. He was quite the whole drive back to my apartment. It torn me apart a little because I knew that million of thoughts was running through his head right now. Million. And right now two small babies, Dave’s babies, grew inside me.
I walked inside and walked inside the bathroom, and I jumped inside the shower. Just as the water hit my body I started to cry again. I just stood there and cried. And I thought that Austin didn’t hear me but soon he walked in to the bathroom and he turned off the water. He gently wrapped a towel around me and took another one to cry my hair. I sobbed as he dried my whole body and then carried me up to my bed. He laid me down and put the blanket over me. He stroked me cheek and moved the hair away from my face.
"Everything will be just fine" he whispered.
"I thought I was free, and over everything… not completely… But I had finally healed, I was finally happy… and this… this is…" I said and started to cry again.
"Hush love, everything will be just fine" he said again and kissed me.
"Chris, what is going on?" I said and walked over to her. She looked at me and all I could see was fear in her eyes.
"What is going on?" I asked the midwife and she shook her head. She had no idea.
"i just told her how far along she was with the pregnancy, and she started to cry" the midwife said. My heart dropped. I didn’t need an explanation. I knew what was going on.
"Dave" I whispered and Chris stopped, she just stared at me with fear again. She was pregnant with Dave’s twins. This was not my twins. Not my babies. I swallowed. Now I understood why Chris was so scared. she thought I would leave. Like she thought before. Because now I really did have a reason not to stay. My hands trembled and my brain screamed in my head "LEAVE FOR GOODNESS SAKE, LEAVE", but when I looked at her I just couldn’t. I loved this woman. I loved her.
"Don’t be scared Chris, I’m not leaving" I said and took her hands. I kissed her fingers and she looked at me.
"I want to do an abortion" she whispered and her voice trembled.
"Are you sure? Because it’s okay" I said and looked at her. She nodded and I squeezed her hand.
"So an abortion?" the midwife asked and looked at Chris. Chris looked at her and nodded.
"We don’t have a time until next week, that will give you time to think over your decision, but I put you up for that time" she said and wrote something on her computer.
Chris put on her clothes again and she was still trembling, and I could hear small sobs. I took her hand and I pulled her into my arms.
"It’s okay, everything will be okay" I whispered and kissed her forehead.
- - -
I really thought Austin would leave when he found out. That was the reason why I decided to do an abortion. Because I saw the sadness in his eyes when he found out. It wasn’t his babies. It was Dave’s. He was quite the whole drive back to my apartment. It torn me apart a little because I knew that million of thoughts was running through his head right now. Million. And right now two small babies, Dave’s babies, grew inside me.
I walked inside and walked inside the bathroom, and I jumped inside the shower. Just as the water hit my body I started to cry again. I just stood there and cried. And I thought that Austin didn’t hear me but soon he walked in to the bathroom and he turned off the water. He gently wrapped a towel around me and took another one to cry my hair. I sobbed as he dried my whole body and then carried me up to my bed. He laid me down and put the blanket over me. He stroked me cheek and moved the hair away from my face.
"Everything will be just fine" he whispered.
"I thought I was free, and over everything… not completely… But I had finally healed, I was finally happy… and this… this is…" I said and started to cry again.
"Hush love, everything will be just fine" he said again and kissed me.
I'm gonna reread this story tonight when I get off of work and I'm so excited
I haven't read it in years but it was one of my favorite fics.
6/9/16