A few days later Austin took my hands and looked me in the eye.
"I would like you to come with us on tour again" he said.
"Austin, I’m not coming on tour with you guys again… Your fans are kinda dreadful sometimes" I said and shook my head.
"You’re not going to be a merchgirl, you’re just going to cook us food and help us get up in the mornings" he said and smiled.
"Austin" I said and looked at him. He squeezed my hands.
"I want you to come, I really want" he said.

And that is how I was talked into coming on tour again. Not as a merchgirl but as a “babysitter”. A better job because then I didn’t have to interact with fans as much as I had to as a merchgirl. I had a lot of maxi dresses with me. To hide the small bump that had been starting to show. Since I had twins I had a small bump that was noticeable. I didn’t want Alan to be nagging about it. I wanted to tell him when I felt like telling him. And I just knew that he wouldn’t be to happy about that fact that I had twins growing inside me, and that Austin would raise them… When they actually belonged to Dave. I shivered a little when I thought about it.
"What are you thinking about?" Austin asked as we drove towards the meeting place.
"when Alan finds out" I whispered and looked out the window.
"Relax, you can tell him that you’re pregnant but you don’t have to say the whole truth until you feel ready for it" he said and smiled.

We arrived and the others gave me huge smiles as I walked out the car together with Austin.
"so you got her to join us" Alan said and hugged me. I smiled and nodded.
"I’m good at convincing people" Austin teased and gave me a grin.
"Well you guys need a babysitter" I laughed and they all bursted out laughing with me.
"Yeah, and this time you won’t need to interact with the fans if you don’t want to" Phil said and hugged me. I nodded.
"This time I won’t even go near them" I said and grinned a little.

- - -

I took my own bunker, to Alan’s surprise, and I stuffed my bag inside at the end. Alan looked at me.
"I thought you would share with Austin" he said.
"Well I might do that sometimes, but I like to sleep alone too" I said and shrugged.
"Yeah, the bunkers are quite small" he said and smiled. I glanced at him and I wondered… Should I tell him now or wait until we actually had time to talk? I should probably wait until a better time.

- - -

Alan’s POV

She was out in the lounge making a salad. A simple salad and I could see that she smiled, but her eyes was filled with sorrow. There was something going on that she didn’t tell me. I looked at her and I swallowed. Something was definitely going on. Then Austin walked over to her and he wrapped his arms around her waist, kissed her neck and whispered something. I looked at them and she smiled a little bit bigger. Still with eyes filled with sorrow. Austin closed his eyes and he kissed her neck and then her temple. One hand sneaked on to her belly and the other one rubbed her hip. First I just looked at them and then I just knew. I felt the shock growing inside me. I felt the surprise showing in my face. My eyes growing wider as I stared at them. She was pregnant.