Alligator Blood
The Great Hendowski
Oli’s P.O.V
“So your fine and so is he?” I asked Matt for the thousandth time, he gave me a dragged out yes,
“Good. Tell Tom I’m not mad, I just need to talk to him later…it would be sacrilegious if I got mad at him for this…” I said it as if I had truly meant it, truth be told I was furious! What was he thinking?
“Okay, Ols. See you soon.” Matt’s voice was a mix of emotions, before I could ask if he was alright, he hung up. I sighed, slipping my phone back in my pocket, and walking back inside to the waiting room, the guys all looked at me curiously, Lee patted the seat next to him, I gladly took it. He wrapped an arm around my shoulders,
“Are you okay, Oli? I mean I know your not okay…but are you…-“
“I’m fine.” I lied, everyone knew I wasn’t telling the truth, it was easy to see that I was far from fine. I felt like I had been hit by a train, and probably looked it too,
“Tino is on his way back with a change of clothes for all of us, I don’t think you want to wear that shirt any longer than you have too.” Aaron spoke softly, I frowned, studying my shirt again, the white shirt that read “I <3 DROP DEAD” wasn’t very white anymore. Brownish, crimson stains completely covered the collar area, and a good portion everywhere else, I thought back to when Austin coughed at the bar, how the blood spewed up in my face, successfully hitting me in the mouth and eyes, and drenching my attire, how I had to fight so hard to not throw up as he the copper liquid taste lingered in my mouth.
“Yeah…” was my short reply, thankfully, Tino emerged from the double doors, stepping inside, with two big bags in his hands, he smiled as he spotted us. How that man can stay so optimistic was beyond me. He began distributing clothes to their owners, who all thanked him, before retreating to the bathrooms to change, he handed me pair of my black skinny jeans, a pair of drop dead boxers, and my coffin tank, lastly handing me Austin’s drop dead jacket. I studied the logos, the wolf, the reaper, the coffin on the sleeve, the words DROP DEAD MMXII written on the back, I smiled at him.
“Thank you, Tino.” I tried to stand up, clutching the garments to my chest, Tino offered me a hand, which I took. As I got to my feet, exhaustion hit me, and I got light headed, “Have you eaten or slept, Oli?” the drummer asked, concern leaking into his voice.
“No…” I muttered, no sense in lying, he knew I hadn’t.I swayed to the side a bit, he caught my arm,
“You’re going to pass out if you don’t eat, lets go get you changed, and then we can get you something from the Cafeteria,”
“But Austin…” I muttered,
“He has testing for the next hour, we couldn’t see him if we tried, your health is important Oli.” He slung my arm over his shoulder, helping me to the small family bathroom; he opened the door, helping me inside.
“Besides, Austin will want you to be healthy when he sees you, he would throw a fit if he saw you like this!” I chuckled, he had a point, Austin wouldn’t be happy if he saw the current state I was in.
Tino slipped my jacket off, sitting me down on a chair that was placed in the small wash room, I crossed my arms, I couldn’t let him see…
“Oli, c’mon, I know, remember? We had this talk after THAT day on the bus…I wont stare, I promise, but Austin would be mad at me if I let his Fiancé walk around in trashed clothes like these.”
Granted that made me a bit happy, just the word Fiance was enough to send a smile to my face, no matter what was wrong with him or I, we were together till the end, no more kid shit, no more games, we were going to get married someday, and spend forever together; and that was enough motivation for me to not give up. I know the next few months, years maybe, would be hard, with Austin not being able to move around on his own, but he would do this for me, and I had no problem doing it for him.
I nodded, helping Tino the best that I could to slip my shirt off, after that was discarded, he slipped on the Deathbeds tank, this had been my favorite design yet, just for what it stood for. After that was on, I used my last bit of strength to unbutton my jeans, and get them off of my hips, Tino pulled them down, helping me get the skin tight pants off, we both giggled.
“I’m Trying so hard to ignore the fact that this is really weird!” he chimed, I laughed a bit louder.
“’orry, ‘ust don’t have ‘ny strength” I yawned, he chuckled.
“Your accent is so funny when your tired!” he exclaimed, before tossing me a new pair of boxers,
“Uh do you think you can manage these at least?” he asked awkwardly, I cackled, suddenly feeling a bit slap happy,
“’eah I gots it.” He laughed again, turning around while I pushed my old ones off, ignoring how freezing the seat was under my bare skin, I slipped the other pair on in a hurry.
“Done.” I stated proudly,
“YAY!” Tino joked, grabbing my new jeans and tugging them on my feet, when he got to my knees, I took them and pulled them up the rest of the way, fastening them,
“How do you wear those? Their like Latex!” he slipped my black vans back on, before helping me stand up, I shrugged.
“Talent?” I joked, he grabbed Austin’s jacket, helping me into it, it hung on me awkwardly, considering he was a good 5 inches taller, and at least 50 lbs of muscle heavier, it only made since. I turned to Tino, who stuck a thumb up in approval, “Let’s find the others, and go get you some food!” he cheered, opening the door, and letting me lean on him for support.
“What happened? Are you okay?”
I looked up, my eyes locking with those of my best friend, he held onto Tom’s arm, like he was afraid to let him go, I don’t blame him.
“Mhm, just need to eat. You all wanna go?” they nodded, “ask the guys, Matt. Tom, you come here, now.” I pointed at the floor, his eyes were as wide as saucers, as his boyfriend patted his back before trotting off to get everyone else, Tino looked at me, “Should I let you two talk?” he asked, I nodded my head, he helped me lean on the wall, Tom held onto me for additional support.
“Oli, look I-“
“Promise me you wont do it again, and I promise that I wont either.” I stated simply, he blinked a few times, his mouth agape.
“You promise, Oli?” he asked hoarsely, I nodded my head. If promising him that meant saving Tom from doing it, it was worth it.
“Then I do too, I’m so sorry Olober. Matt already chewed me out, and then cried the whole way back, so I don’t think I would ever have the heart to hurt him like that again,” he toyed with my hair, fixing pieces that were astray. “I guess I just didn’t know how much I meant to him, or you, or anyone else. I realize now that was selfish of me to think, I love you Oli.”
Lieshehatesyou.
No.
“I love you too, Tom. You mean the world to me, ya know? I don’t know what I would do ‘thout ya,” he hugged me tighter, as Matt and the guys came up to us. Tino had a wheel chair, “I told the nurse you were light headed from not eating, so I got you this.” I stared at the small device, realizing then that I would be seeing one of these a lot, as Austin would be confined to one for god knows how long.
“look I know you don’t want too…especially since what happened with Austin, but its only till you eat something, kay?” I nodded, fumbling my way over to the chair, as I sat in it, I felt my body lose just that much more strength,
“I really need to eat,” I whined, feeling my vision coming and going was starting to freak me out a bit.
suchababyOli.
The guys all but rushed me to the café’ grabbing me anything sugary, which consisted of a cinnamon roll, tea with lots of sugar, cookies, and a salad, which was more my doing then theirs.
“What about a chicken sandwich?”Tino held the item up, I laughed.
“You should know by now I don’t eat meat!” I laughed, he blushed, muttering a “forgot.” As he slipped the item on his plate, we got to the front, where Tino insisted on paying the 50 dollars for everyone’s food, no one argued, seeing as they had made getting me food a priority.
“Alright there ya go,” Kean said, sliding me at the end of the booth, I thanked him, before ravenously devouring the salad, moving on to the cinnamon roll, then cookies,
“WOAH SLOW DOWN!” Phil exclaimed, I shook my head.
“Too hungry for that.” I said quickly, shoveling the last cookie in my mouth, and chewing.
“Here, want my-“
“anything you don’t eat, I will take.” I laughed, Jordan nodded, tossing me the veggie burger, I thanked him, before stuffing my face. I finished the last bit of food, suddenly feeling a lot more energetic then I had 20 minutes ago, I looked up, and everyone was watching me with sly smirks.
“What?” I asked, taking a swig of my tea, they all shrugged, carrying on there mindless conversations.
“Will Oliver Sykes and Alan Ashby please report to the South ICU. Oliver Sykes and Alan Ashby to the South ICU, thank you.” As the PA system clicked off, I felt the color from my face drain,
“He’s alright, let’s go see him though, okay?” Alan asked, and I nodded my head. He helped me out of the chair, and I found that I was finally able to stand on my own, so we quickly made our way to Austin’s room. I took a sharp intake of breath, before slipping inside, Austin smiled at me,
“Sorry, I got impatient, and begged them to let you both come back here.” He said, making grabby hands for both of us, I smiled taking his right hand, Alan his left.
“so how did it go?” Alan asked, pulling up a chair for himself, Austin smiled,
“Good! No serious trauma, I should be fine, they don’t know how long ill be like this,” he motioned downwards, “but they said they are 99% sure that I will get better, and go back to living normally. I have to have the heart surgery in two months, but they said that should go fine too.”
“Thank god,” I smiled, Austin smirked, “Aren’t you an atheist?” he giggled, as I blushed.
“So? It’s just a saying!” I defended myself, he squeezed my hand.
“I like that jacket, wonder who’s it is…” he pursed his lips, I pinched his arm, causing him to yelp.
“Hey! Not fair!” he whined, Alan did the same, he pouted.
“Guys!”
We exchanged glances before busting into fits of laughter, it was amazing to know that no matter what goes wrong, Austin could always put a smile on my face, no matter what happened.
“So I get to go home tomorrow, but I have therapy everyday 3-6” he said, twirling our fingers together.
“Well I’m glad you get to come home, we can re-arrange the house so our room is in the small den next to the studio.” I chided,
“Sounds good, baby.” He smiled, but something wasn’t right, it felt as if it was almost forced,
Itscauseherealizedyouarentworthanything.
“Austie?” I asked, he frowned, “What’s wrong?”
He took a few moments to gather his thoughts, Austin shot me a sad smile.
“Nothing, I guess I just have a lot going on, right? Plus seeing Gielle yesterday, was weird…I agreed to be her friend, but I don’t want to ever be that close to her anymore. With everything that has happened, I should be grateful I’m alive, but now I just feel like…I’m going to be a burden to you guys. Especially you Oli, I’m just afraid that you will not want to be with me anymore…” his confession took me a back,
“What? Why on earth would I leave you? You stuck by my side through thick and thin, and waited for me when I was gone that year. You never once questioned my decisions, never judged me for things that I have done, you accepted me for who I was, everything I am, and I hope you know, I did the same for you. I love you, Austin. More than words can describe, no matter what happens, god forbid this, but even if you couldn’t ever walk again…I would never EVER leave you. I’m afraid your stuck with me, and I with you, but I honestly don’t mind, I cant think of better company.” I kissed his hand, and watched a stray tear fall from his eye, for a man who has done so much…had so much happen to him, he always looked so happy…but I guess this is a glance at how he really feels.
Insecure, scared, betrayed by loved ones, and most importantly, hurt; but I was determined to make everything better. No matter what the cost.
“So your fine and so is he?” I asked Matt for the thousandth time, he gave me a dragged out yes,
“Good. Tell Tom I’m not mad, I just need to talk to him later…it would be sacrilegious if I got mad at him for this…” I said it as if I had truly meant it, truth be told I was furious! What was he thinking?
“Okay, Ols. See you soon.” Matt’s voice was a mix of emotions, before I could ask if he was alright, he hung up. I sighed, slipping my phone back in my pocket, and walking back inside to the waiting room, the guys all looked at me curiously, Lee patted the seat next to him, I gladly took it. He wrapped an arm around my shoulders,
“Are you okay, Oli? I mean I know your not okay…but are you…-“
“I’m fine.” I lied, everyone knew I wasn’t telling the truth, it was easy to see that I was far from fine. I felt like I had been hit by a train, and probably looked it too,
“Tino is on his way back with a change of clothes for all of us, I don’t think you want to wear that shirt any longer than you have too.” Aaron spoke softly, I frowned, studying my shirt again, the white shirt that read “I <3 DROP DEAD” wasn’t very white anymore. Brownish, crimson stains completely covered the collar area, and a good portion everywhere else, I thought back to when Austin coughed at the bar, how the blood spewed up in my face, successfully hitting me in the mouth and eyes, and drenching my attire, how I had to fight so hard to not throw up as he the copper liquid taste lingered in my mouth.
“Yeah…” was my short reply, thankfully, Tino emerged from the double doors, stepping inside, with two big bags in his hands, he smiled as he spotted us. How that man can stay so optimistic was beyond me. He began distributing clothes to their owners, who all thanked him, before retreating to the bathrooms to change, he handed me pair of my black skinny jeans, a pair of drop dead boxers, and my coffin tank, lastly handing me Austin’s drop dead jacket. I studied the logos, the wolf, the reaper, the coffin on the sleeve, the words DROP DEAD MMXII written on the back, I smiled at him.
“Thank you, Tino.” I tried to stand up, clutching the garments to my chest, Tino offered me a hand, which I took. As I got to my feet, exhaustion hit me, and I got light headed, “Have you eaten or slept, Oli?” the drummer asked, concern leaking into his voice.
“No…” I muttered, no sense in lying, he knew I hadn’t.I swayed to the side a bit, he caught my arm,
“You’re going to pass out if you don’t eat, lets go get you changed, and then we can get you something from the Cafeteria,”
“But Austin…” I muttered,
“He has testing for the next hour, we couldn’t see him if we tried, your health is important Oli.” He slung my arm over his shoulder, helping me to the small family bathroom; he opened the door, helping me inside.
“Besides, Austin will want you to be healthy when he sees you, he would throw a fit if he saw you like this!” I chuckled, he had a point, Austin wouldn’t be happy if he saw the current state I was in.
Tino slipped my jacket off, sitting me down on a chair that was placed in the small wash room, I crossed my arms, I couldn’t let him see…
“Oli, c’mon, I know, remember? We had this talk after THAT day on the bus…I wont stare, I promise, but Austin would be mad at me if I let his Fiancé walk around in trashed clothes like these.”
Granted that made me a bit happy, just the word Fiance was enough to send a smile to my face, no matter what was wrong with him or I, we were together till the end, no more kid shit, no more games, we were going to get married someday, and spend forever together; and that was enough motivation for me to not give up. I know the next few months, years maybe, would be hard, with Austin not being able to move around on his own, but he would do this for me, and I had no problem doing it for him.
I nodded, helping Tino the best that I could to slip my shirt off, after that was discarded, he slipped on the Deathbeds tank, this had been my favorite design yet, just for what it stood for. After that was on, I used my last bit of strength to unbutton my jeans, and get them off of my hips, Tino pulled them down, helping me get the skin tight pants off, we both giggled.
“I’m Trying so hard to ignore the fact that this is really weird!” he chimed, I laughed a bit louder.
“’orry, ‘ust don’t have ‘ny strength” I yawned, he chuckled.
“Your accent is so funny when your tired!” he exclaimed, before tossing me a new pair of boxers,
“Uh do you think you can manage these at least?” he asked awkwardly, I cackled, suddenly feeling a bit slap happy,
“’eah I gots it.” He laughed again, turning around while I pushed my old ones off, ignoring how freezing the seat was under my bare skin, I slipped the other pair on in a hurry.
“Done.” I stated proudly,
“YAY!” Tino joked, grabbing my new jeans and tugging them on my feet, when he got to my knees, I took them and pulled them up the rest of the way, fastening them,
“How do you wear those? Their like Latex!” he slipped my black vans back on, before helping me stand up, I shrugged.
“Talent?” I joked, he grabbed Austin’s jacket, helping me into it, it hung on me awkwardly, considering he was a good 5 inches taller, and at least 50 lbs of muscle heavier, it only made since. I turned to Tino, who stuck a thumb up in approval, “Let’s find the others, and go get you some food!” he cheered, opening the door, and letting me lean on him for support.
“What happened? Are you okay?”
I looked up, my eyes locking with those of my best friend, he held onto Tom’s arm, like he was afraid to let him go, I don’t blame him.
“Mhm, just need to eat. You all wanna go?” they nodded, “ask the guys, Matt. Tom, you come here, now.” I pointed at the floor, his eyes were as wide as saucers, as his boyfriend patted his back before trotting off to get everyone else, Tino looked at me, “Should I let you two talk?” he asked, I nodded my head, he helped me lean on the wall, Tom held onto me for additional support.
“Oli, look I-“
“Promise me you wont do it again, and I promise that I wont either.” I stated simply, he blinked a few times, his mouth agape.
“You promise, Oli?” he asked hoarsely, I nodded my head. If promising him that meant saving Tom from doing it, it was worth it.
“Then I do too, I’m so sorry Olober. Matt already chewed me out, and then cried the whole way back, so I don’t think I would ever have the heart to hurt him like that again,” he toyed with my hair, fixing pieces that were astray. “I guess I just didn’t know how much I meant to him, or you, or anyone else. I realize now that was selfish of me to think, I love you Oli.”
Lieshehatesyou.
No.
“I love you too, Tom. You mean the world to me, ya know? I don’t know what I would do ‘thout ya,” he hugged me tighter, as Matt and the guys came up to us. Tino had a wheel chair, “I told the nurse you were light headed from not eating, so I got you this.” I stared at the small device, realizing then that I would be seeing one of these a lot, as Austin would be confined to one for god knows how long.
“look I know you don’t want too…especially since what happened with Austin, but its only till you eat something, kay?” I nodded, fumbling my way over to the chair, as I sat in it, I felt my body lose just that much more strength,
“I really need to eat,” I whined, feeling my vision coming and going was starting to freak me out a bit.
suchababyOli.
The guys all but rushed me to the café’ grabbing me anything sugary, which consisted of a cinnamon roll, tea with lots of sugar, cookies, and a salad, which was more my doing then theirs.
“What about a chicken sandwich?”Tino held the item up, I laughed.
“You should know by now I don’t eat meat!” I laughed, he blushed, muttering a “forgot.” As he slipped the item on his plate, we got to the front, where Tino insisted on paying the 50 dollars for everyone’s food, no one argued, seeing as they had made getting me food a priority.
“Alright there ya go,” Kean said, sliding me at the end of the booth, I thanked him, before ravenously devouring the salad, moving on to the cinnamon roll, then cookies,
“WOAH SLOW DOWN!” Phil exclaimed, I shook my head.
“Too hungry for that.” I said quickly, shoveling the last cookie in my mouth, and chewing.
“Here, want my-“
“anything you don’t eat, I will take.” I laughed, Jordan nodded, tossing me the veggie burger, I thanked him, before stuffing my face. I finished the last bit of food, suddenly feeling a lot more energetic then I had 20 minutes ago, I looked up, and everyone was watching me with sly smirks.
“What?” I asked, taking a swig of my tea, they all shrugged, carrying on there mindless conversations.
“Will Oliver Sykes and Alan Ashby please report to the South ICU. Oliver Sykes and Alan Ashby to the South ICU, thank you.” As the PA system clicked off, I felt the color from my face drain,
“He’s alright, let’s go see him though, okay?” Alan asked, and I nodded my head. He helped me out of the chair, and I found that I was finally able to stand on my own, so we quickly made our way to Austin’s room. I took a sharp intake of breath, before slipping inside, Austin smiled at me,
“Sorry, I got impatient, and begged them to let you both come back here.” He said, making grabby hands for both of us, I smiled taking his right hand, Alan his left.
“so how did it go?” Alan asked, pulling up a chair for himself, Austin smiled,
“Good! No serious trauma, I should be fine, they don’t know how long ill be like this,” he motioned downwards, “but they said they are 99% sure that I will get better, and go back to living normally. I have to have the heart surgery in two months, but they said that should go fine too.”
“Thank god,” I smiled, Austin smirked, “Aren’t you an atheist?” he giggled, as I blushed.
“So? It’s just a saying!” I defended myself, he squeezed my hand.
“I like that jacket, wonder who’s it is…” he pursed his lips, I pinched his arm, causing him to yelp.
“Hey! Not fair!” he whined, Alan did the same, he pouted.
“Guys!”
We exchanged glances before busting into fits of laughter, it was amazing to know that no matter what goes wrong, Austin could always put a smile on my face, no matter what happened.
“So I get to go home tomorrow, but I have therapy everyday 3-6” he said, twirling our fingers together.
“Well I’m glad you get to come home, we can re-arrange the house so our room is in the small den next to the studio.” I chided,
“Sounds good, baby.” He smiled, but something wasn’t right, it felt as if it was almost forced,
Itscauseherealizedyouarentworthanything.
“Austie?” I asked, he frowned, “What’s wrong?”
He took a few moments to gather his thoughts, Austin shot me a sad smile.
“Nothing, I guess I just have a lot going on, right? Plus seeing Gielle yesterday, was weird…I agreed to be her friend, but I don’t want to ever be that close to her anymore. With everything that has happened, I should be grateful I’m alive, but now I just feel like…I’m going to be a burden to you guys. Especially you Oli, I’m just afraid that you will not want to be with me anymore…” his confession took me a back,
“What? Why on earth would I leave you? You stuck by my side through thick and thin, and waited for me when I was gone that year. You never once questioned my decisions, never judged me for things that I have done, you accepted me for who I was, everything I am, and I hope you know, I did the same for you. I love you, Austin. More than words can describe, no matter what happens, god forbid this, but even if you couldn’t ever walk again…I would never EVER leave you. I’m afraid your stuck with me, and I with you, but I honestly don’t mind, I cant think of better company.” I kissed his hand, and watched a stray tear fall from his eye, for a man who has done so much…had so much happen to him, he always looked so happy…but I guess this is a glance at how he really feels.
Insecure, scared, betrayed by loved ones, and most importantly, hurt; but I was determined to make everything better. No matter what the cost.
Notes
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