Oliver


I was sat in my car for a while; I didn’t have the guts to leave. I couldn’t leave her like that, she was broken I had caused all of this pain that she didn’t need; I was the one who needed to fix her.I just didn’t know how and thinking about it scared me, what if I couldn’t do it. She couldn’t have someone let her down again and it defiantly couldn’t me that does it. Everything was running through my head, everything bad that could possibly happen. I had to be there for her she’s to messed up for you to protect, she can’t look after herself. But if she can’t look after herself doesn’t that mean she needs me?

Of course it did, I jumped out of my car and headed straight into her apartment not giving her a chance to say or do anything.

“I’m not leaving Lace and neither are you. We both need each other, I’m not strong enough without you, I never realised that before, and I struggle to breathe when you’re not around. I don’ want to take the easy option and leave you, I want to fight for you even if that means helping you fight your demons I’ll do it because I’m not as weak as I was. I want you Lace. I have no idea what Matt said but please don’t let him ruin this he doesn’t want me to move on because he’s scared of me leaving the band behind. He’s trying to come between me and you don’t let him win again please. Please give me the chance to prove to you that I’ve changed and I want to be with you. I will do anything for you Lacie-rose. Please don’t cry.”

I looked over at her small figure her eyes were swollen from all the crying but she still was the strongest person in this room. I had let me guard down I was just hoping she could do the same, she wasn’t saying or doing anything she looks defeated with everything. I took a few steps towards her, until she put her hands up
“Stop Oliver, please. I break everything I touch; I don’t want to break you. I can’t do this anymore, I can’t go on I feel nothing, why can’t I just feel something Oli? What’s so wrong with me? I have so much going on in my head, I’m still the same messed up girl you left once before, I don’t want the heart break of you walking out again. I can do this on my own just please, stop feeling sorry for me. Please let me leave.”

“You won’t break me, unless you tell me to leave right now. I love you stupid. You can do anything you want; you are the strongest person I have met. You can battle through anything. There’s nothing wrong with you, you just need someone to talk to and who’s going to listen. You are not broken Lace. I will not let you be broken. I promise you that I will never walk out again. I’m here this time. What can I do to prove to you? I’m not letting you go anywhere”
I needed Lacie to stay I wasn’t myself without her. I thought I was okay, but seeing her brought everything back all I want to do is kiss her, but I knew that the timing wasn’t right.

“Please Oli”
Was all she managed to say before she crashed into my arms, sobbing. I didn’t know what I was supposed to do to help.We stayed there like that for a little while, I was stroking her back whispering calming thoughts into her ear.

“Lacie let’s sit down okay? Then we can talk about everything, I don’t mean that you can cut things out. I want to know everything about you.”
“Okay”

I carried her to the sofa; I looked at her waiting for her to begin her story.

Notes

-Kay