Repeating Apologies

Alan POV
Being with Austin was just as good as I remembered it. Better even. Without trying to sound too cheesy I felt like the only person in the world with him, that's how well he treat me.
We took a stroll through town to get some new clothes, our fingers were intertwined and they were softly swinging. Sure we'd get a lot of disgusted looks from the homo-phobics but we didn't care. We got to one shop, I had no idea what it was called but it stocked some decent stuff. I found these jeans with two rips in the knees, pitch black and skinny, I needed them. I went to the dressing to try them on and then overheard a conversation between Austin and what seemed some dumb bitch after my man.
"Waiting for you girlfriend?" She asked
"I don't have one" he laughed back. Cheeky git was leading her on. It was always funny when one of us did it, kind of like an inside joke.
"Then you wouldn't mind telling me what I look like in these panties then" she flirted. I heard Austin's awkward laugh. "I don't think I should do that"
"How come big boy? I don't mind" he giggled
"Well, I don't think my boyfriend would be too happy about it"
"Your what?"
"Boyfriend"
"BOYFRIEND?!" She almost screamed. I had tried them on and I loved them, by now I was dressed back in my normal clothes and I just had to take the chance whilst I had it. I opened the door to the changing room and saw the girl stood around him, about to kind of complain to him about him being gay and not saying he had a boyfriend when I walked straight to him, flung my arms around his neck and locked our lips together. He laid his hands on me and the devil slid them down to my butt and he gently squeezed one cheek. I felt him smile in the kiss and I couldn't help but smile too. The girl threw her tantrum and walked off embarrassed as all hell.
We broke this kiss laughing to ourselves. "I love when that happens" I said. He smirked at me "Same, cos it means I get to do this" He took a look around the shop to see where staff were and when the place was clear he grabbed my hand and pulled me into the changing room. He pulled me in close to him and started to take my shirt off. I knew exactly what he was thinking and FUCK IT WHY NOT.
Okay, we nearly got caught. But that just made it the more better.
We came out of the changing room laughing to ourselves. We then finally got to the point of actually buying what we had, and when we walked outside we saw that girl that tried it on with Austin, with two other girls and they really did not look happy. Mine and Austins hands were linked together again and they kind of just looked at it then back to us.
"How dare you, let our friend say that to you! when you're diseased and taken!" one of the girls shouted. Diseased? Me and Austin kind of just knew what each other were thinking, we burst out laughing. We've had so much hate of us being together but it never really bothered us, especially from girls like this.
"She only asked if I had a girlfriend" Austin pointed out. Which was true, she didn't ask if he had a boyfriend. The girls seemed kind of speechless. "You still didn't even tell her you were diseased!" one complained.
Austin looked down to me and I shrugged my shoulders. "I'm not diseased" He admitted.
"Being gay is a sin!" one shouted, they were making a scene out of nothing
"And trying to show a random guy your naked body isn't?" he questioned and then we kinda just walked off, leaving them to think it out to themselves.
"Diseased my ass" He bent down to say into my ear and I burst out laughing. I placed my hand on his butt and squeezed. "Nah, seems good to me" I joked back. He put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me in close laughing. Austin looked over the other side of the street. Jacobs was close, just ahead, i thought he'd be thinking about going in for a little bit, but he was looking at an alleyway. "What're you looking at?" I questioned him.
He pointed to the alleyway, "Remember what happened down there?" he laughed to himself. OH! That was the- yeah. I laughed to myself once I had realized what he was talking about. "We'll have to revisit it one day" I suggested with a smirk.
He cheekily giggled to himself. "We shall"
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"You up for Jacobs tonight? My friends having her after-wedding-party thing there, we've been invited" Austin shouted to me. He was in the living room and I was in the shower. "Sure thing" I shouted back. I guess we were off out tonight then, hadn't exactly planned anything anyway.
Austin came into the bathroom once he heard that I had switched the shower off. I pulled back the curtain to find him there. "You fucking creep, get out" I joked to him. "Not when you look like that Ashby" he smirked and kinda tackled me whilst I was still stood in the bath. It was one of those kinds, y'know shower/bath. I like, fell but didn't cos he kinda caught me, but he also was half in the tub now, covering me and he was getting covered in water that was lying on my body. "Austin!" I laughed as he tickled my sides.
He finally got off of me and I managed to stand up again, this time out of the bath. I grabbed the nearest towel and wrapped it round my bottom half and then he finally told me why he was here. "I was actually thinking you were out already, and when I saw you weren't I thought i'd be a creep" he laughed to himself. I sat on the side of the bath, listening to him. "Anyway, I brought in your clothes for tonight. He chucked me the hanger that had 'smart-casual' clothes attached. "Get changed" he smiled and walked out of the room.
I looked at the clothes, it was a black shirt, black smart jacket, my new jeans and some black vans. Smart enough I guess. Well, it's as smart as me and Austin ever dress.
When I sorted myself out, I came out and Austin was dressed in almost the same as me. His shirt was like a stonewashed jean shirt with a black jacket, black skinnies and military boots.
"You clean up well Carlile" I joked and he bowed. "As do you Ashby"
He took hold of my hand and we headed out the door to Jacobs.
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"Lisa!" He called over to his friend. Her and her new husband walked over and hugged Austin. "How've you been?" and blah blah blah. I wasn't really concentrating on what the conversation was until I heard my name.
"And who's this?" She asked
Austin put his arm around my waist and brought me in close. "This is Alan" I smiled and awkwardly waved at the couple. She looked up to Austin and didn't seem to approve too much. "Can I have a word?" She asked him. He nodded and I kinda just walked over to the food.
HEY.
He finally came back, and he placed his hands on my hips and his head on top of mine. "What was that about?" I asked and he sighed.
"She's just a lil protective is all"
Protective? Over what? I turned around "What do you mean?"
"She thinks, that, well, you're just gonna hurt me."
"Why?"
"Because, well, when you were with Jack, I needed someone to talk to, let all my stress out to, and we often talked about you, and she just, isn't keen on you" he admitted.
"You talked shit about me?" I asked. I was kinda pissed, I was in a relationship and he was talking shit about me because of it, what the fuck.
"Well, not exactly" he babbled. I looked up at him "Whatever" I walked away from him, I didn't want that little argument to go further so I went to the bathroom, yknow, freshen up. Walking away was the best idea, before it got worse.
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I was mixing with other people, I had no idea who any of them were, the place was dark and there was music playing, it wasn't the best music either. I hadn't really seen Austin since that little conversation we had and I kinda didn't want to see him until the end of this thing. I was still kinda pissed that he'd talk shit behind my back, even then.
The song "Africa" by Toto came on. Cheesy as fuck right? The couple were having their 'first dance' or whatever bullshit they do. I've gotta admit, I kind of liked this song. It was catchy and a hard to hate thing. I saw the two dance, it was boring to be honest but everyone seemed to be in awe. Then all the other stupid happy couples joined in. Like damn, making us sad people feel worse. Legit, everyone in the hall kind of just grouped up and slow danced with each other and then there was just me and Austin, awkwardly staring at each other.
He had an apologetic look on his face, he took his opportunity and walked over to me. "Im sti-" he cut me off with his lips. He rested his hand on my neck like he always did and took my hand with his spare hand. I broke the kiss and finished my sentence. "Im still mad at you" He nodded his head, he was silent but slowly leading me to where everyone else was.
He brought me in close, his hands on my hips and my hands reluctantly on his shoulders. We slow danced and I really wasn't in to the whole, slow dance with a cheesy song on. It was very movie romantic, I used to dream of having a dance like this but in the mood I was in? It was all bullshit. He still hadn't said a word. "Are you not gonna say anything or-" I asked he just ducked his head towards my ear. "I love you Ashby"
He just sa-said the L word. I plucked my head back from him in shock but OH MY GOD I FORGAVE HIM, STRAIGHT AWAY. Im way too forgiving. His expression was kind of depressed but trying to smile like every things cool. I think I may of upset him a little by being mad but, oh god. I was swooning.
I crept up to my tip-toes and closed the gap between us, locking our lips together and deepened the kiss. It was legit our most passionate one, we've ever had. This time, it was full of actual love. Because, he loved me!
My smile since then had not disappeared at all.
Before we left the place, I shot a scowl at Lisa just to be a dick and stopped Austin at the door, before stepping out into the darkness. "Whats up Kitten?" He asked "I love you" I blurted. He smiled, bigger than his face could take. Whatever sadness that he had around had vanished. He lent down slightly and pressed a firm kiss on my lips with a smile. "Now lets get you home" He smirked.
The ride home was sweet. No music, no talking. He just held my hand all the way. I could tell things were about to get very different between us. Just because the exchanging of three small words.
We got in the house and well..
This time we did it, it was so much better than any other time we had. I guess, that time it really was making love to your love. All I knew, is that I loved him and I would take a bullet for him..

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