Repeating Apologies

Austin POV
I-I- He was there, in my arms. Pressed close, all night. What did I do? Did the flirty thing finally work? I couldnt believe my eyes. He was still sound asleep and I didnt want to move, not at all. I pressed a small kiss on the back of his head and tried to sleep more but I just couldnt. I was too excited. No-No not like that, I mean, I dont want to wake him up so I- yeah. Shut up.
All of a sudden he turned his head to look at me and I yet again couldnt help but smile but he didnt smile back. His furrowed his eyebrows, maybe it wasnt mutual. He moved again in one quick motion and kind of sprinted for the door leaving me in my bed, cold and alone. I didnt understand.
Maybe it was to stay that way, one moment he'd show a slight glimpse of interest and the next, he'd crush it under his foot. Along with my head. I didnt know what to do, I know the whole flirty thing is just a big game but it means something, im actually trying and when I think im getting somewhere, he shuts it down. How much more do I have to apologize?
Alan POV
wHY WAS I IN HIS BED, I TOLD MYSELF NO. I need to sort this out. I feel bad for doing this, I like him, i really do but i just, think its too early, but then, when im with him its just like, ahh maybe no. fuck my life, im being like a teenage girl about this or a flower. i dont know. I love him, i love him not, yknow.
Once I left I wanted hit myself in the head so much, because I had the thought of "no, I hate him" but then I shut that out and I kind of just regretted leaving the bed. So, I did something i didnt think I would do, I guess love makes you crazy right?
I marched right back into his bedroom, he was sat up in his bed, looking like he was contemplating something, he looked even more confused when I came back in. "Whats going on kitten?" He asked quietly. He looked kinda lost. I loved when he called me kitten but yet I hated it? Like, we're not in a relationship but he still uses that pet name for me. Cute but annoying?
I crawled onto his bed again and without saying a word pressed my lips to his, he didnt kiss back at first but after a while he joined in, finally closing his eyes. I placed one hand beside him to prop myself up and the other on his neck whilst his hands were gently placed on my face. He broke the kiss and I saw a massive grin there. I couldnt help but smile afterwards, i've missed this so much more than I thought and without another thought I joined our lips yet again. I dont know why i've been holding back so much. I was me again, finally.
If Austin wasnt already half naked I would of ripped his shirt off straight away, so instead I took mine off and well yknow.. fuck, man. I've missed him so much.
I lay on top of him as he smiled at me, i've never seen him so happy. "Wh-What was that?" He asked grinning like the Cheshire cat. I smiled in response "Long overdue" and gave him another kiss. I could literally feel his smile. His face just wasnt big enough to hold it.
Every bad thought I ever had about Austin just vanished. I was straight up head over heels for him yet again, just like I was when I was 17. I couldnt picture him wrong.
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Well, that was fun. My favourite place, my favourite person, my favourite thing. His bed, him and well..
That day we just spent it together, lying in bed. Aaron wasnt around so we had the apartment to ourselves.
Out of random he just randomly jumped on top of me, planking, keeping himself up by his elbows by the sides of me, he grinned and lowered his head to my ear. "I've got a present for you" he giggled to himself & it was infectious because i started to giggle too. "Oh yeah?" he nodded his head and placed small kisses down my neck. They got lower and lower, towards my waist. The kisses were like little imprints left by him, I didnt want them to leave. I threw my head back as he hit his favourite spot on my hips.. its a long story.
But, alas. All of that was ruined, his phone started to ring, ruined the moment. I sat up and so did he, we laughed to each other. "Maybe next time Aust" I played and he smiled. "Its gonna happen today" He threw back. He reached over for his phone and answered.
"One sex- I mean sec, lemme put you on speaker." He mumbled. "There you go"
"Hey so, we need to start looking for a new bassist/singer. Shay just called, hes defiantly not coming back" It was Phils voice. Austin looked at me and bit his lip. He wasnt listening to him at all. "Austin stop" I let out. I forgot that Phil didnt know I was here. "What?.. Alan?" He asked
"Yeah-haha" I replied. "I've got an idea for a new singer" I also suggested. I thought Aaron. I know, I know hes already in a band but, it could be my lucky day (his unlucky) that they decide they're not together anymore? I can only ask I guess.
"Okay, well call me and tell me how it goes, i'll start looking anyways"
"Sure thing Phil" i replied, Austin was still pulling faces at me. "Austin stop" I said, I covered my mouth up afterwards, I wasnt going to say it.
"I guess you two have sorted things out then?"
"well we were just in the middle of-" Austin grinned
"nothing, nothing we were doing nothing" i interrupted him, he doesnt need to know that.
"Ah, i dont even want to know, see you guys anyway." and "be safe" were his last words before he hung up the phone. I couldnt help but laugh at the end sentence. be safe. As soon as he hung up Austin chucked his phone on the floor and carried on where he was.
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"Im back" Aaron shouted. Me and Austin both looked at each other and simultaneously stood up and walked out of the room. I did the smart thing and actually put a shirt and trousers on where as Austin just walked out with only boxers on. Aaron was in for a shock.
"And you nearly naked.." Aaron said slowly, confused looking at Austin. Austin just laughed and grabbed me by the arm dragging me in front of him so i covered up his body.
"You two made up?" He asked raising on eyebrow, I smiled and nodded my head. Austin wrapped his arms around me. "Finally" he mumbled into my neck before placing a couple of kisses there.
"Yeah, okay, well i dont need to see it" Aaron argued jokingly. He put his bag down "So what you guys been up- wait, i can probably guess."
My face turned red, I could feel the heat on my cheeks. Austin laughed at me and nodded his head.
"Go put some clothes on" I turned around the Austin, ordering him to go back into his room. He did as I said and I took this as the chance to ask Aaron about joining the band.
"So Aaron, how was practise?" I asked and patiently waiting for an answer as he sighed. "The guys are trying some new sounds, im not overly keen on them yknow" i nodded my head, maybe they were trying a completely different thing to what he likes, pop? I know he sings pop but he told me its not something he'd want to do all the time.
"So like, we need a new singer/bassist, as you can guess, I was wondering if yknow, you wanted to try out? at-least, i mean if things dont go well for in Jamies Elsewhere im sure you'd do amazing with us. Of Mice and Men could be your home band?" He was silent, shocked and unsure. He'd have some questioning to do.
"I - uh, thanks dude, seriously, but im gonna have to think on it" he smiled awkwardly, brushing the hair out of his face.
"No problem, I mean, you're damn awesome when it comes to music, me and Austin think you'd be perfect, but your choice right? Its always an option" I smiled. Austin finally came back out of the room with clothes on although it looked like he was wearing my shirt. I coughed to see if he realized, but no. No he didnt. Aaron laughed at his mistake. "Austin."
"Yah?" He asked whilst wrapping his arms around me yet again. "You've got my shirt on."
He looked down and laughed himself silly. "I thought it was a little small. I mean, I thought I picked mine u-" He stopped straight away and looked at the shirt I was wearing. "Well you've got mine on so"
Wait, did i? I looked down and sighed. "Well, its mine now" I proclaimed, he pulled a joking shocked face or whatever its called and tackled me to the sofa "Not if i can help it" he said whilst tickling my sides, i was literally dying with laughter and I didnt even hear Aaron leave the room but he was gone when I opened my eyes.
Austin tried to pull the shirt over my head put i wouldnt let him, he finally got off me and stood up. I was left layed on the sofa trying to bring my breathing back to normal, he scooped my up in his arms and threw me over his shoulder. "Austin!" I called out laughing and he stayed silent. He dropped me on his bed and jumped on top of me, throwing the shirt he had on off straight away and then trying to get the shirt off of me again. "All this over a shirt?" I laughed.
He shook his head. "All this so I can do what I was going to do before" He giggled to himself and I quite happily let him take it off me. I would still get it later though.

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