My Understandings

I was right. Finlay did get pulled off me. I heard shouting, and people running. Then I heard someone shout Austin. What was going on? Chris came and knelt by my side helping me up, I rubbed my eyes stifly to see Austin stood there, looking at the floor, his shoulders dropped and Tino had his hand on his shoulder, comforting him. "W-What happened?" I asked Chris nervously. "Austin nearly hit him" He replied. Austins POV Once I pulled up in front of the school, Tino got out straight away, there was something going on over there, there was just a crowd of people. I got out of the car and Chris came running over to Tino, as soon as he got to him he grabbed hold of his shirt, out of breath, trying to explain something to him. "Fin-Finlays go-gonna g-g-get A-L-ala-n" He managed to get out, I looked up straight away, they were in a circle, that was like the universal code for fight. I stormed my way over there, I didn't know Alan at all, but, he was kinda cute, like he needed protecting. No, Austin stop, he's just a boy not a pet. Either way, I dont like to see people get hurt so. I pushed my way through the crowd, Tino and Chris was behind me, but they stood outside the crowd. As soon as some of the people in the crowd recognized me they moved away. See, I was never the most liked person in town. I used to live here and then rumours started, so I moved, Tino was pretty much my only friend from this town, so we always kept in touch, and then he came to live with me. We only occasionally came back, which was to visit his family. I didn't have much of a family. I saw the guy that was latched on top of Alan and grabbed him by his coat and pulled him off, I put him on his feet and pushed him backwards, his face was panicking. I took a step forward to him and grabbed his coat collar and almost lifted him off the ground, he was a lot shorter than me, which made me look more interrogating. "AUSTIN STOP" Tino shouted over to me, I took a second to think. He placed a hand on my shoulder. "Leave it" He continued. I thought about what he was saying, and I let go of him in an instant. The kid soon raced off in panic. I stood there and lowered my head, thinking about the past. Im so glad I had Tino, I don't know where i'd be without him. I must've just been stood there for about five minutes with my head hung, thinking about before, I wish I could just forget about it all, I really do. I wish I could re-do it all. Chris came over with Alan who was slightly hobbling, I looked him over, and his whole face was bloodied, he really got hit hard, its a good thing I got there when I did. I shook off all my other thoughts. "Are you okay dude?" I asked. He nodded his head limply, I knew he wasn't. It was obvious. We all knew what each other was thinking, I think. Well, me and Tino knew what we were thinking. We walked to the car and everyone got in, before I got into the car I looked around to see if those assholes were still around, when I was sure they weren't I sat in the seat and closed the door. Alan POV Okay, so, Austin kinda saved me? .. I'd let him save me anyday to be honest, I mean the man was gorgeous. And I'm sure he was perfect in everyway. No i'm not fangirling over him. All throughout the drive, I noticed he kept looking at me through the mirror. I saw every little glance, what was he staring at? I felt very uncomfortable with him just taking peaks at me, he knew I could see him doing it, so why did he keep doing it? I didn't actually know where we were going, and then the car pulled up in-front of this park. So, we're at a park to hang out then? I look like shit, oh my god. My face all bruised and bloody. They all climbed out the car, as did I. "I'll meet up with you guys" Austin shouted as he walked down the road. Where was he off to in a rush? The others shrugged it off and walked into the park and found the best place to sit, it was in a field, and there was a huge tree, we kind of just sat underneath it. Me and Chris explained to Tino about Finlay whilst waiting for Austin to come back. ---------- Ten minutes later he did come back, he had a bag full of things from the nearest shop, he sat down crossing his dangley legs. It almost seems confusing when you look at him sat down, like, how are someones legs so long? He must've been about six foot four. Easily past my five foot seven. I was sat there, quizzing myself over his legs. I swear, if anyone was to know what I was thinking about half the time, i'd be put away. I was soon brought back to reality by Chris pushing me slightly. "Dude" I shook my head and apologized. "I kinda, zoned out" They laughed at me, I looked at Austin hoping to god that he wasn't judging me, His laugh was sweet, and his smile was adorable and caring. God damn this guy. Austin handed me a can of Relentless, I smiled and accepted it. Oh my it was cold. The first thing I instantly did was put it on my face where I had been hit. It felt so good to have something cold touch it. Chris looked at me weirdly and Tino just laughed. I realized what I was doing and slowly put the can down. Why am I so awkward. Okay Alan, play it cool. Especially infront of Austin. "So, what was sparkies problem back there?" He questioned. I looked at Chris who was too busy talking to Tino to even notice me. I looked back to Austin and shrugged my shoulders. "He, just seems to hate me.." I went silent "I think its my hair to be honest" Austin laughed softly "Why your hair?" "Well, y'know." I shook my fingers through my hair "ginger-ist or something" He laughed at me again, but this time full on. I'm getting weird now. Stop Alan stop. "Ginger-ist?" He questioned still mid-laugh, I nodded my head. "Everyone seems to hate it and I do too" I confessed, he then stopped laughing and looked at me with a grin "Its cute" I looked away from him as I could feel my cheeks heat up again, for god sake Alan, pull yourself together. I quickly took hold of the can and pressed it to my cheeks trying to cool them down again. He just laughed at me again, it kind of made me mad, everyone just always laughing at me. I don't even know this dude and he's laughing at me. He must've seen it in my face that it was upsetting me because he put his huge hand on my shoulder "I'm not laughing at you Alan" He smiled. Woah.Woah.Woah. How did he know thats what I was thinking? I looked up at him with a confused expression but he just smiled. I sat in confusion, trying to figure out how he knew. I glanced at him again, he was drinking from his can, the other two were still in conversation. "h-how?" I managed to talk "How what?" "How did you know what I was thinking?" "Oh c'mon." I stayed silent. cmon what? "Anyway, its nice to hear you talk finally" he smirked. I let out the worlds smallest laugh, it was just like extra air being breathed out. "You really don't talk much do you?" He asked in concern. His face was more serious now. I swallowed my breath and shrugged my shoulders. "Well, when I do, something weird comes out or.. I say something wrong." Austin was trying to gain my eye contact but I was almost ignoring his. "What do you mean, something wrong?" He asked I stared at the ground "Well, I might say something accidentally and they take it the wrong way.." He sat and thought for a while. "You're misunderstood a lot aren't you?" What did he mean, I was misunderstood a lot? People just genuinely didn't like me, they didn't mis-understand me, they just hated me for me, and to be honest. I did to. I shrugged my shoulders so it didn't look like I was ignoring the 'rhetorical question' "Whats up?" He asked sincerely. "Nothing, I'm fine" I replied straight away "You're not, I can see it" I shook my head at him in disbelief. "Alright then, if you're fine, smile at me" He challenged. What why? My mind was full of questions and i guess he could tell by the expression i was pulling. "If you're fine, you can smile" He continued. I just pulled a stoic expression. "See, you're not fine" he took another sip of his drink. "So, whats up?" I shrugged my shoulders at him, i'm not just gonna randomly open up to him. As much as I would like to get to know him, its just, i'd feel bad for him. I don't think anyone should really be in my life, i'm so boring. I'm a let down, I lock people out when I don't mean to, I'm just me. He was still trying to gain my eye contact. "You can talk to me Alan" he smiled. I forced a smile back. "I just, I don't really know you, and it won't be fair on you to have to get to know me" I regretted everything I said. I always do this, I should've just said "Im fine" or something. But no. "Fair or not, I wanna get to know you. You seem cool" He smiled "Honestly, you can trust me Alan" I forced yet another smile. He could see how uncomfortable I was. "Look, I'll tell you some things about me and then you do the same? We could do a 20 questions thing" Ah whatever. I nodded my head and he suggested i ask the first question so i wasnt so uncomfortable. I feel weird just asking him about his life though. "Um, How old are you actually? Cos, you're not in my year or below for sure" I asked awkwardly. "21" he replied and smiled. "Full name?" "Alan Anthony Ashby, you?" "Austin Robert Carlile, and that counts as your question Mr.Ashby" He grinned. Wow, his name was even great. I laughed slightly. "Whats one thing you love to do in your spare time?" "Play guitar." he smiled at my response "Why do you want to get to know me?" I dared myself to ask it and I did, i was kind of intrigued to find out the reason. He smiled. "You, you seem different and I like that" I have to admit, this guy had a way with words because damn, that actually made me smile. He quickly moved on though "Now, I already know you have good music taste so, something you really really want?" Ah fuck. What did I want? "..acceptance.." I was silent, just thinking of all the shit people have put on me for no reason. "Its your turn you know, we don't have to dwell on one thing" he said it with a supportive smile, it was cute. I shook my head. "Something you regret?" He looked down at his hands which he was now fiddling about with. He was super uncomfortable. He was tripping over his words. "Shit, uh, don't answer if you dont want, I'll think of a new one" He slowly nodded his head, kinda saying thank you and yes please. "Do you smoke or drink?" He shook his head "I uh, don't smoke because, i think its gross and drinking well, thats something i'll have to tell you another time" What was he talking about? What, I really wanted to know now. "Most important person in your life?" I thought about it, like really, hard. I actually don't have anyone that important in my life. I think that really, if I was to actually go missing it wouldnt affect anyone. "No-one, like, now I think about it" I looked to the floor, oh how i would kill to just have someone in my life, to take care of me, say everything is okay and i dont know, just cuddle me until death. Someone i couldnt imagine life without. "Someone you miss?" He sighed. "My- Uh, -my mom." before i could ask anything or he could think of anything else about it he asked another question. I dont know what happened to his mom, i dont really know that much about him really. "Now, i'd ask relationship status, but you said tou have no one important so that must mean you're single so, your type?" Um. Do i say, with or without penis? "Um, tall? gorgeous as fuck, covered in tattoos and maybe a piercing or two, someone caring and loving yknow, the norm" He nodded his head in agreement. Little did he know, that I pretty much just explained him. "Relationship?" I copied his first idea. He chuckled. "Single, last one didn't work out too well" I furrowed my eyebrows "How come?" He looked at me a smiled a small bit. "I think you'll find its my question" he grinned. I lifted my head up and forced a smile, god damn. "Can I follow you on tumblr?" How did he know I had tumblr? was it obvious? i nodded my head before asking the question I did before. "How come your last relationship didnt work out?" "I-uh, I lost my cool and uh.." I raised an eyebrow at him "Actually, can we not" I sighed. He was asking these questions about me but wasnt prepared to answer all mine. "You guys ready to go?" We looked over to Tino who was about to stand up and nodded. We walked back to the car in pairs, I was walking with Austin. Tino and Chris were in front of us. "So, can are you gonna give me your Tumblr URL?" He asked. "Its AshbyMeowow" He laughed at my response. "Meowow?" "I like cats ok." That was kinda embarrassing. ------------ As soon as I got home I opened up Tumblr to see what was on my dashboard and when i refreshed the page it said "its-all-lies is following you" came up. I clicked on their profile to find a profile picture and a desc below. It was a picture of someone with their back to the camera showing the back of the jacket that said 'fuck off' the description was "Just some guy with some secrets" I looked through the page, it was full of the same kind of things mine was full off. Cute relationships and random sayings, maybe a couple of band pictures here and there too. Was this Austin or not? Like, it didn't look like a page he would have. I decided to follow the account, to keep an eye on it. ----------- Later than night my ask box lit up. Its not unusual for me to get messages, but this was weird. "You're a beautiful person" by anonymous. It kinda made my heart melt.

Notes

Bit of a longer chapter this time