My Understandings

My alarm clock bleeped and I turned over in my bed to switch that annoying sound off. 7am. I hated waking up, it just lead to pain and misery. I never saw the point in me waking up, no-one would notice anyways. I rubbed my eyes and sat up, the covers fell off my body which sent a cold shiver down my spine, my room was freezing, I wish I could just stay in my bed to keep warm. I placed my feet on the ground and slowly got myself up from the bed. It was seriously cold here. I walked to my wardrobe and grabbed some clothes. Black Skinnies, black&white stripey shirt, my leather jacket and vans. Once I was dressed I walked into the bathroom and brushed my teeth and hair then put my red beanie on. When I was adjusting my hat my sleeve came down slightly revealing the red marks on my arm, my face turned red and I covered them straight up again. I always regret it the next day but I kept doing it still. I stood staring into the mirror blankely. It'll do i guess. I sighed and grabbed my DC backpack and threw it over my shoulder and hopped downstairs, I didn't want breakfast, I wasn't hungry, my parents questioned why I didnt eat anything but before I could answer I was out of the door and walking slowly to school. I kicked at the dirt on the path, constantly keeping my head down until I heard my one of my favourite songs. T.N.T by AC/DC. I looked up in hope, I didn't know anyone around here that was into the same music as me. I was stood still, staring at this 1999 Black Jeep Cherokee, it was beautiful. The car was at the red lights, waiting. I saw two guys in the front of the car, one with semi-long black hair and a bit of stubble who wore black retro shades, and the driver who had semi-long brown hair covered with a beanie, he was wearing mirror shades, I couldn't see him perfectly but damn, he looked good. They had the music on loud, going absoloutly going crazy, moshing, singing and the guy with black hair was tapping the beat on the dashboard. I didn't realize what a loser I looked like just stood staring at these two guys. The one with brown hair saw me just standing there, gawking, he smiled and put his hand up, as if to say 'hey'. I blinked quicker and my heart kinda raced, he was being.. polite? To me? I awkwardly stared at him and lifted my hand up to say it back and then the lights turned to green, he looked at the lights and then back at me, smirking and he drove off singing at the top of his lungs again. Wow. --------------- As I got to the school gates I noticed my friend Chris stood waiting for someone. "Hey, dude" he greeted me and put his fist out for me to bump it. So I did. "Who're you waiting for?" I asked, actually, who was he waiting for? He smiled "Some family friends are in town and one of them is supposed to be meeting me before school" I raised my head in understandment. "Will you wait with me? I don't wanna be alone" he chuckled. I laughed at him "Christofer Drew.. Doesn't want to be alone?" He smiled and pushed my shoulder. We waited outside the school for about 10 minutes until that same Jeep came around the corner as Chris' face lit up. "This is him" He smiled. The Jeep pulled up infront of us, they were now rocking out to Marilyn Manson mOBSCENE. The guy with black hair stepped out of the jeep. He was wearing black 3/4 khaki pants with a black shirt and skate shoes. He hugged Chris straight away and I heard them greet each other. "Hall" Chris smiled "Lil Drew" He replied and messed his hair up, to which Chris immediatly fixed. The other guy stepped out of the car and walked round to his friend. He was wearing black skinny jeans, black vans, a white tank shirt with the words "Aspire To Create" on, a red checked button up on as a jacket and a grey beanie and oh my, he had tattoos on his neck. Did he have more? I've always had an obsession for guys with tattoos, I haven't got any myself because of my parents though. He smiled at us both and then 'Young Arteaga' introduced him. "This is Austin" Chris nodded his head at him and then Chris introduced me "This is Alan, Alan this is Jaxin" I smiled and did my awkward wave at him and he just chuckled. I looked at Austin, who was staring at me. When he saw that I had caught him looking at me he smiled and then recognised me.. Oh great. "Oh, you're that guy at the lights, right?" He questioned. I nodded my head awkwardly, I think if I was to say something I'd just make myself look like a fool, haha, I say it as if I haven't already done that."You like AC/DC then?" he grinned, I nodded my head again awkwardly and stifly. His eyebrow raised and he looked at me intriguingly. "You don't talk much do you?" "No, he doesn't" Chris butted in. I smiled.. kind of, looking at the ground in hope that he would stop looking at me. Austin just chuckled and checked his watch to see the time. Jaxin quickly pulled Austin's arm to look at the time. "You guys should probably be going in now y'know" He smiled at Chris, Chris nodded. "I'll pick you up after school yeah? We can hang, you too if you'd like Alan" He nodded at me and I smiled awkwardly again. Why wasn't I talking? For god sake. Austin had gone now after waving goodbye, he was sat in the car and he switched the key to turn it on. "You're gonna have to talk sooner or later Alan" Jaxin laughed. "Sorry" I laughed awkwardly back, he looked shocked but happy. Before he opened the door he scruffed Chris' hair up again and sat in the car. Chris turned to me as they drove away sorting his hair out, "c'mon" ----------- School felt like it lasted for ages, it was painful. I don't mean painful as in mentally, well I do, but it was physically. Finlay was annoyed about yesterday and wanted to get pay back. Luckily, he didn't catch me at lunch, but I knew he'd be waiting for me after school. "So, you're coming with me after school right?" Chris asked, I nodded my head. Hopefully Finlay wouldn't get me if I was with people. I was wrong. Most of the kids had gone now, we had to stay a bit later to wait for Jaxin. He was finally here and we walked outside to meet them, and then Finlay and his stupid friends appeared in front of me. He looked at Chris and then at me. He kept his eyes locked on mine. "Get out of here Chris, unless you want it too" He threatened. I looked at Chris who was panicking. He didn't deserve this, I wanted to try and at least be a good friend, I nodded at him to go and he did, he ran to Jaxin, and I saw them talking and Chris pointing. Austin stepped out of the car and went over to them, they were staring and talking. I didn't even know Austin was there, I kinda hoped he would be. Just so I could get a better look at him, or er, even get to know him. My concerntration snapped back to Finlay as he spat on the floor. Without a thought, Finlays arm swung in the air and his fist collided with my face and it knocked me to the floor. I was such a lightweight, I swear, even wind could knock me over. He soon straddled me and started to punch my face over and over again. It stung, my cheeks were killing me, my head was pouding but, I didn't struggle. Why should I? I really didn't see the point anymore. All of Finlays friends had their phones out, filming and taking pictures. Whatever, i'm not even going to begin to question their motives anymore. My blinking got slower and things in my head got fuzzier, i got dazy and i didn't know what was going on anymore, but the pounding stopped suddenly. People weren't crowding around me anymore. But I just laid there, I felt like i'd probably break something if I moved. I wasn't sure what was going on. I heard shouting, did someone pull him off me or something?

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