The Letter

~2 Days later~
Today was December 1st, my birthday, I was 17, woo nothing special. I’m still not legally able to do anything, next year when I turn 18, since I’ll be in England, I can drink. But that’s it. I’ve already done it all though, none of my birthdays will be special. They never have been. I didn’t plan on doing anything. I really didn’t want to, I’m still not eating, just tea and water, and cigarettes. Oli goes and buys me some. It’s sweet of him, he just says I’m going to end up dying, but I really don’t care.
‘Tides will bring me back to you…’ my phone cried out, I picked it up and looked at it, I didn’t know the number, I answered it anyways.
“Hello?” I said into the phone.
“Happy birthday sweetheart.”
I didn’t recognize the voice, “Who’s this?”
“Just, happy birthday. I love you, bye.”
Then they hung up, I still didn’t know the number, “Oli!” I cried out. He came running into my room and asked what was wrong, I asked for his phone, he handed it over to me and I looked at the number ‘Chris Motionless’ his phone said, that’s who it was, it was Ricky, different number, probably something in the background to make his voice sound different.
“What love?”
“Ricky called me, I didn’t recognize the number, it was Chris’”
“I’m sorry Ash. Go get dressed.”
“Why?”
“Just do it. Something very nice.”
I complied and dug through my closet, “A dress?!” I shouted, “Yes!” He replied. Okay, that took away a ton of options. I found a designer black dress I had bought a while ago. What was today, Thursday, I had my Abuse Anonyms meeting tonight, so I guess I’ll have to go tomorrow. I put the dress on along with jewelry, then I did my makeup and hair. I looked really nice, the dress hardly fit though. I took it off and looked in the mirror.
You could see almost all my ribs, my arms were only bones, if I bent down you could see every notch in my spine, my collar bones looked good though, my hip bones were poking out a lot, if I turned to the side you couldn’t even tell I had organs, and my legs, oh my legs, they were, they were tiny. I closed my eyes, trying very hard not to cry. They were right, I did look disgusting.
Oli came in, he knew what was wrong, I had a dress around my ankles. He held me tightly, telling me it was okay, telling me I was beautiful, but I’d be much more beautiful if I ate. I got up and wiped my eyes, I pulled the dress up and redid my makeup. I looked okay, but the dress didn’t fit like it was supposed to.
Oli and I loaded up in the black Mustang and he drove me to some secluded area, “What are you gunna do here? Murder me?” I laughed.
“Maybe.” He smirked.
We got out of the car, he pulled out a basket and a blanket from the trunk and set them down. I helped him lay the blanket out, and then he set the food out. Ugh, food. “I hope this is not the only reason I’m dressed like this.” He laughed and told me it wasn’t. He had packed grilled cheese and chips, a bottle of wine, and some cake. The wine looked good, the rest did not.
He gave me a grilled cheese and watched as I ate it, slowly, taking one bite then setting it down. He poured glasses of wine. I took a sip and set it down. He didn’t eat anything but chips, he sat and watched as I finished everything, my cake, wine, sandwich, and chips. I finished it all. I never realized how hungry I was.
He picked everything up and then we got back in the car. We drove to this theatre I had never been to, oh wait, it’s Broadway. Holy shit. He showed me the tickets, “Teen Titans. Staring the original voice actors.” Oh my god no… this was, this was fantastic, this show was my life when I was like 5, 6, and 7. “Backstage as well.” He said smiling. I almost passed out, oh my god this was amazing.
He helped me out of the car and the valet took the car and parked it. We walked in side. There were tons of people, a lot of kids and teenagers. I looked was over dressed, everyone was in Teen Titans shirts and all of this stuff. We took our seats, two rows from the front, oh my god this is a dream come true.
As the actors walked out for scene one I almost died, for the longest time theatre was my life, I left when I moved. This is heaven. They were acting a scene from season 1 episode 2. The one with Starfire’s sister, Blackfire. The orchestra was playing some fighting music, they were fighting a pink mechanical octopus. Then Blackfire comes in. My god that actor was spot on. Every one of her facial features was almost perfect. Blackfire was the only one who wasn’t played by her voice actor, she was played by the original voice actor’s sister.
As the play went on all I could think of was the fact that I’m going to meet them. I’m going to meet the greatest people alive. The play went on for a few hours, they did a total of 6 episodes, they even did the one where Robin had to go to prom with Kitten, it was amazing, as funny as I was hoping it would be. They all came back on stage and bowed. I stood up and shouted and screamed and clapped like I was a mental patient. They probably thought I was crazy.
After it was over, Oli and I flashed the manager our passes and got backstage. It was time, OH MY GOD IT WAS TIME. I was bouncing off the walls, going crazy. I could hardly stand still. Oli and I waited for them to come out of the dressing rooms. We waited for a good 30 minutes before they all came out. I showed the guards pass, I went up to them and they hugged me and said hi and autographed a picture for me. I almost died, I swear.
I asked for pictures and they took them with me, then I asked them to talk for me, and I recorded it, I was totally going to edit it into cartoon form. “What do you guys think of the Teen Titans Go series? Honestly.” I asked.
“Honestly,” The girl who played Raven said, “It’s just not what it’s supposed to be.”
“Agreed.” The rest of the actors said.
“It’s not the same. One more question, well two. First. Do you guys know what would have happened with Beastboy and Terra?! It kind of just, ended. And I have no clue, it’s just driving me insane, and it has been for 10 years. And two, can I have your phone numbers.”
“What would have happened to Beastboy and Terra? The script said they would meet again, and Terra would remember, but her memories were changed, her new memories said that the Teen Titans were bad. In the last episode we were supposed to do, Slade would have died.” The boy who played Beastboy said.
“Ahhh.” I screamed a little in frustration, “THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN SO AWESOME.”
They all agreed on that too, “And for the numbers, here.” They all wrote down their numbers on the back of the picture they autographed, “When there’s trouble you know who to call.” I sang quietly and they all laughed.
We all sat down and chatted for an hour or so, they were really cool people. We had to leave and so did they, we all said our goodbyes and left. Oli and I went to the car and got in it. I thanked him repeatedly for all of this, this was fantastic, unbelievable. I couldn’t believe that that would happen, something so amazing. We stopped at the fancy restaurant. I had a small salad and a glass of very expensive red wine, he ordered it, I just drank it. It was fantastic wine.
We had finished there, I realized I hadn’t checked my phone all day, I had it on airplane mode. I sat a picture of me, Oli, and the cast of the show as my lock screen, then a picture of me and Oli on my home screen. He was cute. I put the casts’ numbers in my phone.
When we got home I went into my room and took it off Airplane mode to check it, a shit ton of calls and texts, telling me happy birthday. There was a few calls from the same number, I called it back.
“Hey, sorry, not sure who this is, but I’ve been out all day, who’s this.” I said as the person on the other line answered.
“It’s Ricky.” They replied.
“Oh, hey.”
“Sorry, I should’ve just called you from here, house phone. Instead of using Chris’ phone. But yeah, happy birthday.”
“Thanks Ricky. Uh, I don’t know if you got my letter, but I’m leaving for England with Oli in a week.” I swallowed, nervous to tell him.
“That’s actually why I called. I just wanted to apologize for the other day when you called, I’ve just been so depressed lately. I miss you a lot.”
I sighed, “I know Ricky, I miss you more than you think I do.”
I heard him sobbing a little, “Sorry, I just, I didn’t realize how much I fucked up until you left baby.”
“I understand Ricky. I don’t know though. I mean, Oli took me out on the best experience of my life today. I couldn’t just leave him.”
“I know that Ashley, I love you.”
“Goodbye Ricky.”
I hung up the phone and threw it on the floor.I guess I needed to start packing, again. I grabbed all of my suitcases and folded everything and put it in there. I was so sad, I was just moping around, I could hardly stand up. I’m just an idiot. Ricky was my first love. Oli was just my friend at first, but he’s so much nicer than Ricky. Ugh, I don’t know. I just don’t know.

Notes

this was Ashley's outfit btw c: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=124061656
And i added my obsession into this xD
Teen Titans is legit my life, and that new stuff is bullshit, and i hate it.
But anyways yeah xD