The Drug In Me Was You

Austin's POV

I stood there with Fallon in my arms, and I swear that in that moment I never felt so wholesome. I never felt so proud, I created this little girl and to think for four years I wasn't apart of her life. I understand that Phoenix was scared of how I would react, but as the father to this girl I had a right to know that she was mine.

"Hey bro, could you go take her and play? I need to speak with Phoenix real quick." I spoke to Alan.

"Yeah man, c'mon Fallon." He grinned, causing her to run and tackle him to the floor.

I sat down on the couch and ran my fingers through my hair. A million things were going throughout my mind. The fact that I had a daughter, the fact that the girl I was in love with, the girl I gave my promise to spend the rest of my days with was living across the hall from me. The fact that I had a fiancé, with the woman I claimed I hated. What was I doing with my life?

"Austin, I know you're probably upset with me, but you have to understand that I didn't want to take away your dream. I couldn't stand to see you knocked down as soon as you made it to the top." She sighed, and I nodded.

"Phoenix, I loved you so much. I don't know what happened with us... What did happen?" I dared to ask.

She let out a shaky breath and began to rub her temples.

"I wish I could tell you, a part of me thinks we sort of just drifted apart, then another part of me thinks we both just moved on and did what we had too. Don't get me wrong, for the first two years I was a wreck, I felt lost, broken. But, I had to be strong for Fallon." She smiled.

"I'm so proud do you." I said lowly.

"You're proud? Of what?" She questioned confused.

"I'm proud of the beautiful woman you turned out to be, you settled down and began to raise a child. While I was out living the dream, I should've been there for you, and I wasn't." I said, as I began to become frustrated with myself.

"All that matters is you're here now." She gently rubbed the top of my hand.

Phoenix's POV

I watched as he smiled at my statement. He seemed so upset with himself, but he wasn't the one to blame. How could he possibly know he had a daughter? He wouldn't, unless I told him. Which I didn't.

"Phoenix, I want this." He nodded to himself.

"You want what?" I shook my head, slightly confused.

"I want her, I want this... More importantly I want you." He whispered the last part.

I was dumbfounded, the man I spent a solid year swearing up and down I was going to marry, start a life, a family. This was coming from the man that had a fiancé, a life, a career. Was he just going to throw it all away?

"Austin, need I remind you... You have a life, a fiancé." I responded.

"You're right, what do I do?" He sighed, throwing is head into his hands.

"Hey everything is going to work the way it's supposed too. Remember everything happens for a reason, I feel as though you were brought back into my life for a purpose." I cooed, rubbing his back.

"Do you think it's because we are supposed to be together?" He said barely audible.

"I'm not sure." I said truthfully, I don't know why he was back in my life, all I know is sometimes things work out completely different then how you had planned.

Like in my case, I thought I would be a single mom, raising Fallon. Not ever seeing the guys again,cod Austin for that matter. I thought I would work at Alt-Press and continue on with my day to day, 9 to 5 life. Never having to worry about Austin, or anyone. I would move on eventually find someone to spend my life with, or maybe be alone. I didn't know, I'm only 22.

"Shit, Gielle's calling." He said, annoyed.

"Hey babe, yeah, yeah, I'll be home in a little while. Why? I'm with the guys right now, sorta busy. Okay I gotta go." He quickly hung up and turned his attention back over to me.

"What?" I asked, as he continued to study every detail of my face.

"Phoenix, I never stopped loving you."

Notes

Chapter 9, enjoy everybody.

Steph <3

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