The Drug In Me Was You

I woke to kisses being trailed down my neck, my eyes widened and I knew I didn't fall asleep with Alan last night. I fell asleep with Austin. I swallowed hard and cleared my throat, trying to make noise to make him stop. Yes, I won't lie I do want him back, but I'll be damned if I'm a home wrecker. I will not ruin his relationship, if he chose to remember me, then wanted me back and broke it off with Gielle the I would get back together with him, or not. I'm not entirely sure. All I know is I'm uncomfortable right now.

"Uh Austin, I'm not Gielle." I whispered, hoping that's who he thought I was. But his words surprised me.

"I know." He growled into my ear.

I shot up out of the bed, leaving him dumbfounded and just laying there shirtless. As much as I wanted to just crawl up to him and kiss him right there, it wasn't right. I rushed across the hall to Alan's room, and walked right in, to him jerking it.

"Okay, um. Never mind." I said covering my eyes, and shutting the door.

"Phoenix what the fuck?" He questioned through the door.

"Sorry." I laughed, going into the kitchen to start the coffee and get ready for my day.

I walked back into my bedroom after getting the coffee going and saw Austin just lazily thrown on my bed watching cartoons. What a child, I thought to myself. It brought a smile to my face to see him back in my room. I grabbed some clothes from my closet and began on my makeup.

"I'm sorry about this morning, you're just breath taking." He sighed, watching me through the mirror.

"well it's fine, I just don't wanna be the one responsible for your breakup. Wasn't Gielle mad because she thought you were cheating? If I was you I wouldn't push your luck. I mean you clearly love her-" before I could finish he cut me off.

"I don't though, I haven't loved someone for a really long time." He shook his name and smiled, was he recalling us? God I hope so.

"Anyways, where you off too?" He said from my bed.

"Work." I sighed, I was excited to be back but I just wanna lay around today, it's just one of those days.

"Ahh, I see. Yeah the band has stuff to do also." He nodded to himself.

"Um could you leave? I need to get dressed." I laughed.

"I won't look, I promise." He said as he covered his eyes.

"Okay, just no peeking." I chuckled taking off my shirt.

I saw him peeking through his fingers but didn't let him know I knew. He had a girlfriend and here he was staring at me like I was a playboy bunny. It made me wonder if he ever looked at other girls while he was with him. But, he claimed he loved me. But, he also claimed he loved Gielle. So, I don't know. It didn't matter it was in the past. After I was dressed I just let my hair out of its bun and fall to natural curly waves.


"Well I gotta get headed out." I said motioning to the door. As I stepped out he called my name.

"Wait, Phoenix. Will I see you again?" He questioned hope lining his beautiful golden brown orbs.

"I'm sure you will." I nodded, causing him to smile.

I drove to work and arrived to see everyone missed me. Tracey approached me and gave me the list of questions I'd be asking to the band and went to the room where the interview was going to be held. I saw Danny, our camera guy setting up and decided to straighten up the room a bit. There were papers everywhere.

"Danny? You know who were interviewing today?" I questioned, shuffling through my papers.

"Um, of mice and men I believe." He spoke, and I froze.

Of course I'd be interviewing Austin's band. Of fucking course, it only seemed to fit the situation going on. I regained composure and waited in the room until the guys arrived. I thought about the questions I was going to ask to each of them. Then I realized this was my chance to get Austin to remember. He was going to remember me, one way or another. The guys soon entered and Alan beamed at me.

"You're our interviewer really?" He scrolled sarcastically, causing he to punch him slightly in the arm.

"Shut up." I laughed. Austin seemed surprised to see me, but didn't say anything.

"You guys ready?" They nodded and I gave the thumbs up to Danny signaling we were ready to shoot.

3,2,..." Danny counted down.

"Hey guys, Alt-Press magazine here. I'm Phoenix and were here today with the famous Of Mice And Men, so guys we'll go down the line. Introduce yourselves and tell us what you do."

"I'm Tino, I play the drums." He waved.

"Phil, guitar."

"Alan, being sexy." He laughed.

"Aaron, sing and bass."

"Hi, I'm Austin I yell really loudly." He chuckled.

"Okay guys, well today we have a few questions that the fans wanna know. And things us here Alt-Press wanna know." I started.

"So guys have you ever been in love? Or are you on the market?" I questioned.

Most of them answered yes to being in love before and some of them were in deed taken, and off the market. Alan said he was in love when he was in his senior year of high school and I knew exactly who he was talking about, me. When it came down to Austin he pondered for a second.

"Yeah I was in love twice. Once with my girlfriend now Gielle. And the other when I was younger." He smiled.

"Back when you were teaching as a music teacher?" I questioned, which caught him off gaurd. I'm guessing a very few knew that about him.

"Uh yeah, actually. She was beautiful, I loved her a lot. Her name was .... Phoenix." His eyes widened.

I knew in the moment he knew who I was.

Notes

Austin knows.
Oh boy.
steph.
<3
^-^