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The Drug In Me Was You

Chapter 6

I left Austin and Gielle's apartment soon after I felt myself getting quite tipsy. I didn't want to get all tongue tied and spill something that I wasn't ready to announce just yet. I walked into my apartment and slid off my shoes, taking a deep breath and running my hand through my greasy hair. When was the last gimme I showered? Ew, why was I even asking that question.

I stripped of my clothes and let the water take over my body, I remembered back to high school when I would take hour long showers and just sit under the water and think. Think about school, my parents getting back together, or Austin. So many decisions were made in there, like the one to not tell him about our daughter. Which back fired, because now he's my next door neighbor, for the next 6 months.

I soon realized I needed to get out and washed my hair, and shaved. Stepping out I wrapped a towel around myself and ran across the hallway to my bedroom. I put on some panties and sweats and a big slip knot t-shirt. I decided to call Alan to tell him to drop Fallon off with my mom, because I had to work tomorrow. And he said he'd be home in about 20 minutes.

I walked out into my living room area and plopped down on the couch, turning on the tv. Spongebob was on and even though I may be 22 I still like this show. I didn't really focus on it, I let myself think about work. Or tried to think about work, but memories of Austin came to mind quickly. Everything seemed to revolve around him, it always has.

"Hey buddy, what cha doing?" Alan came in, dropping the keys on the counter.

"This." I sighed. Then began again, "I went over to their apartment after you guys left." I shamefully said.

"You what?" He asked, shocked.

"Yeah, Gielle invited me so I saw no harm. But, I couldn't stand watching them together Alan it almost killed me." I teared up.

I wanted to cry, I wanted to break down and let everything that had been circulating over the past two days unveil and just sob hysterically. I don't know if I'll be able to survive 6 months of this. A part of me wanted Austin back. Then another part of me says he doesn't even remember you, so what's the point in even so much as trying. Alan rose to answer the door, and returned with Austin.

"Sorry man, I just need some down time." He sighed, rubbing his temples.

"Why what's going on?" Alan questioned.

"Gielle, she's bringing up the past saying I'm going to cheat on her again. But, in all actuality she can't seem to understand that she was the one who cheated. Not me, I'm just like over it right now, I kinda told her I was staying here tonight, I'm sorry." He announced.

"Hey, I just stay here not my apartment to say whether or not you can stay that's up to Phoenix." Alan said in defense pointing to me.

Fuck.

"Oh um, Phoenix, would you mind?" He practically begged.

"No, I guess it's fine, I'd offer you my daughters room but I doubt you'd fit in her bed." I chuckled. And as did he.

"Cool shirt by the way, I used to have one just like it when I was younger. I gave it to a girlfriend. But, man that was like 4-5 years absolutely, or something like that." He chortled. Yeah, dipshit I was the girlfriend. This is your shirt, that I still wear.

"Well anyways you can either bunk with Alan or-"

"Hell no I'm a lone sleeper." Alan states running to his room locking the door.

"Okay well I guess you can take my bed, this couch isn't very comfortable." I stated.

"Aw hell I'd hate to do that to you, I'm so sorry." He saddened.

But I told him repeatedly it was fine, I went into my bedroom to grab some extra sheets and blankets and pillows for the couch, but in the process I basically collapsed into the bed from pure exhaustion. All this drama was stressing and tiring me out. I needed a good nights sleep, and as much as it burdened me to sleep on the couch I'd go to any length to please Austin. I was in nothing but my slip knot shirt and thong and felt sleep prying it's way into my body. I shut my eyes and before I knew it I was out.

I lazily opened them to see Austin standing awkwardly in front of me, but it didn't scare me. He used to do this to me all the time, I was used to it by now.

"Do you need something?" I questioned, rolling over.

"Uh, you said I could sleep in here, but I saw you passed out so I decided to give your couch a try and you were right that need is a couch from hell." He chuckled, causing me to smile.

"C'mon, just get in." I said lifting up the covers.

"Are you sure?" He asked cautiously.

"I won't tell if you don't." I stated.

"Okay." He said sheepishly, slipping under the covers.

He he pulled me into his body, and I felt right at home. I felt like this was it, how everything should be. It was perfect, and if should always stay like this. He was perfect, I loved him. Still.

"I don't know what it is about you, but you're so familiar to me, I feel like I've been in this situation with you a hundred times over, as crazy as that sounds." He whispered into my ear.

Maybe be he was going to remember me.

Hopefully.