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The Drug In Me Was You

Chapter 5

I swished around the beer that was left in my bottle, Alan was sitting on the floor sorting out clothes that needed to be washed, and others he'd be putting away. I let my thoughts completely consume me. Plus, the alcohol that was now flowing throughout my system was not helping, but I needed to really think about everything.

Austin. My Austin, didn't even recognize me. Not even in the slightest bit did be he have any recollection of who I was. The girl, that he said he truly loves, and felt as though I was the first person he loved. Not even Gielle, the woman he chose to take in law by marriage had stolen his heart the way I did. Or so I thought. He told me on countless times that we would be together forever, no ifs ands or buts about it. He wanted me, and only me. And now here we are 4 whole years later, and he can't even so much as remember the part of his life, that I wish I could erase, like he did.

"I see the wheels turning." Alan chortled, folding some clothes.

"Yeah, I'm just trying to put two and two together I suppose." I sighed, resting my head on my propped arm.

"It'll hit him sooner or later and when it does, shits going to hit the fan. But, it's probably for the best. I don't want him to be with anyone else, other than you. As much as I love you, and have had these more than best friends feelings for you Phoen. You two are meant for each other." He sighed, and I knew deep down he was right. Alan was always right when it came to certain things. The kid may be a little hard to handle and out of control at some times but he did have a good head on his shoulders.

"I just can't even begin to contemplate everything in this fucked up situation." I was pulled from the disaster raging throughout me when Fallon was standing in the hallway with tears streaming down her angelic face.

"Honey, what's wrong?" I said rushing up to her.

"I had a dream that daddy came back." She cried falling limo into my body. Hearing those words come out of my four year olds mouth was heartbreaking, I was being entirely selfish by keeping him from her. Yes, I had my own problems to deal with, but I couldn't make this poor girl go through the same thing I did. You're supposed to want better for your own children, and I wasn't doing that for her. At least with my mom she had no idea where my dad went, and in my case, he was living right across the hall. Twenty feet away, and Fallon had no clue. I felt horrible. I glanced over to Alan, who had a knowing look on his face saying 'you need to do something, soon' And I nodded.

"C'mon honey, let's get you something to eat yeah?" I smiled.

"Anything you'd like sweetie." I began tickling her, and she bursted into a fit of laughter, this is the way I always wanted her to be. Smiling, and not a care in the world.

"Momma, can we get McDonalds then?" She asked ever so innocently, and I nodded.

"I'll take her if you need time." Alan offered, and Fallon boasted with joy about how they're going to play on the playground and other things that I couldn't make out because she was talking and screaming at the same time.

my phone began to ring and it was work, I had gotten time off for moving in and other things. So going back to work would be nice.

"Hello?"
"hello Phoenix, we were wondering if you could do an interview for tomorrow?" My manager Tracey chimed.
"Um sure, what time do you need me there?"
"Around 1, were sorry to bother you. It's just Justin had some last minute family emergency and had to fly out to Ohio, so we kind of need ya right now." She laughed.
"Okay I'll see you guys at 1!" I sang.

I hung up and hears a knock at my door. I rose to answer it, and saw a very familiar blonde standing in my doorway. Gielle.

"Hi, I'm Gielle, I'm actually moving in next door and just wanted to make some friends with my neighbors. So far you're the only normal looking one living on this floor." She chuckled fakely, what a bitch I thought.

"yeah, I'm Phoenix." I almost stopped myself from saying because I was almost scared she'd remember me from our first altercation. But, it was so long ago.

"Well it's lovely to meet you, do you wanna come over for some drinks? My fiancé and I are bores." She laughed, fiancé? Well Austin, good call on marrying her again.

"Um sure, I've got so,e time to kill. Alan's out with my little one." I smiled.

"Oh you have a kid? Girl or boy?" She beamed.

"Girl, she's 4, her names Fallon." I stated, yup your finance's kid actually, I laughed to myself.

"Aw, well I'd love to meet her! Please come in." She gestures to her door.

I stepped inside and saw boxes and other things scattered amongst the voluminous apartment. I carefully mazes myself around them, trying not to trip and fall. That's the last thing I need right now. I stand down the the island in the kitchen and watched as Gielle mixed some concoction together. Any alcohol would satisfy my need right now.

"There you are, honey, this is Phoenix. Our neighbor." She said wrapping her arm around Austin's waist.

"Oh yeah, I met you with Alan in the elevator good to see you again, Phoenix was it?" He asked. And I nodded, what a bastard. Seriously you still can't fucking remember my god damn name.

"Well cheers to being neighbors." Gielle gleamed, with her fake smile playing on her Botox injected lips.

Cheers.