The Drug In Me Was You

Something just felt completely off to me, even though Austin and I were happy. We were back to normal, committed to just each other and no one else. Ready to take on the world no matter the obstacle. I laid with him on the couch and searched my mind for something that could've been wrong but I couldn't find anything. But yet here I was sitting here hoping there was something wrong... Why? Why would I want something to be wrong. Well maybe technically I didn't want something to be wrong. I simply just wanted everything to be resolved with us. I didn't want anymore drama, anymore problems.




"Mama, can we go to the park?" Fallon came running out, with a very tired looking Alan on her trail.

"Ask daddy, mommy needs to talk to uncle Alan." I smiled and walked into the kitchen to find Alan sitting at the island with his head in his hands.

"Hey bud, what's up?" I questioned, taking a seat next to him.

"Phoenix, why do I always fuck up?" He said low and airy.

"What do you mean?" I asked, confused.

"I fucked things up with Kessandra, she told me we needed a break because I was being distant." He said shaking his head.

"She'll come around bud. Trust me, you're a great guy. And any girl would be more than lucky to have you in their life." I smiled reassuringly.

"I guess so... I just wish things were still like high school, everything was so simple back then. No fucking responsibilities. No drama, except for who got knocked up this week, and just kinda easing by with life. I miss it, so god damn much. I miss my best friend, I feel like I never see you anymore." He said sadly.

"Oh c'mon Allycat, you're not losing me. I've been here the whole time. I mean we had our falling out but now were closing then ever. And you will never lose me, not if I have anything to do with it. You wanna go out for a smoke?" I smiled devilishly.

"Now that's my fucking best friend. Yes, can we please. When did you start again?" He asked encouragingly.

"The day I went out with Vic." I chuckled grabbing my pack and lighter.

"Oh yeah, how was that? Well you know what, never mind. Fallon told me you're having another baby with Austin. So I think I know how things are going." He said nudging my arm.





I grabbed my smokes it could not for the life of me find my lighter. Alan held one up and I just laughed at how well he knew me. Back in high school I never had one then either. Actually come to think of it, that's how my first conversation started with Austin. Crazy how times never change.





"Hey Hun, were gonna go smoke out on the balcony. Keep Fallon preoccupied for like 10 minutes." I said whispering in his ear, he have me a skeptical look but nodded along anyways.


"So how was your date with Vic?" Alan asked.

"Well I mean it was great, but he took my outside and started kissing me. And I felt nothing but guilt wash over me. I felt like I needed to be somewhere else. So I did, I left and ran all the way to Austin." I said, shaking my head at my stupidity. I'm 22 and I'm still running away from my problems.

"Oh you're too fucking funny, I can't believe you ran away. Dumbass." Alan busted up, practically choking on his cigarette smoke.

"I couldn't help it, there was just a stronger force pulling me to Austin." I spoke, raising my shoulders and slouching them back down.





And that's when it hit me, Vic. I completely forgot about him, I was so captivated by Austin and my family. Instead of Vic. Which wasn't wrong of me, my family does come first. Well Fallon does, Austin is always a guessing game. I mean I love the man but damn can he be difficult.




A part of me feels kind of guilty for just leaving him there. I mean I wonder what was going through his head at that time. He probably felt like such shit, I must have devastated the poor guy. I mean if he would've done that to me, I would've been so pissed off it would've been unbelievable.




Taking in one last drag off my cigarette which pretty much burned away, because my mind can never just be at ease anymore. I threw it over the railing and ran my hand through my hair. My god was it greasy.




"Hey Fal, mommy needs to get a shower then we'll go to the park." I smiled and she just kept her eyes glued to Austin. She adored him.

"Is it like a family outing?" Austin asked.

"Of course, Alan you wanna come too? It might be good to get your mind off of Kessandra for a while." I smiled sympathetically, and he nodded.





I walked into the bathroom and grabbed a towel, then starting stripping of my clothes. I turned on the water and hopped into the shower. I started rinsing my hair, and felt all my stress just kind of wash down the drain. I turned around and Austin was there standing behind me. I shrieked, and fell into his bare tattoo covered chest.





"Way to scare me asshole." I said playfully slapping him.

"I'm sorry, I just can't get enough of your naked body." He growled, and attacked my neck with his teeth.

"If this is going to happen, then it's gotta be quick. No foreplay just do it." I said gripping my nails into his back.




I guess I didn't have to say anything else. He just grabbed my body and hoisted me up onto his waist. The water rushing over us, he entered me. A airy moan escaping my lips. He stopped and looked at me, not just lust filling his eyes, I knew in that moment he loved me.



"Baby, I want you to know I love you, and I would never change anything about you." He smirked.

"I love you too now fuck me." I growled,

"Gladly.' He growled back, and began thrusting harshly into me.




He soon finished and I reached my climax right after. I kissed him passionately before jumping back down. I washed my hair quickly and stepped out, leaving him to finish in the shower. I wrapped a towel around my hair and my body. Rushing over to my room to get dressed quickly. As I was getting dressed I felt airy light kisses being placed on my neck.




"Baby, we can't right now." I laughed pulling away, to see him pushing out his bottom lip.

"But, baby." He whined.

"Stop it we have to go to the park. Now get dressed, c'mon let's go." I said, sternly.

"Yes Mrs. Carlile." He smirked over to me.

Mrs. Carlile? Huh... I could get used to that.

Notes

Another chapter will be on the way today. Enjoy my beautiful lovers!
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