The Drug In Me Was You

I quickly shuffled through the house to get my shoes, Fallon was getting impatient and began to cry. I told her we would go, and i wasn't going back on my word.




"Honey, please take her out to the car." I said frustrated, while rubbing my head,

"Alright, c'mon baby let's go." Austin smiles to her, then mouths 'take your time, you can just meet us there.' And I simply nod.




I stared into nothing while I let my thoughts consume me. How could I even so much as even think about having yet another kid? Fallon is a handful on her own, then we he the whacky idea to add another hellion to the mix.




In all honestly, now that I'm thinking about it... I think me and Austin should wait. We should definitely wait for another baby. It can't be what I'm focusing on right now, I need to focus on him, Fallon, and my job. And that's final.




I walked out of my apartment, making sure to lock the door in the process. Which reminds me, Austin needs to move all his stuff out of there. I'll have to talk to him about that later. Stepping in the elevator I'm greeted by a group of girls, all screaming and smiling widely.



"Did you see him? He's so fucking cute! Omg!" One screamed.

"I know, but who was that little girl he had on his arm?" Another scoffed.

"I know, he's such a sweet guy. I mean he's probably taking care of her and her whore of a mother, which did anyone else see that she was no where to be found?" She glared.





I couldnt help help but snicker at their cruel statements, they were clearly talking about Austin. And they were clearly talking about my daughter, well our daughter.




"Excuse me, were we talking to you?" One glares in my direction.

"Nope." I smiled, stepping out of the elevator.




I threw my sunglasses on my face, and went straight to the parking garage. I got in my car and started driving in the direction of the park. I leaned my head against my arm as I drove down the road. I hope Fallon and Austin are having a good time, but me and Austin really do need to talk later. I frantically grabbed for my purse and lit up a cigarette.




Letting the all to familiar smoke cloud up my lungs. This cigarette was all I needed right now to calm down, and honestly it felt amazing. All the stress and worries blew away with my exhale. Sometimes I wish I would have never picked up this habit, but at the same time I was strangely thankful for it. But, why did I want one so badly all of a sudden? Thre was no way in hell I let those preppy, prissy, little teenage girls get to me? No? But yet I felt my anxiety rising yet again just thinking about them talking about Austin and Fallon.




i quickly discarded my cigarette and ran up to where Austin was watching Fallon run around with Alan.




"Hey honey." He smiled, as I sat down.

"Hey." I said breathlessly.

"everything okay? You smell like a giant cigarette and you look a little upset." He said furrowing his eyebrows together.

"Yeah, I'm good. Just a couple of your fans is all." I said shrugging.

"what about my fans Phoenix? What did they do to you?" He asked worriedly.

"Nothing Austin, calm down. They just said I was a whore and you basically deserve so much better than that. And to be honest they're probably right. You do deserve better." I said nodding to myself, because I knew he was going to disagree but I knew deep down I was the right one, not him.

"Phoenix, that's not true." He said shaking his head.

"Okay, okay." I said lighting up another cigarette.

"what are you doing? I thought you told falling you quit? She can't see that Phoenix." Austin said in his fatherly tone.

"It's fine, she figured it out the other day." Which wasn't wrong, she found the I no my purse and asked about them and I never lie to her so I just told her they help mommy.

"whatever I still don't think it's a good idea for her to see it." He said.

"Okay." I nodded, flicking my ash.



Austin went off on a tirade about touring and music and honestly I wasn't really listening. I was thinking about way to many things at the moment. I was thinking about Fallon, I was thinking about another kid. I was thinking about where me and Austin stand as a couple. I was thinking about what would happen when he goes back to touring, how different it was going to be.




"Phoenix could we talk?" I was brought from my thoughts to see Vic standing in front of me, with Austin studying his every move.

"Vic what are you doing here?" I cleared my throat and stood up.

"I needed to see you." He smiled.

"um let's go over here." I said gesturing away from Austin.

"Um Phoenix, are you kidding me right now?" Austin said grabbing my wrist.

"First of all get your hands off me, secondly it's fine. Just give us a minute." I said, and he nodded.




Why was Vic here? How did he know I was here was more important though? I didn't even know what to really say.




"So what cha wanna talk about Vic?" I questioned.

"Us." He said plainly.

"What about us? There is no us?" I said harshly.

"Well I can see that now. Since you've got Austin." He said in a hurt tone.

"I was kinda always with Austin Vic.." I retaliated.

"So I meant absolutely nothing to you? And you're just act like that kiss never happened?" He said lowly.

"You mean something to me in the aspect of us being friends, that kiss was simply a way of showing we aren't meant to be together." I nodded.

"So I mean nothing to you?" I growled.

"No I never said that Vic? You're my friend?" I said trying to calm him down.

"No, if I can't have you no one else can either." He said gritting his teeth together.

"What do you me-" before I could finish he had his hand placed forcefully over my mouth and he was trying to pull my leggings down.




I began screaming but then he pulled out a knife and held it to my throat. I'm guessing that was my signal to be quiet so I obliged. He pulled his hand away and lowered us to the ground. He pushed himself harshly inside me while I cried. He began thrusting and thrusting into me. Causing me cry even harder. Not once did I think for a second that he was going to rape me. I felt him finish and pull out at the same time.



He pulled me up and kissed my passionately. But I couldn't help but feel sick. I walked away from him and instantly threw up. I was so upset and hurt, I couldn't believe he would do that.



What was I going to tell Austin?

Notes

I feel horrible for not updating I'm sorry guys! Enjoy this one, more to come soon.
Love you all so much :)
stephanie <3