The Drug In Me Was You

Today was Tuesday and I was of, thank god. I needed one day to let things actually filter. I never thought moving back into LA would be so stressful. I got home yesterday and told Alan all about what Vic had said to me, and how he acted. And now he won't leave me the fuck alone about it. I understand that it's funny, but damn like really Alan? Can't he ever just put his gingerness on hold.

I was currently laying in my queen size bed, listening to thunder storm on this not so glorious morning. The rain was coming down like there was no tomorrow. But, I honestly didn't mind. Thunderstorms came in few, and when they did I loved them. The sound, the lightning, the rain. I remember just sitting out I. My deck as a teenager just listening to it.

My phone awoke me from my thoughts, it was from Austin?

Austin: Whenever you get the chance I need to speak to you.

Me: I have no words for you, sorry.

I sighed and sent my message, I honestly didn't have anything whatsoever to say to him. He fucked up once, shame on him. Fucked up twice, shame on me. I should've have been smarter than that. I should've have known that he would do something. But, here I was being a stupid girl thinking maybe he could be like Noah from the notebook and just love me endlessly, and wait for me to come back. But, books are fiction, and fiction isn't real.

Again my phone went off, expecting it to be Austin, I stood corrected. It was from 'your sexy Mexican ;)'? Vic?

Vic: Hey you, I was just wondering if you wanted to grab some coffee today?

Me: Sure, I'd love too. Meet me at Starbucks in an half an hour?

Vic: see you there. :)

I smiled, and got out of bed. I honestly looked like such shit, but I wasn't trying to impress him. Even though he was gorgeous. I simply threw my monstrosity of what I call hair into a messy bun and put on a off the shoulder crew neck shirt, and some yogas. I slid on my vans and grabbed my keys. My makeup was still pretty in tact so I was okay to go. I literally lived 4 minutes within walking distance of Starbucks so I decided to go grab some things while I was out.

At the register I saw behind the clerk who was working there, cigarettes lined up against the wall. Man, now that I think about I haven't smoked since I found out I was pregnant with Fallon. One or two couldn't hurt right?

"And a pack of Camel Crush, with a lighter." I spoke, shyly.

"Of course." The guy nodded, ringing them up.

I walked out of the store and pulled the fresh pack out of the grocery bag. Tearing off the plastic wrapping and pulling one out of the pack. Lighting it up, I began coughing. Man, I wasn't used to this at all. I remember quitting, then always wanting to light up again but didn't. But, right now. Right now, this feels phenomenal. I truly missed the sensation it gave me. So relaxing, so calming.

I stomped it out and realized I took longer than intended and hurried over to the Starbucks. I rushed through the doors to see Vic sitting with his hood up and sunglasses on, I hardly recognized him myself. But he was probably doing this to avoid being seen, which is totally understandable.

"Hey, I'm so sorry I'm late." I rushed, out of breath.

"It's fine, what do you want darlin?" He chuckled.

"You're not paying for me." I crossed my arms over my chest, and glared

"You bet your sweet ass I am." He winked and stood up, walking over to the counter. Ordering what I was guessing his drink, considering I never told him what I wanted.

"How'd you know?" I asked, as he set a mocha frappicino down in front of me.

"Just my inner white girl coming out I suppose." He laughed, as he shrugged his shoulders.

I nervously sipped my cooled beverage, and awaited fort he conversation to spark up. But, when it didn't. I became even more nervous. Was he like nervous also? Or did it have to do with how I looked right now? But wait, just wait a damn minute. Why the fuck did I care? I already said I wasn't trying to impress him. But, I kinda want too at the same time.

"Nervous are we?" His wonderful brown eyes met mine.

"Is it really that noticeable?" I asked.

"Well, your eyes keep getting big. I can tell it's like your having a conversation with yourself in your head. It's actually rather comical to watch. That's why I wasn't saying anything." He chortled.

"Shut up, was I really? Oh god, you must think I'm so dumb." I said laughing quietly.

"Yeah I do." He said seriously.

I didn't know whether to speak or just kind of like I didn't hear it.

"Oh my god, I'm totally kidding Phoenix. I think you're very intelligent, and beautiful." He smiled warmly, placing his hand on top of mine. Somehow lacing out fingers together. Causing butterflies to roam throughout my stomach.

"I think you're beautiful too." I said, then realized how stupid I sounded. Guys can't be beautiful, well they can. Oh my god I do know what I'm doing.

"Oh my god, I'm sorry. I'm like delusional right now." I said gasping.

"Oh wow, you're actually kind of perfect I'm not going to lie." He smiled, laughing.

"Shut up, you think I'm so weird right now, don't even lie to me." I said sadly.

"No, you're breath taking, I was speechless when you first walked in here." He assured.

"Really?" I said, feeling nervous all over again.

"Seriously blush one more time, and I'm going to have to come over this table and kiss you." He said with a huge smile playing across his perfect lips.

Apart of me just screamed this isn't right! You need to fix this with Austin! He is the father to your child! C'mon Phoenix. But then another part of me is screaming kids him you fool! Just do it! Fuck Austin, you raised Fallon for 4 years alone, and what makes a difference if he's back or not!

"Why don't you do it then?" I whispered. And I saw something in his eyes, turn from passion to lust in mere seconds.

His once beautiful brown orbs with specks of gold and hazel were now black written with determination. I longed for this feeling. The feeling of his lips mingling with mine. He grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the coffee shop and pushed me firmly against the cold damp wall. He stared at me, eyes traveling from my head to my toes before he caught me off gaurd with his warm lips crashing harshly into mine. The kiss was hungry and it felt like there had been tension building between us for years? Like I had dreamed of this kiss.

But maybe I was thinking it was Austin. Instead of Vic.

Notes

Enjoy my loves!
Loverzzz you!
Steph <3
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