The Drug In Me Was You

I didn't know what I was doing, I didn't even know what I was thinking at the moment. I knew I had a crush on Vic, but did I want more? Did I even want to think about building a relationship with him? My head was telling me no, stop what you're doing. My heart was craving the affection, and as for me I was a mess.


"So mine or yours?" He practically said out of breath.

"Um, I actually have to go." I shyly whispered, feeling guilty.

"Oh... Um, alright." He said backing up feeling the tension.

"I'm sorry." I saddened, and began to walk away.

"Wait Phoenix, please... Please just stay with me. I've never felt like this before, I promise." He said grabbing my wrist and tugging me into his embrace.

"Vic, I have to go. I have to something I do, and it's very important." I said pushing him away, tears welling up on my eyes.

"Oh... Okay." He said, finally giving up and sighing.

I rushed off. I didn't know where I was headed. I knew I had to get away, I knew in that moment my heart was telling me I couldn't stay there with him. I had to go where my heart was, and it was still with... Austin.



I ran and ran before I finally made it to my apartment building. Running inside, I probably looked like a mad woman, and man did I feel like one. I felt like this was something out of a movie. Running back to the person I truly loved, crashing into their arms and never letting go of them. Keeping them forever mine.



I rushed to the elevator but turned in my tracks rushing towards the stairs, I had never felt so alive. So determined to get to someone, so excited that my chest hurt. I dashed up the stairs taking two at a time. Before I knew it I was at my floor.



I knocked furiously on his door, over and over again. Then I waited, I heard footsteps shuffling inside. Soon I heard the lock unlatch and appeared was Austin.


"Phoenix? What are you doing here?" He said shocked.


And to be completely honest, so was I at this point. Why was I here? I knew no matter where my feet carried me I would always end up right back here, at his doorstep. I began to become nervous and started fidgeting around, looking for an answer for him.



"I-I, I don-don't know... Oh God I'm so stupid. Why did I even come here? Thinking maybe you'd wanna take me back? Thinking you still loved me. Thinking you'd sweep me off my feet and kiss me, and we'd just pick up where we left off." I rambled, only to interrupted by his lips smashing hard against mine.



It felt like we had never kissed before. It almost felt like it was the beginning of a new life, of a new love. He was love, and he was all I needed. He was my heart, my soul, my very existence. He was air to me, I needed him to breath, I needed his presence to keep me alive. I needed him.



"I'll love you till the stars fall from the sky." He whispered in a shaky voice. Like he had been crying, and sure enough when I looked up he had tear streaks rushing down his face.

"I'll love you till the stars fall from the sky." I repeated. Locking his lips again with mine.



He kissed me hard and long, the. Began grabbing under my ass. Gesturing for me to jump up, which I did. Wrapping my legs around his waist he pulled us inside, out of the hall way. He pushed my back up against the door with aggressive force and I moaned from his actions.


I tangled my fingers in his hair, tugging hard. He groaned in pleasure and started guiding us through his apartment. Finding his way to the bedroom was easy and I immediately stopped him.


"I can't have sex somewhere you fucked my ex best friend." I glared.

"Then c'mon miss lady." He said grabbing my hand and running through his apartment through the hall into mine. He ran straight to my room, and I couldn't help but chuckle at how eager he was. I followed in his pursuit and he sweeped me off my feet and threw me on the bed, causing me to scream and giggle furiously at the same time.



This time he got on top of me and began studying my body, like he never saw it before. Maybe he was just remembering all my curves, imperfections, or the way I have beauty marks on my tummy. But, whatever he was doing was making me fall so much more in love with him.



He stopped and stared directly in my piercing blue eyes, smiling devilishly at me.



"What's on your mind Carlile?" I smiled.

"You Rose." He smirked back.

"I could only hope." I playfully retaliated,

"You're all I've ever thought about, there was never a moment when you weren't filled within my thoughts." He said seriously, and I couldn't help but blush.

"Love me." I whispered.



Now he was toying with the hem of my shirt pulling it up little by little. I arched my back so he could pull it off, which he did in one swift motion. I kept my back arched so he could unlatch my bra. Once it was off, he placed gentle butterfly like kissed from my jaw to my collarbone to my chest. Lightly placing one nipple in his mouth and swirling his tongue around it, sending a sense of chills and shivers throughout my whole body. While with the other he massaged it gently.


I could feel his excessive length grow against my leg and I became even more excited. He switched and started massaging my other breast. Then he kissed from my chest down my stomach, causing goosebumps to rise on my skin. He chuckled and pulled down my yoga pants. Biting his lip at the sight of my cheetah print thong.



He teased me through them by rubbing me slowly, and kissing my thighs. Keeping eye contact with me the whole time. At this point I could feel the knots already start to form in my stomach, I was so close to my orgasm already, and we haven't even gotten to the real foreplay.



He gently kissed the fabric of my panties and continued with his teasing games. I thought enough was enough so I reached down and started palming him through he very tight black skinny jeans. He began to groan into the crook of my neck and all I could feel was his hot breath radiating off my skin.



"Just fuck me already." I begged, annoyed.

"I wanna make you feel beautiful." He said in a gently tone.



I couldn't helps but smile at his words. As much as I hate him sometimes and want nothing then to drop kick his face in I smiled. He never seizes to amaze me. He always leaves me wanting more. Before I could even register anymore thoughts I felt his tongue swirl around my already sensitive clit. Causing many moans to escape my lips.



He stopped and stripped himself completely down to nothing. Just tattooed skin was showing. He kissed passionately and entered me without warning. He stopped and looked at me worried, it had been a while since I was used to someone of his size and it was a little bit painful. But, after I adjusted he began to go slow.


Taking his time with things, making this moment last because who knew of we would have anymore like this. I could tell from the look in his eyes that he was truly savoring this time with me, as I was with him.



I could feel the knots building back up in my stomach causing a cluster of profanities and moans to slur from my mouth. Soon a released and felt my walls tighten around me. He went slower and than slow to let me ride out my amazing high. The feeling of pure ecstasy. A huge smile tugged at my lips. I felt him begin to pump faster and faster, clearly becoming closer to cumming. Soon he let a growl and filled me.



"You do realize if this doesn't work out I'm still going to love you." He whispered, plopping down beside me.

"We don't need to think like that, we need to focus on the now. Stop worrying about what the future might hold, because plans change, and people change. But I know that for one thing, I will always love you with all of my being." I cooed cuddling up to his chest.



I began to grow tired and started nodding off on his chest. Just like old times. I felt vibrations as though he was either snoring or humming, I looked up to see him smiling down at me. I smiled back and he pressed a gentle kiss to my awaiting lips. He started petting my hair to relax me and started humming again. This time I knew that song anywhere. IT was one of my favorites and I was very surprised that he remembered.


"And I'm holding you closer than most... Cause you are my heaven." He whispered into my ear.

Notes

Please enjoy chapter 15!
I enjoyed writing it, hope you guys were up for a little smut ;D
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Steph <3
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