Space enough to grow

Austin's P.O.VAfter we got back from the hotel Ash hopped in the shower and I attempted to get Alan to bed. "So how was it? Getting Ash's stuff" Aaron asked as I was getting Alan to his bunk "Ben, that's the dick who left her in the mosh, kept defending himself and telling her he loves her and I almost punched him, he just pissed me off the way he tried to turn everything back on her" I told them "he sounds like a real douche" Tino said "yeah he is, but you should have seen it Ash ripped him a new one, it was amazing how strong she was" I said remembering how amazing she was "I'd like to see Ash angry, I reckon it would be adorable" Phil said smiling "it was and it wasn't at first it was but the pain in her eyes man, I never want her to go through that again" I told him "AAAHHHHH FUCK" I heard Ash's voice from the bathroom, I ran to help her "Ash are you okay" "no I fell I need help" I went straight in and turned off the shower and grabbed a towel "I'm going to put this around you okay?" She nodded so I wrapped her up in the towel and picked her up "can you stand?" I asked "I I think so" she replied through gritted teeth so I put her down as gently as I could and held her hand as she steadied herself, "I'll go get your pain killers alright?" "Yes please" she begged I ran to my bunk and grabbed them and came back and handed them to her and she took them. I helped her get dressed, God she had an amazing body I honestly couldn't stop looking at her but I noticed she had some scars on her right thigh, I wanted to ask but I knew she was tired so I was just going to leave it till tomorrow, I helped to my bunk "no, isn't there a spare bunk? I feel bad for sleeping in yours" she said god she was so cute "it's fine okay I'm swapping with you, the spare bunk is a top one and I'm pretty sure you won't to be able to get into it without hurting you're self" I said "oh okay then I'm good with that" she replied sliding into her bunk " if you need anything-" she cut me off "call out and we'll help you, I get it!" "Okay try to rest alright" I said smiling "yep, that's the plan" she replied shutting the curtain. I walked into the lounge and plopped myself on the sofa "how is our guest?" Tino asked "she fell in the shower and I helped her out" "oh you 'helped her' right" Alan said "hey! It's not like that!" I replied "bull shit you just want some ass!" Alan laughed "HEY! This isn't about me at all it's about her getting better and feeling safe and I can help her and I will" I snapped getting in his face "hey calm down dude I was kidding, what's your problem" he said pushing me out of his face "sorry, I don't know I haven't felt this way about a girl ever, not even with Giselle, I think I love her and it's been what not even 24 hours fuck I'm crazy!" I said "dude that's pretty deep, maybe you should give it a couple days at least to see if it's real" " dude I don't know, I'm just so confused!" I said honestly.
I was 3:00 and we where half way to Fort Lauderdale and Ash had been asleep since I left her at around 1:30 I wanted to check up on her make sure she was okay, I pulled back the curtain and she was dead to the world, she looked so beautiful just laying there I could have watched her all day, she started to stir so I got up and left her alone to sleep. We got to Fort Lauderdale at 4:35 and we had sound check in twenty minutes and I didn't want to leave Ash alone without letting her know were we where so I wrote her a little note. It was sound check time and she was still fast asleep so I left to note next to her and followed the guys out.
Ashley's P.O.V
I woke up around 5:00 and I found a note from Austin "Hey Ash don't worry we haven't left you, we had a sound check we should be back around 5:10 so don't burn the bus down ;) Austin" well that's nice of him, shit I've been asleep for three and half hours! Fuck sometimes I think I'm part cat with my sleeping patterns. I got up and decided to watch some T.V. till the guys got back, I was channel surfing till I found shameless, it's one of my favourite shows, it was from season one but it was still cool the first thing since I've been here that felt like home. I sat there for ten minutes or so an the guys came in "oh look sleeping beauty's awake" Tino yelled I just giggled "how you feeling?" Austin asked walking towards me and planting himself next to me "I feel relaxed and rested, I did sleep for three hours haha" I answered laughing "yeah we were afraid you weren't going to wake up!" Phil said laughing "well sorry guys I'm here to stay, so um about tonight what am I going to do?" I asked "well would you like to see the show side of stage?" Austin asked smiling "are you serious?" I asked in disbelief "of course silly, why would he kid about that?" Answered Tino "holy shit yeah, that sounds amazing! But would it be possible if I could see Bring Me too? cause I kinda missed them last night" I asked meekly I really didn't want to push my luck these guys have already been so generous "yeah sure honey, if you want you could meet them too" Tino replied "thank you guys honestly I'm so happy right now I can't even begin to explain" I said with the biggest smile on my face "no worries Ash" Austin said as he hugged me making sure not to hurt me.
I got ready for the show only wearing simple makeup, my lucky chucks and overalls with the shirt I bought last night just for fun. Once I was ready the guys took me on a mini tour of the venue while we waited for Letlive's set to end. "So do I need a VIP pass or something?" I asked "oh yeah hold on I'll get you one" Aaron said, he left and came back with a pass "here you are lil lady" he said handing me the pass smiling "thanks dude" I can't believe this is really happening honestly I'm backstage at the American Dream tour! "Okay so this is their last song if you need anything just show that guy over there your pass and he'll help you okay?" Austin yelled over the music pointing to one of the security guards "yep I get it" I replied. Watching the guys on stage was breath taking, it was so amazing to see how the guys get into it, they all really love performing and you can see that passion come out when their on stage. I was just sitting watching the guys in awe of them when a voice behind be pulled me out from my trance "Hello love, you must be girl from the mosh, am I right?" It was Oli, OLIVER FUCKING SYKES! "Um yeah that's me, but my names Ashley" I said shaking his hand "well I'm Oli, so can I ask what really happened last night cause Alan isn't a very reliable source when he's drunk as fuck" he asked "oh um well my best friend was mad at me and left me alone in the mosh and three guys started grabbing my arse and when I told them to go fuck them selves they decided to beat me, Austin saved me and I've got three cracked ribs and I can't go home for at least a month and I'm staying on the Of Mice bus till I can go home" I answered "shit are you alright?" Matt Nicholls asked "yeah I'm alright, it only hurts when I do certain things and I've got pain killers for that so I'm peachy" I replied smiling "shit your a trooper!" Oli said patting me on the shoulder "thanks" I said blushing "this is out last song for the night guys! You've been amazing! This songs called 'Second and Sebring'" Austin screamed to the Audience. Watching him sing this song was so heart wrenching, you could see his pain all over his body, you could feel his pain just looking at him. After they came off Bring Me went on and a sweaty Austin came towards me "so what did you think?" He asked sounding puffed "that was AMAZING! Thank you so much I am so grateful" I replied smiling from ear to ear "no need to thank us babe we want you here" he said putting an arm around my shoulder and sitting next to me, this was like a dream come true! Me sitting with Austin Carlile watching BMTH! It all felt so amazing but also unpredictable and I wasn't sure how I was going to handle all of this and what if the guys get sick of me and kick me out then I'd be fucked and the anxiety attack started, I was finding it hard to breathe and I was starting to cry and I was shaking Austin noticed and grabbed my hand "what's wrong Ash?" He asked "aaaa anxiety aa attack" I stuttered, he held both my hands in one of his and rubbed circles in the small of my back "deep breaths okay, I'll do it with you, deep breath in, deep breath out, good girl keep going babe" he said, after about five minutes I'd started to breathe normally and I wasn't shaking as bad, I was so glad I had Austin to calm me down. "What was that about Ash?"" I guess I forgot to mention I have anxiety sorry""you don't need to apologise, but what triggered the attack?""I over think things and I was thinking what if you get sick of me and kick me out and then I'll be alone and far away from home with no way back"I said looking down "hey, look at me" he said pulling my chin up with is finger "I will never get sick of you, and I promise I would never kick you out, ever! Okay your one of us your apart of the OMAM family now alright?" He said looking deep into my eyes, I felt like he reached into my soul "okay, are you sure?" I asked "yes silly billy!" He chuckled as I giggled. We just sat there me laying my head in the crook I his neck and his arm around me till the set was over, it was so lovely and for the first time in such a long time I felt truly wanted and cared for.

Notes

I AM SO SORRY!
ive been kinda messed up lately but ill try to update more
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