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Space enough to grow

Family day at the Jones'

I woke up snuggled in between Sammi and Will, I couldn’t see Ben so I assumed he went to bed after we fell asleep. I tried to get up without waking the boys up but unfortunately I failed, I tripped on Will and I fell on Sammy, WOOPS! “OWCH! ASH WHAT THE FUCK?” Will yelled at the top of his lungs. “I’m so sorry! I was trying not to wake you two up and failed epically, I’m sorry” I said as soft as I could. “It’s alright baby girl, Will’s just being a bitch” Sammi said noticing that I was a little shaken, I just smiled weakly and got up and went upstairs then remembered that Ben was asleep and considering what just happened I was just going to wait for him to wake up, which might take forever but I’ll wait. “Bubba girl are you okay?” Sammi whispered behind me “yeah I’m fine I just don’t want to risk waking Ben up, he’s worse than Will in the morning” I said trying to shake him off “Ashley I know when you’re lying, what’s wrong?” he asked worry in his eyes. I sighed “Ben upset me last night asking me if id brought a razor with me and went on about how he hasn’t seen me eat so I came down stairs and ate a whole bowl of pasta then when the movie was on I purged and when Will was yelling about how I hurt him all I could think was how fat I am and if I was skinny he wouldn’t have noticed” I told him fighting back tears but loosing, “baby girl! No you are beautiful and skinny and amazing! Ben was just trying to help, he did a shitty job but you know he loves you and he would never try to hurt you. William’s just a little bitch in the morning’s okay bubba, please if you feel the need to purge talk to me, anytime, anyplace, no matter what I’m here for you, okay bubs?” he whispered t me as he had me in a bear hug with me crying into his chest. “Okay, I love you Sammi bear” I managed to get out between sobs, “I love you too Ashy bear”. Just as I stopped crying Ben came out as soon as he saw my red eyes he grabbed me in a hug “what’s wrong love?” he whispered in my ear, “I’m all good, can have a shower now I smell disgusting and my hair is greasy as fuck!” I said smiling. “Sure babe” Ben said laughing, I grabbed my clothes and shit stepped onto the heated tile floor started the shower stripped off and hopped in washed my hair, shaved my legs and almost fell asleep the water pressure in this house is AMAZING! I got out and dressed myself, dried my hair and did my makeup. Once I was done I went down stairs to find all the boys ready and waiting “So what’s for breakfast?” I ask throwing my arms around Sammi, “well I thought we should go out for brekkie, what do think boys?” “MAMMA KAY!” I yelled running at the 48 year old mother of 4 giving her a huge hug. “Hello darling I missed you too honey how are you?” she asked beaming at me “I am AMAZING!!! Thanks to Benjamin, how are you? How was the trip?” I replied. She just came back from a business trip to London, England, “Oh the trip was wonderful but I missed you all, Oh and I have something for you little lady” she said handing me shopping bag “NO! I said no gifts this time, you all spend too much money on me anyway” I said attempting to give the bag back but she looked at me and said “Ashley you are a member of this family and as such you are entitled to gifts and trinkets from time to time, and by the way I’m not taking that back” pointing to the bag, giving me a look that said “open it or I will” “OKAY OKAY! JEZZ you guys never let me say no” I giggled as I opened the bag t find an amazing bag with the union jack all over it. A slight side note I LOVE the UK, “OH MY GOD! THIS IS AMAZING THANKYOU!” I squealed with excitement hugging her once again “I’m glad you like it honey, now I’m starved lets go” ”YEAH!” the boys screamed in unison.
Off we went to one of the fanciest places I’ve ever see, I felt so out of place, I just wanted to run as fast and as far as I could. Have you ever had that feeling when you walk into a room and everyone is staring at you? Well that’s what I was feeling but times that but a thousand and you’ll be close to how unconfutable I felt. When we were seated the waiter asked us for our drink orders and Ben got coffee and so did his mum, Sammi and Will decided to get orange juice and I just ordered a water considering I ate all that creamy food last night I was going to eat this and starve till Ben forces me to eat in America. We chatted while we looked at the menu, this place charges more for fruit salads then I get paid in a week! Thank goodness I’m here with the jones’ “so what are you guys getting?” I asked trying to make conversation “I’m getting the big brekkie with extra hash browns and mushies!” Ben replied first “same here except I’m getting extra tomatoes” Sammi informed us “All of the above guys plus extra bacon and maple syrup mm mm I’m salivating” Will whispered attempting to me sexy but failing as usual. “Eww stay away from me drooling isn’t attractive” I said pushing him away softly, “what are you getting darling?” Mamma Kay asked me putting me off guard “oh I was just getting the fruit salad, I ate heaps last night” I said trying to stay calm. After we ordered our meals we continued to chat till our food came out, all the boys dug into their food while I was taking it slow picking at my food “are you okay?” Will whispered, his hand on my thigh “yeah I’m just feeling a little sick but I’ll be okay” I said smiling weakly “are you sure? You know I’m always here for you, right?” “Yeah I know but like I said I’m fine” I kissed his cheek and went back to attempting to eat my food.
After we had all finished we went back to the house and it was becoming a really hot day and it was only 12:30pm and we didn’t have to be at the airport till 4:30pm so I decided to go swimming. I went upstairs and quickly changed and went outside, just as I was going to hop in the pool a pair of arms came and wrapped around my waist and a lips started kissing my neck, “hey stop! You’ve got Em! I thought we sorted this out no more romantic kissy shit!” I turned around and Ben just looked at me and pouted “I know but you just looked so sexy I couldn’t help myself” he smirked at me. “Fuck off” I said pushing him away just as Sammi came out with Em close behind “Hey Em! How are you?” I asked hugging her trying to forget what her stupid boyfriend just did, “I’m good thanks Ash, and how are you?” She asked carefully I’m sure she was worried I was going to cry at her or something. “I’m great just hanging with my favourite boy” I chirped wrapping my arms around Sammi’s waist, smiling so hard my cheeks looked like they were going to crack, “Yeah, I’m going to miss you while you’re gone” Sammi said just before he threw me into the pool. “HEY! What was that?” I yelled trying not choke, “pay back for this morning” he said laughing his arse off, “And here I thought you were the nice brother” I said with mock hurt in my voice. “I tried telling you he was evil but you didn’t listen!” Will shouted from inside the house, we were all laughing at this point. “So what’s up babe?” Ben asked Em as I tried not to eavesdrop, swimming around with Sammi, “I’m not going to see you for a week and you’re asking me what’s up? I wanted to see my boyfriend before he jets off to the U.S with another girl! Is that okay with you?” she snapped. “Babe, it’s going to be fine, nothing is going on between me and Ash okay she’s my best friend! She’s like a sister to me” he said calmly attempting to calm her down, it seemed to be working. “A sister he wants to bang” Sammi whispered in my ear, I giggled and lightly slapped his arm and yelled out “William Thomas Jones would you like to join us or are you too busy doing your makeup?” “Don’t hate me because I’m beautiful” he replied acting camp as fuck “oh dude that’s not why we hate you” Sammi laughed “oh I see how it is” Will sobbed mocking sadness. “Hurry the fuck up and get in here drama queen!” I yelled laughing my arse off “okay babe, but remember you asked for this” he answered has he ran and cannon balled into the pool splashing all of us in one go. “HOLY SHIT MAN! That was awesome!” I said still laughing with both Sam and Will until I looked over at EM She was saturated “OMFG IM DRENCHED!” Em screamed “babe it’s alright it’s just water okay I’ve got clothes up stairs, let’s get cleaned up yeah?” Ben said calmly attempting to keep the peace. Will turned to me and I mouthed “say sorry!” and tilted my head in Em’s direction “sorry Em I didn’t mean to wet you” she just glared at him and stormed off. “Babe he’s just trying to apologise, come back babe” Ben yelled trying to convince her to come back but failed “WHAT THE FUCK EVER BENJAMIN!” she spat “Thanks Will” Ben snapped as he ran after his woman. “Fuck and I thought you were temperamental” Will said trying not to laugh “hey! Give her a break, she’s trying to wrap her head around the fact her boyfriend is going to the other side of the world with the girl he’s in love with, how would you feel?” I said defending her reaction, it’s the least I can do. I feel so bad about the situation, I know it’s not my fault Ben has feelings for me but I could distance myself better or date someone but for that to happen someone would have to find me attractive and until I lose more weight that’s not going to happen. It’s not like I can make him stop loving me, GOD! What does he see in me anyway? I’m a pathetic, fat, stupid cutter who isn’t good for anything! “You’re right but that’s not my fault so why did I get the death stare from hell?” Will asked “I don’t know maybe cause you drenched her in pool water, that upsets some girls” Sammi answered his voice dripping in sarcasm, “oh yeah I forgot about that, whoops” he laughed