Alan's POV

I sat on my bed with my eyes closed, my fingers gently strumming against the strings of my guitar. My parents were working late and it's the only time I ever play my guitar. Austin is the only person who has ever heard me play but I doubt he remembers. Even Aaron has never witnessed it. I don't know why I feel so self-conscious about it but I think maybe it's because music is the one thing I feel like I'm actually good at. It's the one thing that's ever made sense to me and that I enjoy doing. I guess I'm just scared that if anyone hears me play and doesn't think I'm any good then I will lose the feeling of comfort that it brings me.
I began playing the familiar chords to a song I wrote a few years ago. The lyrics to it laid in my crumbling, old notebook that stayed hidden under my bed. I couldn't sing but I had a lot of thoughts and feelings that I was often able to fathom into songs. Austin used to sing a few of them along with me when we were younger. He was always just as nervous as me when it came to showing off his musical talent. He always preferred to scream instead of sing, claiming his singing voice wasn't as good. I always believed he was lying since his normal speaking voice sounded angelic just as it was. I continued to play and settled for humming along with the chorus.

"Alan?"
My eyes shot open and I noticed Austin stood in the doorway. I stand up and quickly place my guitar back on its stand.
"A-Austin?" I say, my cheeks turning red in embarrassment.
I just hoped to God he didn't hear me playing.
"I've missed hearing you play." He whispers, walking towards me.
Shit. He did hear.
"What are you doing here? How did you get in?" I asked.
He shrugs. "I knocked for a while but no one answered. Your parents cars aren't on the drive so I figured you were asleep or in the shower or something and couldn't hear the door."
He moves towards me even more until his hands are placed firmly on my hips and he is staring straight into my eyes. I was breathless just by looking at him. His hair and hoodie were wet from the rain outside. He ran his fingers up my shirt and traced my hip bones with his cold fingers. I shivered as he stroked my skin.
I moved onto my tip-toes and placed my lips to his. The kiss was short as he quickly pulled back. I stared at him in confusion.
"Alan, I need to tell you something." He sighs, running a hand through his hair.
I moved back and out of his grip, my eyes widening in horror. He's going to break up with me. I knew he was. I could tell from how nervous he was acting.
"No, no. Austin you can't. I can't lose you" I cry, looking up at him with pleading eyes.
"W-what?" He replies. "Lose me? What are you on about Alan?"
"Look, if you're going to break up with me, just do it."
I take in a deep breath and scrunch my eyes closed, as if the words were going to feel exactly like a punch to the face.
"Alan. Look at me." He whispers.
I dare to open my eyes and find him smiling down at me. "I'm not breaking up with you." He says, intertwining our fingers and pulling me closer to him. "I needed to tell you that I love you."
I stare at him for a moment while the last three words took there time to register into my head. He looks back at me, waiting apprehensively for my answer.
"I'm sorry." He sighs, looking down at our feet. "I'm not very good at this. I mean, I've never told anyone that before. Well, apart from my mum but I mean that doesn't-"
I interrupt him by connecting our lips together.
"I love you too." I reply, against his mouth. "I always have."

Austin places his hands back onto my hips and digs his fingernails into my skin. I wrap my arms around his neck and he takes my bottom lip between his teeth. I moan against his mouth and Austin slowly starts guiding me towards my bed, never once moving any further away from me. Once I felt the bed hit the back of my knees I opened my eyes and looked at Austin. He laid down first and I climbed over him so that I could straddle him. He began tugging on the bottom of my shirt so I disconnected our lips for a moment so he could pull it off. He sat up slightly and pulled his own off. I stared at him for a moment, admiring how soft his skin looked and how cute the little cluster of freckles looked that trailed down his arms. I looked up to find him biting his lip and staring down at my arm. I followed his gaze and gasped when I noticed the numerous fading cuts across my forearms.
"Austin, I-" I began until he interrupted me by pressing his lips against mine.
"Please don't hurt yourself Alan. I care about you too much to let you do that." He whispers against my mouth.
I run my hands across his chest, adoring how soft his skin was before he consumed me in a kiss once again. His tongue was in my mouth, working wonders and I unintentionally grind my hips against his. I felt him smile before he pulled away and looked at me.
His tongue was in my mouth, working wonders and I unintentionally grind my hips against his. I felt him smile before he pulled away and looked at me.

"What are we going to do about this?" He asks, raising an eyebrow and looking down at the bulge in my jeans.
I gulped and bit my lip, feeling incredibly embarrassed. Austin quickly flipped us over so that he was straddling me and began kissing and biting my neck. He left a trail of marks down my body, from my neck to my stomach, just above the band of my boxers which were poking out of the top of my jeans. He undid the button on them and pulled down the zipper, sliding his tongue across my right hip bone. I bucked up my hips and moaned. Austin took the opportunity to pull my jeans and boxers down, throwing them both onto my bedroom floor. Before I even had the chance to look at him, I felt him kiss the tip of my erection. I gasped and heard him chuckle. He placed his tongue at the base and slid it all the way back up to the tip before taking as much of me in his mouth as he could. Austin paused for a moment and hollowed out his cheeks. He was slow at first, swirling his tongue around the tip every time he pulled back.
"Austin" I moaned, while running my hands through his hair and gripping onto it tightly.
He quickened his pace, taking more of me in and I opened my eyes and watched him as his head bobbed up and down. If I could get anymore hard, the sight of Austin giving me head would have.
"I'm c-close." I stutter.
Austin looks up at me, his eyes dark with lust. That was all it took to push me over the edge. I quickly came into his mouth, shouting his name at the top of my voice. Moments later, he was lying next to me. I watched him swallow what was in his mouth and lick his lips. If it was possible, I probably would have gotten another boner from watching him do that.

I let my eyes scan over his half naked body and I noticed his erection through his jeans. I smirked at him and he raised an eyebrow in confusion. I placed my lips to his quite aggressively and moved my hands down to his crotch, slowly beginning to palm him, rubbing in slow circles.
"Alan." He moaned and pulled his lips away from mine so that he could throw his head back against my pillow.
I left a trail of kisses up his cheek bone and took his earlobe in between my teeth, earning another moan from Austin. I undid the button of his jeans and pulled the zipper down, just like he had done with mine. I began to roll my hips against his and Austin closed his eyes and opened his mouth in pleasure.
"Alan!" My dads voice calls from downstairs.
I sigh and curse under my breath before climbing off of Austin and collecting my clothes from the floor.
"I'm sorry." I say, looking over at Austin, who was still lying on my bed, breathless and frustrated. "I'll make it up to you. I promise."
I pull on my clothes and lean over to kiss him once more.
"O-Ok. I better get back anyways, it's getting late." He replies, his voice shaky.
"I love you." I whisper.
He smiles at me and moves my fringe out of my eyes. "I love you too, Alan."

Notes

This is my first time writing smut so please don't hate me because of how bad it is haha :P
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