The Invisible Girl

[Phoenix POV]

I was still shocked with what I just discovered 3 days ago. Sam cheating on Alan. I hated her for doing this.

I was walking at the lobby when I heard someone calling my name.

'Alan!'

I tried to avoid him eversince he arrived. David told me that Of Mice and Men is going to have a planned tour here but Alan just arrived earlier.

"Phoenix wait!" I heard him called.

I went to the open elevator and tried to push the close button multiple times just to get rid of him.

"Hold it! Wait!"

Before the elavator closes, I saw him cluching his head. I immediately pushed the 'Open' button. I can hear him moaning. 'Fuck!' Alan is already lying on the floor on a fetal position still clutching his head. SHIT! It's happening again!

I've been here before. I've seen his worst. "Oh god Alan! What's happening? Is your head hurting again?" I don't know where to touch him. I placed his head on my lap and I don't care if we're blocking the way.

"Aahhhh..."

I tried to find my phone but I can't find it. Shit! I need to call Austin. But fuck! He's in California and we're in fucking Sydney!

I need an ice! Right! I tried to stand up but Alan groaned. No! I need to get him to the hospital.

"Alan!" I shook his body when I saw that he's unconscious. "Alan wake up! Please open your eyes, don't do this to me." I didn't see any reaction from him. I can feel the tears starting to form in my eyes. "P-please hang on, Alan. I'll call an ambulance."

I tried to stand up again to get my phone but it's on the 11th floor and were in 15th. Damn! Right! Landline. I need a landline.

I tried to find one but I can't find nothing. Where the hell are the people here?!

I need to send him to the hospital immediately. I tried to carry him to get him in the elevator. I thought that once we're on the ground, I can ask the guards to help me. But I can't carry him. I felt so helpless. But I don't want to give up. I looked at him when he suddenly opened his eyes.

"Thank God! You're okay now? Is it still hurting?" then I touched his forehead.

He didn't answer then a big smile curved on his lips.

My eyes went big when I realized what just happened. So, everything is part of his... joke!

"Did I scare you? Sorry! I just wanted to know if you still care for m--"

I pushed him and stood up. "Fuck you Alan! You scared the shit out of me! It's not even funny!" I choked him while he's laughing.

"W-wait! I-I can't breathe!"

"You deserved it! I hate you! I almost died of heartattack and you're still laughing! I thought...I thought y-you're gonna..." then my voice trailed off not realizing that I'm already crying. "Don't ever do that again." I hate him so much for scaring me to death.

"Ssshhhh.. please don't cry." Alan hugged me. "I'm so sorry. It's not my intention. Because you're always avoiding me. I tried to call you a thousand times then when I saw you earlier, you didn't even bother to say, 'Hi'"

"How could I? We're not ok Alan. Just go back to Cali. Why are you making these like it's all my fault?"

"You're right. It's all your fault. I wouldn't be here now if had not for you. Because I realized that living without you is like living in hell."

I stopped crying with what I heard.

He cupped my face and said, "You never knew what I went through these past few days. Everyday is like hell. I wanted to follow you here but I know you needed your space. I wanted to think too."

"Why did you wait?"

"You asked me to let you go. And I did. Because I can see that I was hurting you. I knew that you were overwhelmed with everything that I said. All of them are true. But I was surprised with your reaction, with what you said to me. And worst you wanted me to let you go, so I gave you what you needed."

I closed my eyes. Now, I realized my mistakes.

"I'm so sorry, Alan. I was so stupid for not believing you. I was consumed by too much anger. I felt betrayed. I thought you just wanted to get even for lying to you."

"Sshhh..." He hugged me tight. "It's okay. No need to say sorry. After all, its not really your fault. Mom forced you to lie. But I'm glad that you did. Because of that, I found you."

"But aren't you angry that we lied?"

Alan shook his head."At first I was so pissed off. But then I decided to make a little investigation. Then I found out the truth. I was happy, believe it or not. My doubts were answered."

"Doubts?"

"When I first met you at Rise, I felt like I already knew you. I was so curious about you that I even checked your background details."

My eyes went big. "You did not--"

"Hep! Let me finish first, okay? I was just curios because everytime you see me, you're always agitated. You avoided me as far as I can remember like you don't want to be near me. I thought you are just like that. But then I noticed that you're so happy and laid-back when Austin is with you."

I can't help but smile with his revelation.

"Since then you're always in my mind. Even if I'm with Sam, you're all that I thnk of. Then I got even more confused when I saw the things I loved about her in you. She never yells at me. But you did. Buddy doesn't like her. But he likes you a lot. She never argue with me but you can. She's a soft-spoken and a very patience person but you're not."

I pouted. "That's all negative!"

He smiled at me. "I know it's very impossible but the though came across my mind. Maybe it was you who took care of me when I was still blind." Alan continued.

"How did you find out? And who told you?"

"Do you still remember when my head hurt back in the bus? You and Sam were there. I can't open my eyes with the fear of getting blind again. All I can hear was your identical voices. And still I can recognized who is who. How? I just simply follow what my heart says. And when I opened my eyes I saw you." Then Alan smiled. "I called Lara that night to prove my doubts. And what she said light up my life. I was so happy that I couldn't wait to see you again. That's the reason why I wanted to talk to you that night but Sam came back."

I can feel the tears forming in my eyes then Alan sat down and cupped my face. "I loved Sam before more than my life. And I thought that I still love her. But I can't fight what my heart feels for you, Phoenix. I love you so much. And I will never let you go again."

I know I am crying. I don't know what to do. I'm no longer invisible to him. I am so overwhelmed with his confession. "I love you too Alan." I smiled through unshed tears. "And I will never leave you again."

He pulled me to him and I gladly leaned towards him to accept his loving kisses, with same feeling, with same intensity.

"Wait!" then I pushed him away from me.

"What?"

"What about Samantha?"

His eyebrows burrowed. "What about her?"

"I saw her here in the office when you arrived. I saw him with...with...and I thought you and her are back together but I found out she was cheating on you." I realized that I was rambling.

He laughed, then pinched my nose. "Silly girl! Ever since the day we broke up, I never went back to her. I heard she's dating David."

"You mean..." Then my eyes went big when I remember her saying to me to keep 'that' between us. "That bitch! Still making me jealous!"

Alan burst out laughing. "Shut up and kiss me!" He claimed my mouth and kissed me again and again and again.. until it's hard to catch our breath.

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