Save Me

"Jezabelle! You ready?!" Kellin yelled across the bus as we rushed to get ready for our first show. "Yes, baby!" I said back, quickly grabbing my phone and rushing out the door after the guys who were walking swiftly backstage. We reached the dressing room, and I plopped down on the comfy couch, out of breath. Kellin laughed, grabbing a water. I glared at him. He laughed even harder, spitting his water into the sink next to him. "Baby, you want some water?" He asked, offering me the bottle. I snatched it from him, downing it in a few gulps and handing him back the crushed bottle. "Five minutes!" Our manager yelled through the door. I started getting nervous. My legs started bouncing up and down, my hand shaking. Kellin noticed and sat down next to me, hugging me. "It's okay." I relaxed at once. "Come on guys! Sound check!" Our manager yelled. We all got up and went to the sound check. After that, we had about two minutes before we went on. We were all bouncing around backstage, Kellin and I warming up our voices. "And this is Sleeping With Sirens!!!!" And with that, Kellin ran onto the stage by his lonesome. "Hey guys!" The crowd cheered. "We have a very special new member tonight. And she's with us for good. A permanent new member! Ladies aaannnd gentleman, Jezabelle Andrews!!!" He yelled as I ran out to join him. "Hey, everyone!! Everybody having a freaking awesome time?!" I yelled. They all screamed. "Amazing! Here's the rest of the band!" I yelled as the rest of the guys all came out, joining Kellin and I. We went off into our first song, "Free Now". I sang the lyrics, jumping around the stage, reaching out to grab the fans hands. Kellin was right next to me, doing the same. It was excruciatingly hot, but I didn't care. It was amazing. I loved being on stage. "Amazing job, Jezzy!" Gabe exclaimed, giving me a high five and a hug. "Thanks, bro." I said, running to Kellin as he picked me up off my feet and I wrapped my legs around his waist. "Good job, love." He said, kissing me. The other guys started making puking sounds and Kellin put me down, settling for holding my hand instead. We headed back to the bus. "Hey! There's a party going on down the street, let's go." Jack said, scrolling down his news feed on Instagram. Kellin looked at me, silently asking if I wanted to go. I nodded, getting up. "Sounds fun, man. Let me get ready and then we can all head there." I said, heading to the bathroom to get a shower. The music was booming loud and the strobe lights lit the room. Kellin was sitting at the bar with Jesse while Acealeigh and I were head banging to the Suicide Silence song, enjoying the night. I turned around to see Hayley Williams from Paramore. "Hayley!" I shouted over the song "O.C.D." "Jezabelle Andrews?!" She shouted back. "Yeah!" I said. "Oh my God! You're Kellin's girl!" She laughed, dancing along with Acealeigh and I. "Yep!" "Hey! You do look a lot more familiar though!" That confused me. "Huh?" I said. She pulled me away from the dance floor and over to the bar where Kellin was. Kellin was laughing hysterically at something stupid Jesse had said. I rolled my eyes as Acealeigh walked up. Kellin pulled me into his lap and wrapped his arms around me, putting his chin on my shoulder. "Do you know Christie Williams?" She asked. My eyes widened at the sound of my favorite aunt's name. "That's my aunt!" I exclaimed. "That's why! Oh gosh! You're my cousin! You don't remember playing together when we were little?" She asked, laughing. "No. I don't remember my aunt having a child, honestly." I said. "Oh my gosh! Well whatever, I missed you!" She said, hugging me. I smiled, totally stunned that Hayley was my cousin. "So how did you end up with Kellin?" She asked, glancing at Kellin who was now talking to Jesse as I still sat on his lap. "Your aunt, my mother, abused me.. I met Kell at Warped almost two years ago.. he took me in. We dated, broke up. Then I was with Austin Carlile for a year. We were engaged. And then he broke it off.." I said, really not wanting to talk about it. She nodded, understanding. "Hey, put your number in my phone." She said, handing me her iPhone. I took it, quickly putting my name and number in and handing it back to her. She texted me seconds later so I'd have her number as well. "Well I think Acealeigh and I are gonna find the rest of the guys and head back to the bus before they all fall out." I laughed, hugging her as she said bye. I grabbed Kellin's hand and we found the rest of them and went back to the bus. The next week or so went extremely quick. Set after set. Show after show. I had to admit, it was exhausting. But I absolutely adored it. The fans were amazing. One night after a show, all the guys had gone out to another party, along with Acealeigh. Kellin and I stayed in. We were tired of parties. We curled up on the couch in the lounge and were watching a movie. "Baby.." he whispered. "Yes?" I said back. "I love you. More than anything in this entire world. I would die for you. Walk through fire for you. Anything. And I never want to not be able to call you mine again. I never want anyone else to be able to call you theirs. You know how bad it hurt to see you with Austin? It killed me on the inside. The guys were about to take me to the loony bin. The only thing that kept me sane were your texts every now and then. And when you came to my house that day, crying, I wanted to beat Austin's face in. But I wouldn't. Couldn't. He's supposed to be my bff. Ha. But when you came home to me that day, I didn't have any expectations of you coming back to ME. I thought you only needed a shoulder to cry on. Then Austin started screaming and yelling and getting all red faced and you were just curled up into a ball like I had seen you that one day.. with your mom. It killed me. I knew you were terrified." He finished with a deep breath. I was crying now, remembering everything. I didn't want to remember. Any of it. Not my ex fiancé. Not my mother. Not either of those awful days. "I'm going for a walk, okay?" I said, softly, getting up and leaving without him following. I had got about six buses, maybe seven away from the SWS bus when I heard her. I cringed at the sound of her voice. "Hello, babygirl. Didn't you miss me?" I froze. No. No, I definitely didn't miss her. Not at all. "Why don't you turn around so I can see that UGLY face of yours?" She insulted from behind me. I didn't turn. I heard her footsteps bringing her closer to me. I wanted to scream, but yet again, I knew better than that. I wanted to cry, but I knew that it would only worsen what was to come. Wait. What was I thinking? I was an adult. She couldn't harass me like this anymore. I wasn't going to let her push me around like that. I spun around, a scowl on my face as I saw my mother standing in front of me. "Oh, goodness how you've grown. Straight into the ugly, no good woman I knew you'd always be." She gave me a sarcastic smile. I frowned. "Look at how much you've wrinkled from your drugs and cigarettes. No wonder no man would ever take you." I laughed at her. She stared at me, incredulously. "So you think because you're famous you can speak to your mother like that?!" She said. "No. You are not my mother. You may have physically gave birth to me, but you are in no way my mother, Stephanie." I called her by her first name. "Bah! You little brat!" She said, slapping me hard. That is what did it. That's what set me off. All of a sudden, the only thing I saw was red and I knew that if someone didn't come pull me off of her, I was going to kill her. I just kept punching her and punching her. Repeatedly. I broke her nose, I was sure. "Jezzy!!" I heard Andy's deep voice yell as I was lifted off of my biological mother. Andy slung me over his shoulder as I heard Jake's voice calling an ambulance, and explaining my self defense. Andy carried me back to the bus. He then proceeded to put me down on the couch where Kellin looked at me, surprised. I glanced down at my shirt that had blood stains on it. "What happened?!" Kellin yelled and I winced. He lowered his voice, pulling me to him. "What happened baby?" He asked softly. I couldn't say it, so I looked at Andy, begging for him to explain. "I guess her mother found her and hit her and she just.. well she used her self defense. We called an ambulance for her mother. Jake just texted me, saying she had escaped from prison and she's going straight to jail once they get her broken nose fixed up." Andy said. "Really?" Kellin asked, looking at me. I nodded. He sighed "I knew I should have went with you." I got up silently and got in the shower, scrubbing all the blood off of me. When I crawled into bed, Kellin was already there. I slid under the covers next to him. He didn't say anything, he just pulled me into his arm, kissing my shoulder as I fell into a deep sleep. Thankfully, I had no dreams.

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