Save Me

The hate came in huge waves. His fans were sending death threats, mean messages, terrible things on every social network I had. It was sending me over the edge again. I could feel it. This is what broke me and Kell up. Oh my God what am I doing?! Oh God, oh God. No. I can't deal with this! Shut up, you're pathetic. No you're not. Yes you are. Just disappear. Nobody will miss you. Run away. Far far away. My mind was screaming so loud I didn't hear Aus walk into the bathroom where I was lying in the fetal position on the floor, crying. He rushed up to me, assuming I was hurt. "What happened baby?" he asked, picking me up and putting me into his lap. I couldn't sit there. I couldn't stay here with him seeing me like this. I quickly got up, grabbed my keys, and yelled, "I HAVE TO SEE KELLIN!" I got in my car, turned the key and started peeling out of the driveway just in time to see Austin standing on the front porch, looking confused and extremely hurt. Great. You did it again. I thought to myself as I made my way down the highway and to the huge hidden mansion Kellin lived in. I parked and ran to the door. Aus must have texted Kellin because he opened the door immediately, and I ran into him as he hugged me tight. I bawled, getting his t-shirt soaked as he carried me to the couch. I just sat there, crying. I knew he understood. Even more than Aus. He was there that night, Austin wasn't. He held me when I had nobody else, and that's what I was eternally grateful for. He was one of my best friends. "Jezzy, are you going to be okay this time?" Kellin asked. I didn't honestly know. I didn't know what the heck I was doing with my life. What was I, in a daze all this time or something?! I couldn't do it. No. Not anymore. I needed time to get my thoughts and feelings straight. And here, in Kellin's arms, I felt at home... I felt safe. I felt like me.. Oh God. The feelings are coming back. Oh God no. No. No. What am I doing?! I jumped up quickly, but not quick enough. Austin walked straight into Kellin's house, staring both him and I down as Kellin held me. His mouth dropped to the floor. "WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM, JEZABELLE?!" he screamed at me. I knew to keep my mouth shut. Don't say anything. Don't fight back. And that's what I did, as Austin towered over me, screaming in my face, never touching me. Tears streamed down my face, but he never gave up, relentless. Of course he reacted terribly.. I was awful. It looked like I was cheating on him. "YOU'RE CHEATING ON YOUR FIANCE WITH YOUR EX!!" he screamed in my face as I fell to the floor. Kellin protested, saying I wasn't but Aus wouldn't listen. I couldn't think. I couldn't breathe. I was going into an anxiety attack, for sure. "WHAT THE HECK?! I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME?! BULLCRAP! YOU DON'T LOVE ME!" he yelled at me. I closed my eyes, gasping for breath, but he didn't notice. Either that, or he didn't care. Meanwhile, Kellin was calling Alan, telling him to get to his house, asap. Finally, I passed out. I started breathing, but I fainted. I couldn't hear Austin's loud screaming anymore, nor could I hear Kellin's frantic voice talking to Alan over the phone. I was finally peaceful. When I finally woke up, I was back in the hospital. Everyone was there, Kellin sitting on one side of me like a watchdog and Austin on the other, not touching or looking at me. Justin was at the foot of my bed, quietly talking to Gabe and Tony was whispering to Jaime. Andy was in the corner of the room with Ashley, CC, and Jake. Alan was sitting next to Millie in a chair, holding her close. Oli and Bella were in the other corner, fingers intertwined. Vic and Mike were sitting next to each other next to Kellin. After I scanned the room, I looked down at my ring finger... it was gone. I sighed. Everyone's attention turned to me except Austin's. "Are you okay, Jezzy?" Kell asked me. "No." I said, and at that, Aus looked over at me, eyes filled with hatred. "The wedding is off, Jezabelle. It's over. We weren't working out. I'm sending all of your belongings to Kellin's house and Lily as well." And then he was gone. I started crying again. Hiccupping and gasping for breaths. Kellin grabbed my hand, and squeezed it tight. "Is this what it felt like when I left, love?" Kellin asked. "I didn't have an anxiety attack that time.." I said, squeezing Kellin's hand. Vic came up and kissed me on the cheek, hugging me. "I love you, bestfriend." he said, letting me go. "I love you too." I whispered, closing my eyes. I was exhausted, mentally and physically. I never wanted to move. As long as I had the guys with me, I was totally content. But the nurse came in all too soon to release me. I signed the papers and went home with Kellin. "Can we talk?" he asked as we sat down on the couch. "In the morning, I need sleep." I said, instantly falling asleep on the couch.
--Kell's POV--
I had to talk to her. I still loved her. I wanted her to know that. But she was exhausted, and I knew it. I let her be, laying down next to her and falling asleep as well.
--Jez's POV--
I woke up, knowing Kellin wanted to talk to me. "Jezzy, are you okay enough to talk about something important?" he asked me. I knew what it was, and I totally agreed. "I am." I said. "I still love you." he said in a rush. "I still love you too, but we need to take it slow, and not be official for a while." I said, leaning on his chest. "I agree." he said, kissing my forehead.

Notes

So, I know some of you might hate me now, and some might love me, but I felt we needed a big plot twist, just cause. Plus, I like it better when Aus and Jez aren't together. It just wasn't working. Yeah, it's really short sorry! Breakup outfit: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=125211428