Innocence is just a lie.

-Emily-

The signs glared at me, mirroring the hateful look on my face directed towards them, the mocking answers only making me worry more.
None of us had said a word since the results spoke up, bringing a wave of silence with them, laughing as it crashed the walls down- taking my voice.

Without another thought to it I walked out of the room, headed to the kitchen for a drink-non alcoholic of course- inaudibly praying.
I suppose I'll have to go to the doctors now.

He/ she will call my mom, then my mom will come back and tell me she's disowning me and it will all be because of stupid hormones.

Why did she leave me with Kellin any way? This is partially her fault,she left me in the hands of a man I'd never met before- granted she trusted the both of us but that is still no excuse.

My hand clasped the cool glass of water, bringing it to my lips slowly as thoughts continued to race through my mind; taking turns to bring me down.
Each thought like a bullet shooting through my skull.

Look at me, trying to blame everyone else instead of purely owning up to my stupid mistakes.

I am the most responsible, It's my body. I could have said no, but I didn't. I gave in to the temptation.
And for that I am guilty.

Footsteps padded down the stairs as I placed my now empty glass on the counter by the sink, my eyes gazing out the window at the setting sun.
Wishing I wasn't presented with this struggle, I mean I'm only in high school! For christs sake, I am basically a child! How can a child raise a child?
A failure. A whore. A stupid little girl.

"I'll arrange a doctors appointment for tomorrow." Kellin said, his voice breaking through the silence that had built over the short amount of time it had been left to grow.

I nodded in reply, the silence still holding my voice captive, letting my fears creep back into my mind.

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