Falling Asleep On A Stranger

Mike's P.O.V

I lay motionless on my bed, my feet hanging effortlessly over the end. Concentrating on the humming of the muffled soundings of 'Slip Me The Knot' eyeless. Needless to say, it was one of my favourite songs. A mix between Slipknot and Bring me the horizon can only leave destruction over a world wide area. It's brutally brilliant, take my advice on that. My eyes began to drift shut before my phone started violently vibrating on my chest symbolising that I'd received a text. As quickly as they'd shut, my eyes flung open, Grabbing my phone quickly.

Ava.

So if you love me, let me go.
And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care.
I can't destroy what isn't there
I'm so sorry, Mike.
I'll never be able to forgive myself for what I've done,
I just don't think this will ever work out.
I'm sorry.

My breathing hitched. However, I was not going to cry over a girl. Was I? But Ava wasn’t just a typical 'girl' she was my girl. The one who was meant for me, I'm not going to let something so good go so easily. I needed her. My body bolted upright, my back was as straight as a lamppost; my knees set apart, before resting my elbows on my thighs allowing my hands to cradle my head in disbelief. Momentarily allowing myself to think; I knew what had to be said, I couldn't keep them in any more.

To: Ava
When I see your smile.
Tears roll down my face I can't replace.
And now that I'm strong I have figured out.
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one.
I understand just tell me why?
Is it me? Or is it someone else?
Tony?
Vic?
Jaime? Or don't I know him?
Please, I just need a reason why,
I'll promise I'll leave if that’s what you want.
I'd do anything to make you happy.
Even if it meant hurting myself, as long as your happy,
that’s all I'd need.

Send.

I knew from that second I pressed that centre button, I'd lost her, I'd lost her forever. She was gone. And, I was the only one affected by it. The precious pearls that rarely appeared, brimmed from my eyes, sparkling like jewels on a crystallised crown. One by one, single tears cascading down my cheeks, leaving pools of moisture on my lap.

The only feeling remaining seemed to evaporate from my body within seconds. Limited words fitted or could describe how I was feeling right now. I question myself to why I fell so hard, why I treated her like shit, I'm a failure, I don’t deserve her. I loved her.

Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change

From; Ava
I love you., Tony, I can't keep it hidden any more, I always have done and always will do. It's killing me not to hold you right now.

My heart was left on the floor, it had been eating, stood on then washed away, in the matter of a split second. Life has fucked up ways of throwing something in front of you that you never expected. That single text had successfully managed to burn my flesh to the floor, leaving myself exposed to pain.

To: Ava
Please, just make sure you're happy because I am not being your rebound. I love you, but you know that don't you?

Pain. Pain is all I felt, a pain I was so unfamiliar with. An unbreakable force.

Heart-break.

Notes

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