After I got my act together I started packing. I aimed to take as long as possible so I didn’t have to go back downstairs. I went through all my drawers and just threw all my belongings in the suitcase. Shirts, shorts, sweaters, pants and even some dresses were tossed in. I grabbed a few pairs of shoes. I put other necessities with the clothes. I felt exhaustion sweep over me when I laid down next to my suitcase. The guys were probably wondering where I was but I couldn’t find the energy to sit back up let alone walk down the stairs. Instead my mind was lost in thoughts. Not good thoughts either. The ones that tell me how worthless I am. I squeezed my eyes shut trying to make my mind stop and just be peaceful but it was useless. It never hinders.
This going to be so much fun hiding these feelings from my brother. My bracelets started itching so I pulled them off trying to ignore the stinging it caused on my wrists. I grabbed my sweatshirt that was on the floor and pulled it over my head. I can’t risk having one of them walk in while my wrists were exposed. I fell back onto the pillow while a sigh escaped my lips. My eyes shut into a world of darkness. I tried thinking of a happy memory. Something that would make a smile form on my lips. I found the memory. It was when Austin and the band got signed. It was the first time in a long that he smiled the smile I loved. They had a few downfalls and bad times but they are now strong. My memory was interrupted by my phone beeping. I swear to god if this is Austin texting me instead of walking up the flipping stairs I will be annoyed. I picked up my phone and opened the message from a random number.
You better watch your back babe cause I’m coming back for you ;)
My phone slipped from my fingers. It couldn’t be it was just someone playing a trick. It’s just a trick; a joke. It’s not true. His face flashed through my mind. His smile he wore right before he drugged me. His laughing was all I could hear. I put my hands over my ears trying to block out the horror in my mind. My eyes were squeezed shut. This is not happening. This can’t be happening. Another text lit up my phone.
I see you right now freaking out it fills me with pleasure.
My head shot up. He’s here. I looked out the window trying to squint threw the darkness. Thunder boomed in the distance. When the lightning struck I saw him standing outside in the rain. I screamed. Please don’t be there. In this moment I wished I was going crazy. I wrapped my arms around my legs and wished I could disappear.
I heard my door swing open. “Aribear what happened?”
I ignored the question and just stared at my phone. Someone’s finger slipped under my chin gently forcing me to face whoever it was. Alan. “Tell me what happened.”
My eyes met his then flickered to my phone. “Austin look at her phone.” Alan understood.
“That bastard!” Austin screamed. It made me jump slightly.
“He was just outside.” My voice was shaking. My whole body was shaking.
Austin swore. “Tino come with me.”
Austin was fuming when they both left. Aaron and Phil followed behind them murmuring. Alan pulled me towards him tightening his arms around me. “I’m scared.”
“Don’t be we are leaving tomorrow and we…I won’t let him near you again.” His lips brushed my forehead. I felt safe. I looked up at him and when I did he wiped away the tears on my cheeks. He opened his mouth to say something but then closed it again.
“Alan!” Someone called from downstairs. I frowned when he looked away but quickly masked any emotion. “Ari!”
Whoever was calling up the stairs sounded frightened. I leaped of the bed peeking back to Alan he was right behind me. When I hesitated to walk to the stairs Alan took my hand and squeezed it reassuringly. The storm outside was becoming more intense. I really do hate thunderstorms. We hurried down the stars to wear all the commotion was. The lights flickered when we stepped into the living room. I didn’t figure out what was going on for a moment. I noticed three boys gathered around the couch freaking out about the phone and cells not working. I noticed that Tino was soaked head to toe. Aaron had wide eyes trying to type something into the phone. Then there was Phil who was pacing back and forth holding his hand over his mouth. I had no clue what was happening. That’s when I realized that Austin was on the couch dipping wet. I let go of Alan’s hand and darted toward the couch. That’s when I grasped the horrid fact that he was bleeding. “Aribear.” He half whispered. His eyes were open slightly.
“Call an ambulance!” I heard Alan shout.
“We tried nothing is working.” Aaron said in a low saddened voice.
“Austin.” I lifted his hand in mine. “I can’t lose you; please don’t leave me.”
I leaned my head on his chest lightly. I stifled back a cry. The whole room was eerily quiet, no one spoke but I felt all the eyes on Austin and me. I felt angry because I knew how this happened it was him he stabbed my brother in the stomach and now my brother was going to die. This was my entire fault. If I didn’t say that he texted me and was outside this wouldn’t have happened. The guys weren’t doing anything they were just letting him die. I felt his heart beat growing slower and slower. Then it just stopped; his heart stopped my brother wasn’t breathing. He wasn’t alive anymore. I cried harder and hugged him tightly pleading for him to wake up. Laughter filled the silent room as the lights shut off…
“Ariannnnnaaaaaa.” I felt someone shaking my body. My eyes shot open when I sat up straight trying to even my breathing. “You okay?” My gaze fell on my brother’s concerned one.
I attacked him with a hug. It was only a dream. It was only a dream. I tightened my grip around his neck. A huge smile was on my lips. If that dream was true I have no clue how I would have been able to hold on any longer. He is the only light in my life just seeing him makes even the worst day a bit better. The only other person who makes me feel just as happy to see is Alan. Don’t get me wrong I love the other guys so much and they do make me smile but there’s something about Alan. But he would never like me. He thinks of me as a sister, which would just be weird for him.
I pulled away from Austin. “I’m sorry I just had a bad dream.”
“You want to talk about it?” His head leaned to the side slightly clearly showing he was ready to listen.
“No it’s fine. It was just a dream it could never happen.” I forced a smile; he seemed to believe it.
“Aribear, you barely ever talk to me anymore ever since that day…” He frowned; I know it hurts him that I won’t open up but I just couldn’t.
“There’s nothing to talk about Austin.” I said sharply.
“I see.” He looked away. His thinking face appeared. “Anyway we were going to watch a movie do you want to come watch?”
I nodded smiling slightly. “Yes I will watch it with you annoying guys.”
He chuckled. “You’re just as annoying sis.”
I laughed slightly but my mind reeled with unhappy thoughts. When we got to the living room the smell of popcorn reached my nose making my stomach growl in hunger. I took a hand full in my hand before stuffing it in my face.
“And I wonder how you don’t have a boyfriend.” Austin shook his head laughing.
“That’s rude.” I said but it came out muffled since my mouth was full.
Alan, Aaron and Austin were on the couch and Phil and Tino were in both of the chairs. So instead of sitting on the floor I laid down on top of the three guys on the couch and rested my head on the arm of the sofa. “Really?” I looked up to Alan who was smirking.
“Yup this couch is very comfy and this is my house.” I smiled back.
Aaron pushed on my hip and I squeezed my eyes in pain. All the guys gave me a questioning look. “I have a bruise. I walked into a table; Austin you know how clumsy I am.”
All the guys seemed to buy it until I looked at Alan he was looking at my hip then looked back at me and I only shrugged before turning my gaze to the TV screen.

Notes

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