Come Waste Away With Me
Merch Girl
My name is Ariana Carlile. Yes my brother is Austin Carlile the lead singer of the band Of Mice and Men. I have brown hair and brown eyes just like him. I’ve got a few tattoos over the past few years with the help of my brother. Oh yea I’m also a messed up person with the burden of depression, anxiety, and bi-polar disorder. I’m pretty sure I have a few other things wrong with me but those are just the things I got medication for from the doctors. My brother made me stop all sports at a young age after my mother passed away because he didn’t want anything to happen to me. My mom died eight years ago when I was ten. I am now eighteen and being forced to go on tour with my older brother. This is my story it starts when I was just seventeen:
My vision was blurry; I blinked trying to clear it. My cheeks were stained with tears. At first I didn’t realize why I was crying. My whole body hurt and it felt heavy. My head felt groggy. I went to rub my eyes with my hand when bruises on my arm caught my eye. I squinted trying to see more clearly. The bruise was in the shape of a hand. My breath wedged in my throat when I saw my naked body laying on my bed. The memory flooded my vision. He raped me. I was raped. A sob escaped my lips. He was gone, he left me here naked and disgusted with myself. I had the one thing I had left taken away from me. I had no idea what to do. My father was away for work and wouldn’t be back for days. I wrapped my body in a blanket. I reached for my phone. I called the only person that I could think of.
“Ari! I haven’t talked to you in awhile.” My brother’s voice came through the phone.
I didn’t answer. “Ari, what’s wrong?”
A sob broke out. “I-I got raped.” I all came out in a big blob.
“I’m coming home I will be there in twenty minutes.” He hung up I knew he was pissed off he was probably sickened by the thought of his sister getting raped. He probably thinks I was asking for it. As usual my mind wouldn’t stop with the nagging of everyone hating me.
Twenty minutes passed and Austin ran into my room with his band mate Alan on his heels. I immediately felt embarrassed. I was curled up underneath the covers completely naked. They both glanced at each other wearing angry faces. “I need to bring you to the hospital.” He told Alan to wait outside. He went over to my dresser and pulled out clothes. “Get dressed.”
“Austin please don’t be mad at me.” I choked out.
He rushed over to me grabbing my hands in his. “Ari I could never be mad at you. I’m going to kill the person who did this to you.”
“You aren’t disgusted with me?” His face softened.
“This is not your fault okay? Don’t ever think this is your fault. I could never be disgusted in you! I love you; you are my sister and this bastard is going to pay for this. Who was it?” I looked away from him. “Tell me.”
“Mason.” I whispered.
Austin swore under his breath. “I told you to stay away from him.”
“He was the only person who would pay attention to me! You left! Dad is barely ever here! I had no one Austin. He acted like he cared I thought he cared.” My head fell to my hands.
“Get dressed. I will be waiting outside.” He voice sounded hurt but I couldn’t look at him. I knew what he was doing now probably blaming himself for what happened.
I reached across my bed to grab the clothes Austin got for me. I pulled them on without paying much attention to what they were. When I stood up I got insanely dizzy. I stumbled my way to my door. My body was so sore it hurt to move. I walked to the front door. I pulled on my vans. I caught a glance of my face in the small mirror by the door. There was a black eye on my pale skin. I shivered. I threw on a sweatshirt and walked outside with my head down. I didn’t want them to see me like this.
I went up to Austin and hugged him. “I’m sorry; I didn’t mean what I said I know you will always be there for me no matter what.”
That day was very eventful and tiring. The police asked a million questions. They took pictures of the bruises on my body but still somehow Mason never got caught. Oh right I also became even more of a laughing stock at my school.
**
Oh I am now eighteen. My birthday was a few months ago not very exciting. School the place I dreaded most it was finally almost over today was the last day for me anyway because I am not attending graduation. I played with my bracelets as I walked down the hallway to my last class of the day. Comments swirling around the hallway directed towards me. Not so very nice words that I won’t repeat. As I approached the door to my classroom my phone vibrated. GINGER ALAN ;) appeared on the screen. I pressed the answer button.
“I can’t talk right now I’m in school.”
“Oh boo. I forgot about that. Um call me when you get out of that hell hole.” He sighed.
“Will do.” I laughed slightly. “Bye!”
I hung up and slipped into class just as the bell rang. It was extremely hot today and it was humid. I don’t understand why I even try to look presentable for the day. Everyone always picks out flaw after flaw. Everyone else has to come to school for the rest of the week for finals but not me. I’m not taking them this year. Thank god I can get away from all these people. I took out The Fault in Our Stars and continued to read it. Then I realized that it might not be the best idea to read this book in school so I closed it. I took out my phone and texted my brother.
Save me pleaseeeee!- Aribear:P
Wait for it…-Austin:)
“Mr. Bates?” The loud speaker broke through the silence of the classroom.
“Yes?” My teacher asked.
“Can you send Ariana Carlile to the main office for dismissal?” The voice asked.
“Of course.” I stood up grabbed my things and walked to the door. “Have a good life Ms. Carlile.” Mr. Bates said with a smile.
“Goodbye!” I trudged down the hallway towards the main office would be on the other side of the school. A few of the preppy girls laughed as they walked past me saying things I couldn’t hear. “Excuse me what was that?”
“Oh I was just saying how you are an ugly whore.” She grinned.
My eyes narrowed. “That’s funny coming from the girl who has slept with half the guys in this school.”
“At least my family doesn’t worship the devil.” She commented back.
“Excuse me?”
“You know my brother was right for making fun of your brother in school all those years ago if only he killed himself after your mother died.”
I pushed her against the locker. “Don’t you talk about my brother or mother ever again or I will kill you.”
She just smiled. “It’s a shame they gave you and your brother surgery on your hearts now the world can’t be a better place with you two still alive. If only you two died then it would just be perfect.”
“Shut up!” I yelled. “You can say what you want about me but not my brother!”
“Oh look girls we found a touchy subject.” A smirk played at her lips.
“Stop.” But they didn’t they kept making comments. Anger boiled up inside me.
I lost it. I smacked her right across the face. “You bitch.” She hissed.
I turned away. “That’s right, go run to your brother you slut.”
I turned back around and faced her. “You really are asking for it.”
“Oh am I? You’re a worthless slut who should just die.” This time my fist hit her face. No way was this going to be a girl fight. She stumbled backwards.
“I hope you have enough makeup to cover that up.” I smiled it felt good to hit her.
“You’re going to pay for that!” She shrieked.
“Oh I’m sorry did I ruin your nose job?”
“You emo bitch!” She screamed. She slammed me up against the locker.
“Is that all you got?” I laughed.
“Ari!” I heard someone yell when I pushed her away. I hit her face again. “Ariana!”
I stumbled backward. I couldn’t help myself from hitting her I felt so angry. I glanced in the direction of the voice. “Alan.” I raced to him and wrapped my arms around him. My breathing slowed down and I calmed down.
“What happened?” His arms tightened around me.
Before I got the chance to answer a high pitched voice broke into our conversation. “Hi I’m Kylie.” She waltzed over to us. “Who are you?”
“Not interested.” He said bluntly.
“Did you not see what she did to me? She’s insane!” She whined.
“She probably had a good reason for punching you.” Alan chuckled. “Come on lets go your brother is waiting.”
Kylie stormed away to the bathroom the two other girls following behind her. “God I hate her.”
“Why?” I pulled away from him and continued down the hallway.
“She’s not nice. I got sick of her comments.” I mumbled.
“Are you okay?” When am I ever ok?
“Yea I’m fine.” I smiled up at him. We turned around the corner and my brother was standing there with his back to me. I ran and jumped on his back.
“Ms. Carlile that is not proper school behavior.” The secretary annoyingly said.
“It’s alright she just missed her big brother.” Austin laughed.
“Austin go before they make me stay!” We ducked out the front door and raced to the car. I jumped into the front seat of my car. “I guess I’m driving on my own! We are going home right?”
“That’s where the rest of the guys are.” Austin laughed.
“What?! The rest of the guys are here?” I closed my car door and started my car. I left Austin and Alan standing in the dust.
Once I pulled in the driveway I shut of my car and raced inside. “Tino? Aaron? Phil?” I frowned, no one answered. I walked through my house looking for them but they weren’t here. When I didn’t find them I went to my room. I dropped my bag on the floor before searching for comfier clothes to wear.
Austin walked into my room. “Alan told me what happened.”
“It’s nothing I promise.” I smiled. “Schools over I won’t see them again.”
“That’s a good attitude about it!” I usually tell Austin everything but he doesn’t know what has happened the past year. He can’t know.
“You lied to me! The guys aren’t here!” I punched his arm.
“Are you sure about that?” He winked. “Go look again.”
“What are you talking about?” I stood up and walked to the top of the stairs.
Four boys were standing at the bottom of them holding a sign. Come to Warped Tour with us please!!
My mouth hung open. I nodded yes before I had the chance to even think it through. “We have our new merch girl!”
They all yelled excitedly like guys do. “What are you waiting for? Go pack.” Phil smiled.
I was going to Warped Tour. I should be more excited but I wasn’t. When I got to my room I broke down in tears. How was I supposed to hide everything from my brother?
My vision was blurry; I blinked trying to clear it. My cheeks were stained with tears. At first I didn’t realize why I was crying. My whole body hurt and it felt heavy. My head felt groggy. I went to rub my eyes with my hand when bruises on my arm caught my eye. I squinted trying to see more clearly. The bruise was in the shape of a hand. My breath wedged in my throat when I saw my naked body laying on my bed. The memory flooded my vision. He raped me. I was raped. A sob escaped my lips. He was gone, he left me here naked and disgusted with myself. I had the one thing I had left taken away from me. I had no idea what to do. My father was away for work and wouldn’t be back for days. I wrapped my body in a blanket. I reached for my phone. I called the only person that I could think of.
“Ari! I haven’t talked to you in awhile.” My brother’s voice came through the phone.
I didn’t answer. “Ari, what’s wrong?”
A sob broke out. “I-I got raped.” I all came out in a big blob.
“I’m coming home I will be there in twenty minutes.” He hung up I knew he was pissed off he was probably sickened by the thought of his sister getting raped. He probably thinks I was asking for it. As usual my mind wouldn’t stop with the nagging of everyone hating me.
Twenty minutes passed and Austin ran into my room with his band mate Alan on his heels. I immediately felt embarrassed. I was curled up underneath the covers completely naked. They both glanced at each other wearing angry faces. “I need to bring you to the hospital.” He told Alan to wait outside. He went over to my dresser and pulled out clothes. “Get dressed.”
“Austin please don’t be mad at me.” I choked out.
He rushed over to me grabbing my hands in his. “Ari I could never be mad at you. I’m going to kill the person who did this to you.”
“You aren’t disgusted with me?” His face softened.
“This is not your fault okay? Don’t ever think this is your fault. I could never be disgusted in you! I love you; you are my sister and this bastard is going to pay for this. Who was it?” I looked away from him. “Tell me.”
“Mason.” I whispered.
Austin swore under his breath. “I told you to stay away from him.”
“He was the only person who would pay attention to me! You left! Dad is barely ever here! I had no one Austin. He acted like he cared I thought he cared.” My head fell to my hands.
“Get dressed. I will be waiting outside.” He voice sounded hurt but I couldn’t look at him. I knew what he was doing now probably blaming himself for what happened.
I reached across my bed to grab the clothes Austin got for me. I pulled them on without paying much attention to what they were. When I stood up I got insanely dizzy. I stumbled my way to my door. My body was so sore it hurt to move. I walked to the front door. I pulled on my vans. I caught a glance of my face in the small mirror by the door. There was a black eye on my pale skin. I shivered. I threw on a sweatshirt and walked outside with my head down. I didn’t want them to see me like this.
I went up to Austin and hugged him. “I’m sorry; I didn’t mean what I said I know you will always be there for me no matter what.”
That day was very eventful and tiring. The police asked a million questions. They took pictures of the bruises on my body but still somehow Mason never got caught. Oh right I also became even more of a laughing stock at my school.
**
Oh I am now eighteen. My birthday was a few months ago not very exciting. School the place I dreaded most it was finally almost over today was the last day for me anyway because I am not attending graduation. I played with my bracelets as I walked down the hallway to my last class of the day. Comments swirling around the hallway directed towards me. Not so very nice words that I won’t repeat. As I approached the door to my classroom my phone vibrated. GINGER ALAN ;) appeared on the screen. I pressed the answer button.
“I can’t talk right now I’m in school.”
“Oh boo. I forgot about that. Um call me when you get out of that hell hole.” He sighed.
“Will do.” I laughed slightly. “Bye!”
I hung up and slipped into class just as the bell rang. It was extremely hot today and it was humid. I don’t understand why I even try to look presentable for the day. Everyone always picks out flaw after flaw. Everyone else has to come to school for the rest of the week for finals but not me. I’m not taking them this year. Thank god I can get away from all these people. I took out The Fault in Our Stars and continued to read it. Then I realized that it might not be the best idea to read this book in school so I closed it. I took out my phone and texted my brother.
Save me pleaseeeee!- Aribear:P
Wait for it…-Austin:)
“Mr. Bates?” The loud speaker broke through the silence of the classroom.
“Yes?” My teacher asked.
“Can you send Ariana Carlile to the main office for dismissal?” The voice asked.
“Of course.” I stood up grabbed my things and walked to the door. “Have a good life Ms. Carlile.” Mr. Bates said with a smile.
“Goodbye!” I trudged down the hallway towards the main office would be on the other side of the school. A few of the preppy girls laughed as they walked past me saying things I couldn’t hear. “Excuse me what was that?”
“Oh I was just saying how you are an ugly whore.” She grinned.
My eyes narrowed. “That’s funny coming from the girl who has slept with half the guys in this school.”
“At least my family doesn’t worship the devil.” She commented back.
“Excuse me?”
“You know my brother was right for making fun of your brother in school all those years ago if only he killed himself after your mother died.”
I pushed her against the locker. “Don’t you talk about my brother or mother ever again or I will kill you.”
She just smiled. “It’s a shame they gave you and your brother surgery on your hearts now the world can’t be a better place with you two still alive. If only you two died then it would just be perfect.”
“Shut up!” I yelled. “You can say what you want about me but not my brother!”
“Oh look girls we found a touchy subject.” A smirk played at her lips.
“Stop.” But they didn’t they kept making comments. Anger boiled up inside me.
I lost it. I smacked her right across the face. “You bitch.” She hissed.
I turned away. “That’s right, go run to your brother you slut.”
I turned back around and faced her. “You really are asking for it.”
“Oh am I? You’re a worthless slut who should just die.” This time my fist hit her face. No way was this going to be a girl fight. She stumbled backwards.
“I hope you have enough makeup to cover that up.” I smiled it felt good to hit her.
“You’re going to pay for that!” She shrieked.
“Oh I’m sorry did I ruin your nose job?”
“You emo bitch!” She screamed. She slammed me up against the locker.
“Is that all you got?” I laughed.
“Ari!” I heard someone yell when I pushed her away. I hit her face again. “Ariana!”
I stumbled backward. I couldn’t help myself from hitting her I felt so angry. I glanced in the direction of the voice. “Alan.” I raced to him and wrapped my arms around him. My breathing slowed down and I calmed down.
“What happened?” His arms tightened around me.
Before I got the chance to answer a high pitched voice broke into our conversation. “Hi I’m Kylie.” She waltzed over to us. “Who are you?”
“Not interested.” He said bluntly.
“Did you not see what she did to me? She’s insane!” She whined.
“She probably had a good reason for punching you.” Alan chuckled. “Come on lets go your brother is waiting.”
Kylie stormed away to the bathroom the two other girls following behind her. “God I hate her.”
“Why?” I pulled away from him and continued down the hallway.
“She’s not nice. I got sick of her comments.” I mumbled.
“Are you okay?” When am I ever ok?
“Yea I’m fine.” I smiled up at him. We turned around the corner and my brother was standing there with his back to me. I ran and jumped on his back.
“Ms. Carlile that is not proper school behavior.” The secretary annoyingly said.
“It’s alright she just missed her big brother.” Austin laughed.
“Austin go before they make me stay!” We ducked out the front door and raced to the car. I jumped into the front seat of my car. “I guess I’m driving on my own! We are going home right?”
“That’s where the rest of the guys are.” Austin laughed.
“What?! The rest of the guys are here?” I closed my car door and started my car. I left Austin and Alan standing in the dust.
Once I pulled in the driveway I shut of my car and raced inside. “Tino? Aaron? Phil?” I frowned, no one answered. I walked through my house looking for them but they weren’t here. When I didn’t find them I went to my room. I dropped my bag on the floor before searching for comfier clothes to wear.
Austin walked into my room. “Alan told me what happened.”
“It’s nothing I promise.” I smiled. “Schools over I won’t see them again.”
“That’s a good attitude about it!” I usually tell Austin everything but he doesn’t know what has happened the past year. He can’t know.
“You lied to me! The guys aren’t here!” I punched his arm.
“Are you sure about that?” He winked. “Go look again.”
“What are you talking about?” I stood up and walked to the top of the stairs.
Four boys were standing at the bottom of them holding a sign. Come to Warped Tour with us please!!
My mouth hung open. I nodded yes before I had the chance to even think it through. “We have our new merch girl!”
They all yelled excitedly like guys do. “What are you waiting for? Go pack.” Phil smiled.
I was going to Warped Tour. I should be more excited but I wasn’t. When I got to my room I broke down in tears. How was I supposed to hide everything from my brother?
Can you just like update 10 chapters at once or is that asking too much? :')
11/24/14