Come Waste Away With Me

I stared out the window trying not to think about who I will see when I step out of this cab. The tears have stopped flowing making my eyes burn. I wonder if this cab driver knows. He hasn’t said a word to me. Most cab drivers would at least say hello or try to start a conversation but he didn’t. Maybe I didn’t look very approachable. I turned the camera view to look at me and I didn’t like what I saw. My eyes were so puffy there was no use in hiding it; they were also bloodshot. It looked like I smoked weed all morning. My eyes no longer shinned; they were now dull. I couldn’t even force a smile if I tried.
Mason is going to have a ball with me because I couldn’t even fight him if I had to. Honestly I feel myself giving up and I haven’t even arrived yet. Before I could even stop myself I had twitter open on my phone. I scrolled down seeing if anyone even noticed my absence yet beside Alex and Austin.
Two posts from Austin caught my attention.
Five minutes ago
Austin Carlile @austincarlile I’m so sorry for canceling the show today…my day just turned to shit and I can’t perform…I’m sorry I hate letting you guys down.
Ten minutes ago
Austin Carlile @austincarlile Just promise me you will be safe.
He canceled their show? I told him not to stop performing. I needed to go back he needed me and I needed him. I will tell him about Mason and Austin will know what to do. “Excuse me I need to go back.”
“I’m sorry miss but this is a one way trip the guy paid me double.” He didn’t seem very sorry.
My eyes narrowed. “Listen here, I will pay you triple if money is what you want. I. Need. To. Go. Back.”
“No can do. You see Mason’s father is my good friend; I can’t turn around.” He rolled his eyes and continued forward.
“I will jump out of this car.”
“No you won’t.” The sad part was I knew he was telling the truth. I don’t have the guts to jump out of a moving vehicle. I looked out the window once again. I should have known he would have gotten someone he knew to get me.
“Are you really a taxi driver? I never expected Mason’s father to be friends with one. Sorry oh wait no I’m not. He probably just uses you for things like this.” I crossed my arms and his knuckles turned white clutching the steering wheel.
“That’s not true. You might want to learn to keep your mouth shut.” He chuckled relaxing.
“Oh I have plenty more to say.”
“Learn to keep your mouth shut. Mason does not like it; just take the advice or you will regret.” He sighed and I became silent. What did he mean by that? I guess I have an idea since he threatened my brother. I am so scared. I haven’t talked or seen him since the day he raped me. I pulled my knees to my chest and rested my chin on them. I have been doing that a lot lately; it make me feel secure for at least a moment.

*Flashback*
I ran down the stairs today was the day my brother came back from tour. I was so excited I missed him so much. I decided to dress up a bit because knowing him he will probably take me out for dinner. Dad was away on another trip anyway. I looked at myself in the hall mirror a real smile on my lips. Bracelets were stacked on my wrists to try to hide the recent damage I caused myself. I wore a basic black cropped tee-shirt with a floral skirt. I of course I had my mother’s necklace fastened around my neck. I was also wearing my new black flats.
I sat trying to be patient for the front door to open. I heard the key in the lock. I jumped up trying to look busy with something.
“Ari!? You in here?” Alan? Alan was here? He walked into the living room wearing a huge smile but he looked tired. “You’re brother went to go pick something up. He told me to come get you.”
“Alan!” I wrapped my arms around his waist and he pulled me into a tight hug.
“How is my girl?” His girl; my heart filled with butterflies. Oh stop he doesn’t like you I had to remind myself.
“Happy now.” I grinned. “How about my ginger?” I ruffled his hair making him glare.
“Fine until you did that.” I pouted. “No I’m ecstatic really; I missed you!”
“I missed you too.” I blushed while I turned away so he wouldn’t see. “And you look nice.” He whispered.
“Oh this is nothing.”
“You are usually wearing jeans or sweats.” He had a valid point. “But I’m not complaining, I like the view.”
“Are you trying to say I don’t look good all the time?” I stuck my tongue out at him and he did the same to me.
“Stop flirting with my sister! Hi Ari.” Austin came walking in with a bouquet of flowers in one hand and a present in the other.
“Aussie you didn’t have to do that.” I said as he handed me the wrapped gift.
“Oh but I did.” I ripped it opened revealing a box. I sighed as I tried opening the box. I opened it and gasped.
There was a small stuff animal of a giraffe with big purple eyes and it was completely adorable. He always bought me stuff animals it was his tradition. There were three shirts. One was Star Wars; we both are huge Star War fans. The second was a ripped up light sea green sweater with a cartoon deer on the front. And the third was a flannel from Hollister. There was a pair of shorts that had some Marvel heroes on the front of them; they were really cute. Two boxes caught my eye. I opened the smaller one first that had silver bow earrings and the other box had a beautiful bracelet. I stared at them in awe.
“Austin, I didn’t get you anything.”
“No worries. I didn’t expect you too.” I smiled but then remembered something.
“I do have something for you! I’ll be right back.” I raced up the stairs to my bedroom. I picked up the painting I had just finished in Art. It was of Austin and I. I was very proud of it. Even the people who hated me were in awe when I was finished. I guess that means something. It was the picture I think Alan took of us when Austin was holding a picture of my mom. She is a part of this painting too. I walked slowly down the stairs. I wanted to give it to Austin but I was worried it wasn’t good enough.
“I did it in art class. It took me forever; I went after school almost every day.”
“Well let me see.” He smiled while folding his hands being patient. I showed them watching his face closely. His eyes widened but then a huge smile formed on his face. “Ari that is amazing! I had no idea you were this good at painting!” He took the painting out of my hands.
“It’s not that good.” I shook my head.
“Are you kidding? This is the most amazing thing I have ever seen. The way you captured the detail in the picture of mom; it looks just like the photograph. Are you sure you didn’t just put the picture on the painting?”
“No I painted it.” I said smiling.
“I can’t get over how amazing this is. Thank you.” He set the painting gently on the table and came over to hug me tightly. “Now let’s go out the guys are waiting!”
“Okay, Aussie.” I skipped out the door smiling.
*Flashback over*

“We are almost there.” The driver spoke up from the front. I nodded but kept silent. I really don’t know why I remembered that day. I remember giving him that painting and watching his eyes light up in awe. It was hanging up in their bus but I just passed by it every day and now I wish I looked at it more closely before I left. I wore a permanent frown that I knew Mason would not be happy about. But what does he expect from me? To be happy after he threatened my loved ones and ripped my away from my family. No he has another thing coming because I will not even give him the satisfaction a pretending to be happy. I don’t care what he does to me. The cab began to slow down and pull to the curb. I sucked in a breath closing my eyes. I could run if I wanted to and leave my belongings behind. It’s just clothing anyway.
My heart stopped beating when I saw his face; he was shaking hands with the driver while wearing a wicked grin. He was handed my suitcase before the driver opened my door. I stepped out keeping my head held high not showing any emotion.
“Ariana, it is great to see you again.” He motioned me forward but I looked over my shoulder still debating on running. “Oh no you don’t.” He took hold of my wrist and yanked me forward to follow him down the sidewalk. We came to a complete stop in front of a nice looking home. Well more like mansion. “Welcome home.”
I sneered. “Home.”
“You might want to get used to it Ari.” He spat.
“I don’t think I will get used to being forced to leave my family.” I classified my brother’s whole band as my family.
“Ari.” He warned.
“Mason.” I crossed my arms before being dragged into hell.

Notes

Ari's outfit in the flashback- http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=118700582

This is the end.... no jk what would you have done if i ended it there? i would've been mad at myself honestly ahah

i am going to disney on friday so this is my last chapter for a little while but i will update as soon as possible :)

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