So day two. And honestly, Ronnie isn't make it easy for me to like him. He felt the need to randomly tell me that he and Oli kissed and acted like I gave a fuck. I was trying to be nice so I told him that was nice and proceeded on to tell him Austin and I fucked, his reaction was a little confusing and really just didn't make much sense at all since he laughed. And then I told him I wouldn't be a laughing stock to anybody, especially him so he can get fucked. He replied with something that he must've thought was witty or funny and said "Oli has my V-card." V-CARD? LIKE ARE YOU FOR REAL HERE? I really don't know what the fuck he was trying to do by telling me this. I mean.. It's not like I'd be jealous. Honestly. Ew.

Fucking idiot.

I didn't see Austin today. Which is a little sad, I suppose. I did consider going to his room cause I know how he hates to be alone but, I don't want to get attached. If I get attached then I'll fall in love with him and with how assy I can be.. I don't want to hurt him. He's much too precious and delicate or that. But then again, what if I already am attached? I didn't even stop thinking about him today, or last night. I hope he's okay, though. And I think I'm going to go and see him tomorrow. Maybe I'm just hoping he'll knock on my door. I like needy guys.

I also get the feeling that these entires are going to turn into a teenage girls diary. (don't worry, I won't start scribbling "I love aus10" all over the pages. I'm not that creepy.) or a journal thing where I literally just bitch about Ronnie and how much I hate the human race.

I haven't yet spoken to any of the girls.haven't even learned their names yet. Maybe I'll speak to Oli, Ben and Danny in a few days. I just need to remember - I'm here to get better. Not to make friends.

Let's see how that goes shall we, Alan?

Ha.

Whatever, I'm going to sleep cause I've been staring at these blank walls all day and they're beginning to make me feel weird. (or at least attempt to sleep.)