Forgive Me- Part 1

Jaime's POV

I'm starting to get anxious about seeing Amelia. I mean she probably hates me. I would. I lied to her, let her believe I was someone I'm not as well as having sex with her while she has a boyfriend which I know is probably tearing her apart. She hates hurting people and I know that what we did will hurt Isaac but will she even tell him? Telling him would hurt him, but lying would hurt her. She's lying. She would rather hurt herself over and over than hurt someone else once. I wonder if she will keep her promise. God I hope so, I do not want her to start cutting again, she's too beautiful and kind to do that to herself. I haven't gotten any phone calls but would she even call? I know she promised she would if she wanted to cut but that was before all of this happened. Would she still keep her promise?

I drop my head into my hands while my leg bounces. I don't know if I can do this. I don't think I would be able to stand seeing her mad at me, knowing that I've hurt her so much. God I'm a horrible person! Why didn't I just say something from the start? Amelia is the kindest person I've ever met, I'm sure she wouldn't have treated me differently. Why? Why do I always have to screw things up!

"Dude what's up?" Mike asked as he came to sit by me.

"If freaking out..."

"Yea I can see that. Is it about that Amelia chick?" I nodded. "You know Tony isn't going to let you within a mile of her right?"

"I know but she needs me"

"Dude you only spent three days with her, I'm sure she'll survive."

"I'm not so sure"

"Why do you say that?"

"I got a call from her best friend... She's not doing so well and her friend wants me to see her because she thinks it will help"

"So what are you going to do?"

"I'm going to go see her" I sighed

"How? Tony is not going to take his eyes off you"

"I know." I let my head fall to the table in front of me. I feel Mike pat my shoulder and sigh.

"I might be able to help you"

"How?"

"I dunno, I'm sure we can think of a way to distract him for long enough for you to sneak off" I look up at him thankfully. "Don't even; I'm just sick of seeing you moping around." He stood up and smiled slightly at me before walking off; leaving me to my own devices.

With nothing else to do I decide to go on twitter and maybe reply to some of the fans messages. I scroll through for a while and retweet one or two fan posts before I stumble upon a heap of comments about Alex's new girlfriend. What? Alex has a girlfriend? Since when? I go to his page to check out what caused all the commotion. Then I see her, @MillyMaw. No fucking way. I read over their conversation and I can feel my blood begin to boil. He wouldn't... She wouldn't! There is no way! 'You know you love me', 'you wish honey'. Every word they said another stab of jealousy flows through me. They're fucking flirting?

I decide to go to her page to find that she already has thousands of followers. Is this just because of Alex? I go through the few people she follows and find that there is only Alex, Rian, Zack, Jack, All Time Low and Tony. She followed Tony but not me. I notice that Tony was following her as well and conclude that that would also greatly contribute to her followers. I clicked follow before closing the app. I can't believe she's talking to Tony and Alex. Jealousy rises again at the thought and I long to go to All Time Low's bus to drill him about her. I just want to know if she's okay, if she misses me...

Just three more days; three more days until I can see her, say I'm sorry and beg for her to forgive me. I need her too much to just let it end with her last words to me being 'screw you'. I can't handle those being the last words. I can hold out for three more days; I hope.

Notes

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