i have missed you

anna’s pov



for the next couple of days, i have been thinking about of what the doctor had said to me. as i sat down and got some things out that i have bought for mum and myself and putting on the table. as i sat down i was thinking, i believed that my mother wanted to do what she wanted to do and go her way and not their way.

my thoughts got snapped when i heard a voice “ hey love” ricky said to me as he walked inside the room. “hey” i said back “ has anything changed?” ricky asked me. i just shook my head “nothing has changed” i said and ricky sat next to me. “ how are you?” ricky asked me “ i really don’t know.. just thinking about of what the doctor had said” i told him. i could feel that ricky was looking at me “ what are you going to do?” ricky asked me. “ well i think that my mother doesn't want me to pull the plug, i think that she want to do whatever she wants” i said as i looked at ricky. “ yea your mother was like that “ ricky said which made me laugh.

2 hours went by and ricky had told me that he need to leave because he had a band meeting. “ okay mum lets see what your favourite T.V shows have to say” i said as i opened the magazine. “ okay well in the bold and the beautiful there is this huge drama where ridge and brooke are planning the wedding. as well as throne and thomas get some visitors at forester international. OMG mum listen to this apparently katie tells brooke that she is in love with ridge. okay that is some weird crazy thing that is happening there.” i said as i was looking at the good parts of the magazine. as i continued reading other things from the magazine.

after awhile i went downstairs to grab a drink and went outside. as i was outside i had sat down on a bench and looked into the park and i could see a mother and daughter playing. as i was looking i small smile went across my face, because it reminded me of the good times that i had with my mother and all of the things that we had done over these years, even though i am a grown women we still do crazy stuff together.

after a while of sitting down i got up and went back to mum. i walked inside the room and walked to the table and got the comb and started to comb her hair. “ i remember when you use to do this when i was younger. combing my hair at any chance that you got. i also remember when you use to do the cute hairstyles on me when ever we went out” i said as i was combing her hair. once i was finished i put the comb back down and sat next to her.

“ you know what mum. i have an idea” i told her her as i held her hand. “ sorry mum if i am a bit rusty..” i said as i faintly laughed. “ okay here is goes..” i said as i took a deep breath in “ You are my sunshine, my only sunshine You make me happy when skies are grey” as i sang i looked at my mother and i saw her eyes open and i got really happy as i continued to sing, she opened her mouth and with all her strength she sang "You never know, dear, how much I love you….Please don't take my sunshine away” she said as she closed her eyes with a faint smile on her face and the heart monitor had started to slow down. “ mum” i said as i shook her “ MUM” i started to scream at her “ DON’T YOU DARE GIVE UP MUM.. YOU ARE MUCH STRONGER THAN THIS” i screamed cried. then i heard the sound that i really did not want to hear. the flat rate. when i heard this i was screaming and crying at the same time and holding onto her for dear life. “ you promised me that you won’t leave me” i said to her as i cried on her lifeless body.

i heard the door open and a lot of people came into the room and one of them tried to get me off my mum. “ no leave me alone” i said as they gently pulled me off. two of the people had started to wheel her out and i pulled out the nurses grip and grabbed my mother and i was crying so hard that i did not want to let her go. “ miss, miss... you need to let go” one of the nurse said as they tried to pull me off of her.. as they wheeled her awhile i just fell to my knees screaming out “ WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME”

Notes

hey guys i am soooo sorry that i have not posted in a long time.. i had a huge writers block for this part. but i am back now


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