i have missed you

mixed pov’s



ricky’s pov


after couple of hours in the stedio the band decided to see how anna is going. so all of us headed to the car and drove to the hospital. as we went inside there was this off feeling that i was getting.
as we reached the floor that anna’s mum was on, we walked out the lifts and started to walk then we could hear a females voice screaming out “ WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME”. when i heard that voice i knew that it was anna. i ran to the room and the others had followed, as i entered the room i saw anna on the floor crying and there was no site of her mother. “ a-a-anna what happened” i said as i sat on the floor with anna and wrapped my arms around her. “ s-s-she gone” anna said and burst into tears. “ oh anna” was all i could say before that i stared to cry as well. the other guys sat on the floor and wrapped their arms around anna. all we could hear was the sobs that was coming from anna..



chris’s pov
it was hard to see anna at this state. lossing her mum. i mean it would be hard on anyone that has lost their mother. all of us had sat there for what seems a long time. “ miss anna” we heard and all of us had looked up to see a doctor, anna had nodded and all of us let her go and she got up and went with the doctor somewhere.
“ man i feel so sorry for her.. no words can describe it” i said once she was gone. the others had nodded “ i think that we should look after her.. i mean she will need someone there” devin said and the others had nodded. all of us had slowly got up from the floor and walked outside of the room and we had waited.




candy’s pov
i had decided to see anna and her mother in the hospital. before i got out the door of the shop the boys told me that they have anna’s back and they gave me this thing to give to her. as i was driving to the hospital i was think of anna and if there was any improvements. when i got to the hospital and on the level that anna was on, i could see that there was the motionless boys outside. i walked up to them “ hey guys… why are you outside the room?” i asked softly. they had all looked at me with sadful eyes.
“candy?” i head anna say before she broke down into tears. “ darling what’s wrong?” i asked as i walked over to her and hugged her. “ s-s-shes dead” anna said which made me hug her even tighter. “ babe i am really sorry” i said.. “ miss anna” i head the doctor say and anna unhugged me to face the doctor. “ i am really sorry for your loss.. it must be every hard for you” the doctor said and anna nodded. “ can she go home?” i heard chris asked “ yes she can.. all the paper work is filled out so there is no problem” the doctor said and i nodded and so did the others.



anna’s pov
once i got my stuff from inside of the room, i walked out where the others were waiting for me. once we got out of the hospital we headed to the car where we got inside and they drove me home. during the ride home it was quite, because no one knew what to say. as we reached my place all of us got out and walked to my door “ do you want us inside?” ricky asked me, i just shook my head “ i would like to be left alone if you don’t mind” i said and they all nodded and one by one they had hugged me and slowly went to the cars and drove.

once they where gone i went inside and put the things on the kitchen counter and went upstair to the bathroom. once i got there i looked at my self. ‘ damn i look horrible’ i said to my self and i thought a shower was a good idea. so i went to turn on the hot water and waited until the temp that i wanted and started to take the cloths off. i hopped inside and started to think of my mother and then the tears had started to come down “ why god why? did you have to take her away from me?” i asked as i was trying to clam down. it took me about good 20 minutes to clam down and finish off the shower. once i was down i got out and dried myself and got into cloths.
i headed downstairs and walked over to my bag and took my phone out to see that i had a missed call from matt. so i took my phone and called him.

matt: “hello"
me: "hey matt"
as i was trying not to cry but failed
matt: "anna what’s the matter? did you and ricky break up? "
me: "no no me and ricky did not break up… it’s just that my mother passed away about 3 hours ago."
matt: “ ohh anna i am really sorry to hear.. i am coming over”
me: “ matt i really do not want anyone here at the moment.. i just want to be alone”
matt: “ anna…. as a friend that really cars for you i will be coming over whether you like it or not “
me: “ matt please”
matt: “ anna you can’t be left alone at your state.. just please let me come over?”
there was a pause there for a bit while i was thinking
me: “ fine”
i said and matt told me that he will there shortly.

after awhile of me sitting on the couch the door bell rings and i get up and walk over to the door and open to see matt standing there.


when i saw him i just burst into tears and matt grabs me and pulls me into a tight hug.. “ shhh darling everything will be okay” matt told me and then unhugged me and i moved aside for him to go inside of the house. both of us had walked over to the couch and sat down and matt sat next to me and put a blanket over my shoulders “ i am going to make hot coco okay” matt said and i nodded and then matt went off while i sat there starting onto my lap until matt came with the hot coco. i had thanked him and he sat next to me. we where like this for a long time with no words exchanged. i had put my mug down and looked at matt.


“ matt” i said and he looked at him “ yea” he said as he put his mug down. “ let me look after you” i said and matt looked at me “ anna what do you mean look after me?” him asked me “ matt the reason why i want to look after you is because i really do care for you and i really don’t want you to go alone with your cancer” i said and matt slowly shook his head “ anna your not thinking straight.. your upset that your mother is gone” matt said to me “ no matt i know that i am thinking.. this has been on my mind for awhile” i said as i looked at him.. “ anna i really don’t want you to look after me.. i am really fine” matt said to me “ anna what happens when things get tough? what happens when i get really sick?” matt said to me as he held my hands “ i will be there for you” i said to him as i looked into his eyes “ i don’t know” matt told me. “ matt let me ask you a question” i said and he nodded. “ do you still love me?” i said as i looked into his eyes “ yes i do still truly, deeply, madly in love with you” matt said which i nodded to. “ now let me ask you a question? do you still love me?” matt asked me. as he asked me memories of him and me came flooding back to me which made my eyes water and with a slow nod “ yes i am still in love with you” i said and i could feel that matt moved closer to me and leaned in.

Notes

i am really sorry for not post that often.. it's kind of writer block/ not finding the inspiration to write.. but i am slowly getting over it...


so what do you think will happen?