The Journal
Chapter 7.
"Bonnie," Shut up voice.
"Bonnieee," Who the fuck is here?
"Bonnie, Bonnie, Bonnie!" I groaned and buried my head further into the pillows.
"Bonnie!" Someone pulled my legs and I ended up on my floor. I sighed and was ready to go back to sleep there.
"Are you fucking kidding me?!" I then felt weight on me and I groaned, smacking the person who was lying on top of me on the head.
"Oww!" I smirked and I opened my eyes, only to see Mike's face hovering over mine. I screamed and pushed him away from me.
"You scared me! What the fuck are you doing in my room at -" I looked at my alarm clock for the time. "3:00am?!"
"I'm taking you out for breakfast," he shrugged, like it wasn't 3 in the fucking morning.
"Now?! I still have 3 hours till I have to get up! I need my sleep you asshole!"
"Such dirty words coming from such a pretty mouth. C'mon chica, it'll be fun,"
"No," I glared at him.
"We're going to Mc Donald's," Mike grinned, knowing that place was my damn weakness.
"Don't lie to me..." I said.
"I'm not!" Don't give in Bonnie, don't give in...
"Fine, just let me get dressed," I stood up.
"No!" I raised my eyebrow at him. "We are going to Mc Donald's... In our pyjamas," I then noticed his clothing attire; red checkered pyjama bottoms and a baggy black Metallica t-shirt.
"I am not going out in my pyjamas,"
"Oh c'mon! It's 3 in the morning! Nobody's going to be there!" He started giving me the puppy dog eyes, and the asshole looked so fucking cute.
"Fine," Mike cheered. "But I'm just going to get my hair tidy,"
"No! You look cute with your messy ponytail! Leave it!"
"Mike! I look like a hobo!"
"Bonnie, you could look like absolute shit and you would still be the prettiest girl in the room," I swear my heart just melted.
"I - You know that's not true," I protested.
"You really don't see it, do you?" he whispered, stepping closer to me. My breath hitched and I froze. He was so... close.
"See what?" I whispered.
"How happy you make us all. How funny you are. How cute and adorable you are. How you've got us all wrapped around your finger. How we will do anything to make you happy," he tucked a strand of loose hair behind my ear. "How beautiful you are,"
"We should go," I looked down. If he carried this on, I would burst into uncontrollable tears. He sighed and shook his head, climbing back out of my window. I followed him and he helped me down before getting in his car. The ride to Mc Donald's was silent. But it was comforting silence. There was nothing I wanted to do more then hold Mike's hand, and enjoy his touch. I liked him. And I think... I think I liked Austin too. This wasn't supposed to happen. I was supposed to be the girl with her 8 best friends, sleeping with different guys, smoking and drinking, and then I'll grow old with 50 cats and maybe a few budgies. I wasn't supposed to have feelings. I didn't want to.
"We're here." Mike's voice broke me from my thoughts. I nodded at him and opened the car door, walking over to his side. We walked inside the 24 hour Mc Donald's and took our order before sitting at a booth. I leant my head against the side and yawned.
"I'm sorry," Mike apologised, taking a bite of his hash brown.
"For what?" I asked.
"Taking you out this early,"
"I guess it's okay," I grinned. "Why this early anyway?" Mike hesitated.
"Just because,"
"You're lying. Please tell me,"
"Because... Because I didn't want anyone to see," he whispered. I felt a tear escape my eye.
"I umm... I totally understand. I mean, you're quite popular, and I'm... Well, not. I understand why you don't want to be seen with me," I smiled through my tears. I couldn't hate him for this, I understood perfectly.
"No! It's not like that, I- Oh my god I made you cry," Mike put his head in his hands. He... He wasn't laughing at me because of it, was he?
"Sorry for being so much trouble. Umm, thank you for breakfast," I wiped my eyes and stood up.
"Where are you going? You've hardly touched your food," I didn't answer and instead walked out of the building.
"Bonnie! Where are you going?!" Mike demanded from behind me.
"I'm walking home," My voice broke.
"No you're fucking not! Do you know how many drunk idiots will be out there?! We are in New Hampshire Bonnie!"
"No Mike! I'm the idiot! I believed everything you said to me. Every damn word. I'm just a pathetic waste of space!"
"That's not true!"
"Yes it is! Stop lying to me! I can't take anymore!" I almost screamed,
"Just... Just let me drive you home,"
"No," I sobbed. "I'm walking,"
"You're not walking Bonnie! Just get in the car!" I slowly listened and sat in the passenger side.
"You know deep down I didn't mean it like that," Mike told me when We arrived outside my house at 4:30am.
"Then how did you mean it?" He didn't answer. I smiled sadly at him.
"Goodbye Mike." I went up through my window as I seen the living room light on, meaning Dad was awake. I grabbed my journal and pen and wrote 3 simple words.
February 15, 4:39am, 2003
Idiot idiot idiot.
*****
My alarm went off at 6:00am and I groaned. I'm definitely not going to school today. I walked downstairs and seen Dad sitting at the kitchen table reading one of his files. He worked from home, so he was here a lot.
"Um, Dad?" I asked hesitantly. He looked up and smiled at me.
"Yes Bonnie?"
"I'm feeling sick. I was wondering if I could stay home just for today?"
"Of course. I'll call your school after I've read this." He motioned to his file. I thanked him and walked back to my room, falling asleep again.
----
I has just finished looking at all the pictures of the guys and I that Jaime had took when there was a knock at my door.
"Come in!" The door opened and Oli and Tony appeared.
"Hey guys. Shouldn't you be at school?" I asked.
"It's a free period," Oli shrugged.
"And you weren't in art, so Oli got worried and text me," Tony chuckled.
"I did not get worried!" Oli blushed.
"It's okay guys," I laughed. "Come have a look at these!" They both walked over to where I was standing and started looking at the photos.
"When did you get these done?" Tony asked with a smile, looking at the picture of us two.
"Himes and I got them printed off yesterday. there's enough for everyone to have their own set,"
"Yeah, I want this one framed. We look cute,"
"It is a good photo of us." I agreed.
"Hehehe," Oli giggled, looking at the picture of Tony and I.
"What?" He just pointed at the back of the photo. I looked closer and seen Oli with his hand down his pants and had the most retarded look ever.
"I will never look at this photo the same again," I said.
"Oli! You ruined a good photo!" Tony frowned.
"You can't see it very well! You Only seen it cos I pointed it out to you!"
"Yeah, and now I can't un-see it!"They continued arguing while I just smiled. I couldn't ask for better friends.
Later that night I got a text.
'Whats up with you and Mike? - Vic' How did he know?
'I don't know what you're talking about'
'Please. You weren't at school and Mike is moping around like a wimp and repeating "I ruined it with her!" What did he do Bonnie?'
'Nothing'
'Bonnie'
'I'll tell you in person Vic. Goodnight'
I turned my phone off and snuggled into bed, desperate for an early night.
"Bonnieee," Who the fuck is here?
"Bonnie, Bonnie, Bonnie!" I groaned and buried my head further into the pillows.
"Bonnie!" Someone pulled my legs and I ended up on my floor. I sighed and was ready to go back to sleep there.
"Are you fucking kidding me?!" I then felt weight on me and I groaned, smacking the person who was lying on top of me on the head.
"Oww!" I smirked and I opened my eyes, only to see Mike's face hovering over mine. I screamed and pushed him away from me.
"You scared me! What the fuck are you doing in my room at -" I looked at my alarm clock for the time. "3:00am?!"
"I'm taking you out for breakfast," he shrugged, like it wasn't 3 in the fucking morning.
"Now?! I still have 3 hours till I have to get up! I need my sleep you asshole!"
"Such dirty words coming from such a pretty mouth. C'mon chica, it'll be fun,"
"No," I glared at him.
"We're going to Mc Donald's," Mike grinned, knowing that place was my damn weakness.
"Don't lie to me..." I said.
"I'm not!" Don't give in Bonnie, don't give in...
"Fine, just let me get dressed," I stood up.
"No!" I raised my eyebrow at him. "We are going to Mc Donald's... In our pyjamas," I then noticed his clothing attire; red checkered pyjama bottoms and a baggy black Metallica t-shirt.
"I am not going out in my pyjamas,"
"Oh c'mon! It's 3 in the morning! Nobody's going to be there!" He started giving me the puppy dog eyes, and the asshole looked so fucking cute.
"Fine," Mike cheered. "But I'm just going to get my hair tidy,"
"No! You look cute with your messy ponytail! Leave it!"
"Mike! I look like a hobo!"
"Bonnie, you could look like absolute shit and you would still be the prettiest girl in the room," I swear my heart just melted.
"I - You know that's not true," I protested.
"You really don't see it, do you?" he whispered, stepping closer to me. My breath hitched and I froze. He was so... close.
"See what?" I whispered.
"How happy you make us all. How funny you are. How cute and adorable you are. How you've got us all wrapped around your finger. How we will do anything to make you happy," he tucked a strand of loose hair behind my ear. "How beautiful you are,"
"We should go," I looked down. If he carried this on, I would burst into uncontrollable tears. He sighed and shook his head, climbing back out of my window. I followed him and he helped me down before getting in his car. The ride to Mc Donald's was silent. But it was comforting silence. There was nothing I wanted to do more then hold Mike's hand, and enjoy his touch. I liked him. And I think... I think I liked Austin too. This wasn't supposed to happen. I was supposed to be the girl with her 8 best friends, sleeping with different guys, smoking and drinking, and then I'll grow old with 50 cats and maybe a few budgies. I wasn't supposed to have feelings. I didn't want to.
"We're here." Mike's voice broke me from my thoughts. I nodded at him and opened the car door, walking over to his side. We walked inside the 24 hour Mc Donald's and took our order before sitting at a booth. I leant my head against the side and yawned.
"I'm sorry," Mike apologised, taking a bite of his hash brown.
"For what?" I asked.
"Taking you out this early,"
"I guess it's okay," I grinned. "Why this early anyway?" Mike hesitated.
"Just because,"
"You're lying. Please tell me,"
"Because... Because I didn't want anyone to see," he whispered. I felt a tear escape my eye.
"I umm... I totally understand. I mean, you're quite popular, and I'm... Well, not. I understand why you don't want to be seen with me," I smiled through my tears. I couldn't hate him for this, I understood perfectly.
"No! It's not like that, I- Oh my god I made you cry," Mike put his head in his hands. He... He wasn't laughing at me because of it, was he?
"Sorry for being so much trouble. Umm, thank you for breakfast," I wiped my eyes and stood up.
"Where are you going? You've hardly touched your food," I didn't answer and instead walked out of the building.
"Bonnie! Where are you going?!" Mike demanded from behind me.
"I'm walking home," My voice broke.
"No you're fucking not! Do you know how many drunk idiots will be out there?! We are in New Hampshire Bonnie!"
"No Mike! I'm the idiot! I believed everything you said to me. Every damn word. I'm just a pathetic waste of space!"
"That's not true!"
"Yes it is! Stop lying to me! I can't take anymore!" I almost screamed,
"Just... Just let me drive you home,"
"No," I sobbed. "I'm walking,"
"You're not walking Bonnie! Just get in the car!" I slowly listened and sat in the passenger side.
"You know deep down I didn't mean it like that," Mike told me when We arrived outside my house at 4:30am.
"Then how did you mean it?" He didn't answer. I smiled sadly at him.
"Goodbye Mike." I went up through my window as I seen the living room light on, meaning Dad was awake. I grabbed my journal and pen and wrote 3 simple words.
February 15, 4:39am, 2003
Idiot idiot idiot.
*****
My alarm went off at 6:00am and I groaned. I'm definitely not going to school today. I walked downstairs and seen Dad sitting at the kitchen table reading one of his files. He worked from home, so he was here a lot.
"Um, Dad?" I asked hesitantly. He looked up and smiled at me.
"Yes Bonnie?"
"I'm feeling sick. I was wondering if I could stay home just for today?"
"Of course. I'll call your school after I've read this." He motioned to his file. I thanked him and walked back to my room, falling asleep again.
----
I has just finished looking at all the pictures of the guys and I that Jaime had took when there was a knock at my door.
"Come in!" The door opened and Oli and Tony appeared.
"Hey guys. Shouldn't you be at school?" I asked.
"It's a free period," Oli shrugged.
"And you weren't in art, so Oli got worried and text me," Tony chuckled.
"I did not get worried!" Oli blushed.
"It's okay guys," I laughed. "Come have a look at these!" They both walked over to where I was standing and started looking at the photos.
"When did you get these done?" Tony asked with a smile, looking at the picture of us two.
"Himes and I got them printed off yesterday. there's enough for everyone to have their own set,"
"Yeah, I want this one framed. We look cute,"
"It is a good photo of us." I agreed.
"Hehehe," Oli giggled, looking at the picture of Tony and I.
"What?" He just pointed at the back of the photo. I looked closer and seen Oli with his hand down his pants and had the most retarded look ever.
"I will never look at this photo the same again," I said.
"Oli! You ruined a good photo!" Tony frowned.
"You can't see it very well! You Only seen it cos I pointed it out to you!"
"Yeah, and now I can't un-see it!"They continued arguing while I just smiled. I couldn't ask for better friends.
Later that night I got a text.
'Whats up with you and Mike? - Vic' How did he know?
'I don't know what you're talking about'
'Please. You weren't at school and Mike is moping around like a wimp and repeating "I ruined it with her!" What did he do Bonnie?'
'Nothing'
'Bonnie'
'I'll tell you in person Vic. Goodnight'
I turned my phone off and snuggled into bed, desperate for an early night.
this is really good. Im in the middle of class and about to burst out laughing
3/6/15