"Umm, hey Oli," Tony waved, stepping away from me slightly.

"What the fuck were you doing?"

"It meant nothing," Tony and I said at the same time.

"Bullshit!"

"No!" I snapped. "Why do I always get hurt?"

"What do you mean?! That hurt me!"

"I did it because you did!" I know it sounded immature, but it was the truth. Oli's eyes softened.

"You seen,"

"Damn right I did," I narrowed my eyes at him.

"I'm just going to leave you two at it," Tony mumbled, walking away.

"Listen, it's not what you think," Oli stepped closer.

"That's what everyone says. But I don't know why I'm so upset about it. I mean, you're not mine," I knew I left it to long. A guy like Oli shouldn't have to wait for someone like me. He can do what he wants.

"You don't understand, do you?" he laughed dryly, pulling me away from the crowd of people. "I would never hurt you intentionally, and you know that,"

"Of course that fucking hurt me. You said you had feelings for me! And I just found you kissing that girl, but it doesn't matter. I don't have control over you,"

"I didn't kiss her!"

"I seen you! Why are you denying it?!" I raised my voice.

"I don't even know who she is! She forced herself on me!"

"But -"

"Did you see me kiss her back?" Oli cut me off. I thought back, and remembered the only intimate thing he had done was put his hands on her waist, which looked a lot like he was trying to push her off.

"I didn't want to hurt a girl by pushing to hard," he mumbled.

"I'm sorry," I whispered.

"I'm yours Bonnie, but you won't have me," He looked almost pained to say it. I closed my eyes and took a breath.

"I just don't think it's fair on you," I said softly.

"I want your feelings for him to go away," Oli mumbled, walking away and getting another drink.

"Me too." I whispered to myself.







25 May, 12:34pm, 2003

Vic pretty much demanded me to come over right away, so I have a feeling he's going to rant about his crazy night. Oh fun.

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"I can't believe I got so drunk that I slept with a girl I didn't even know!" Yep, he was ranting. I watched his shirtless self pace the length of the kitchen over and over again while I sat on the counter eating Mike's homemade cookies. As much as I hated to admit it, he makes good fucking cookies.

"I mean, what was I thinking?!" Vic turned to look at me. I wasn't 100% sure if he was talking to me or himself, so I just shrugged with a mouthful of food.

"Oh my god that girl has seen me naked," I face palmed Nd continued eating.

"I can't believe I just done that! I never have sex with people I just met! That's not me!" This wS going to be a longgggg day.

"Did I put a condom on my penis?!" I choked on the cookie and stared at him in disgust. Did he have to say it like that?! What was wrong with "Did I use a condom?" !

"Oh, I think I did. That's good. I'm going to go shower," And with that, Vic left me alone in the kitchen. Fuckhead.

"Are those my cookies?" Mike walked into the room, glancing at the nearly empty plate of cookies in my hands that was full not long ago.

"They taste good!"

"You know what else tastes good? I think your already tried it." Mike sent a perverted smirk. I picked up a cookie and threw if at him, it hitting him straight in the eye.

"Oww! What the fuck?!"

"PERVERT!" I yelled, running into Vic's room. 5 minutes later, Vic waked in with a towel around his bare waist.

"Bonnie? What are you doing in here?" he asked, dropping the towel and pulling on some boxer briefs.

"Your stupid brother is being a pervert," I muttered.

"As always," Vic rolled his eyes, lying beside me. "Anything new with Oli?"

"No,"

"He told me about you and Tony,"

"It didn't mean anything," I whispered.

"I didn't say that,"

"Then what are you talking about?"

"I know you like him. I know you might even love him. And you kissed Tony because you were mad and upset because that girl kissed Oli,"

"No, don't say the 'L' word," I groaned.

"But you do, and you know it. Why don you do anything about it?"

"Well, I still have feelings for Mike is a reason. I don't think it's fair on Oli," I sighed. "And I'm scared,"

"Of what?"

"Love." Oli's words filled my head.

I'm yours Bonnie, but you won't have me.

Not only was I torturing him, but I was also torturing myself.





May 28, 3:46pm, 2003

Time to have that talk with Mike. I don't know how it's going to end, or what's going to go down, and that makes me nervous. What if I lose him, including everyone else? I don't think I could deal with that.

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"Hey," Mike greeted as I sat in front of him. We were at the park where he first admitted it was a bet. What a great start Mike. Bravo to you.

"Hi,"

"Thank you for finally agreeing to talk to me,"

"I guess I can't avoid you forever," I muttered. He smiled a tiny bit before looking down at the table.

"Firstly, I'm sorry I hurt you. It was never my intention... The reason I didn't tell you was because I wanted you. Nobody knows that, and I didn't know it myself until you were gone and I couldn't hold you or kiss you anymore. You're special. I want you still,"

"What do you mean?" I asks quietly.

"I want there to be an us," My breath hitched and I looked into his eyes which were filled with nothing but truth.

"B-but,"

"Please Bonnie," he begged.

"I don't think I can trust you," I sighed.

"You can. I won't let anything happen to you mi niña Bonita," My beautiful girl. And just with those few Spanish words, my feelings for him came back in a tidal wave.

"You're not good for me, but I want you to be." I admitted. Oli was perfect for me. He was respectful, and kind, and knew me. He read me stories and smiled whenever he seen me. He was like my own personal sunshine. He makes me happy.

But Mike was like an addictive drug. He was the bad boy, and had the rough side, but could make my heart flutter whenever he spoke. He annoys the hell out of me, but deep down, I think I like it.

I realised it was day VS night right now, and I didn't know who was winning.

Notes

So I've decided to rush through the dates a bit cos I realised that the dates lead up to 2006, and I'm already up to chapter 26 and it's not even June yet. It'll still make sense and stuff, but I won't be writing the dates like everyday, cos this story will be going on for fucking ever xD

If you haven't already, go check out my new Tony Perry fanfic You're Tattooed On My Heart :)

Thanks so much for reading guys <33