I was back in California. Not in my apartment but at Austin’s place. It was just temporary because he had decided that we should buy a house together. Like… A big house. With two floors and tons of different rooms. So Alec could have one, we should have two guestrooms and then maybe a future room for a sister or a brother to Alec.
“Someone is planning ahead” Alex teased. Because I was eating lunch with him. I nodded and let out a sigh.
“Austin is even more excited than I am” i said.
“Aren’t you happy about that?” He asked.
“Of course I am, but it’s just a lot to take in” i said and laughed a little. Alex smiled and poured up more water for me. A few minutes later Austin came in through the door with his bandmates, and Alan just stared at me.
"Yup, you are like a walrus" he said and nodded. I just stared at him.
"Watch it Alan, it’s a woman on hormones" Tino said and laughed.
"A walrus?" I asked.
"And you pissed her off" Tino said and laughed even more.
"No I’m not mad, I’m just wondering… A walrus?" I asked, again.
"She’s pissed" Austin and Aaron whispered and looked a little bit scared.
"I’m not a walrus, I’m a whale… A WHALE" I said and grinned. Then I made whale noises and they all bursted out laughing.
"You’re no whale" Austin said and pecked my lips.

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Austin’s POV

Even if I didn’t say anything I could see that she was in pain. From time to time I could see that she stopped and just rubbed her belly with a frowned face. It wasn’t just kicking, but since it wasn’t that much of a pain I always let it go. Since she didn’t complain or said anything about it. But when I woke up because I felt hot I knew that she wasn’t alright. She had a high fever and was drenched in sweat.
"Rin love, wake up" I said and stroked her arm. She let out a groan and shook her head.
"Rin" I said and this time I tried to shake her a little, and she opened her eyes. They were red and puffy, and she looked really tired.
"What is it?" she asked.
"Come here" I said and lifted her up. She might be pregnant but she was not heavy.

I carried her inside the bathroom and I turned on the shower. I didn’t put her under cold water, but she thought it was cold.
"You have a very high fever Rin, just let me cool you down and then I promise I cuddle with you" I said and she let out a small sigh. Why wasn’t she bothered by the fever? Or was the fever so high she didn’t even think clear? After a few minutes she looked less tired and she looked fine again, so I just let the "cold" water hit her belly.
"Why are you doing that?" she asked and rubbed it.
"Because if you had a fever, so did Alec… And i don’t want him hurt" I mumbled and she yawned. I turned of the water and dried her body. She was still a bit hot but much better than before.

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I woke up and yet again I felt how hot my body was. A fever. Again. Austin was sleeping next to me and I stared at him. Should I wake him up? No he was already so tired from taking care of me all night. It had been a few days since that really high fever and he had taken me in to the shower, but I sometimes woke up in the middle of the night with a fever. The hospital said it was normal, which no one of us believed in, and they said that if it got worse we should come back. I sat up and felt a small pain in my stomach. It wasn’t that bad but it still made me frown and let out a groan.
"Rin?" Austin asked and turned around to face me.
"It’s okay, go back to sleep" I said and gave him a smile. But he saw that I was frowning and he sat up.
"You’re not okay" he said and yawned a little.
"Don’t worry, it’s nothing" I said and looked at him. In a millisecond I was pinned down on the bed with Austin over me. He looked into my eyes and he was really angry. Almost furious. His grip around my wrists hurt.
"Don’t you dare fucking say that… You are 7 months pregnant, you are carrying my son… And you know what? I’ve been watching you and I know about the pain Rin. I know everything. I’m not fucking blind. You even wake up in fever from time to time and we both know that it’s not just nothing…. You are not fine. You are not okay. Something is going on but we have no fucking idea what… So don’t say that I shouldn’t worry. Do’t you dare tell me not to" he said, almost growling it in my face. I teared up and just stared at him.
"You’re hurting me" I sobbed and he then looked panicked. He let go of my wrists and backed a few steps.
"I’m sorry, I didn’t… I didn’t mean to" he said and his voice almost cracked.
"No I’m sorry" I said and started to cry. everything I wanted to say and everything I felt for the last couple of weeks was just coming up. I told him about the pain and how worried I was, and that I hated to see him worried. He moved closer and he wrapped his arms around me, pulling me into his embrace. He kissed my temple and hushed me.
"I know, as I said… I’ve been watching you" he whispered.
"I’m sorry for not telling you" I sobbed.
"It’s okay… Let me go get you something to drink" he said and looked at me. I nodded and Austin walked out from the bedroom. I heard him walk downstairs and starting to do something in the kitchen.

I was looking at the ceiling when the pain came back. I rubbed my belly and tried not to think about it. But it got worse and worse. Soon it felt like someone was stabbing me in my stomach.
"I’m 7 months pregnant and this is not going into labor" I sobbed and grasped the sheets under me. I closed my eyes and bit my lip, causing it to bleed because I bit so hard. Then I felt it… My water broke. My fucking water broke. With trembling hands I lifted the blanket to see it but I didn’t see a big pool of water. There was blood. I let out a cry and screamed.
"AUSTIN" I screamed when the pain got even worse.
"Babe?!" Austin called from downstairs. I heard him drop the glass and he hurried upstairs, and he slammed the door open. He stared at the blood with wide eyes, and I let out another cry.