I was out on the balcony again, but I must have fallen asleep because suddenly I woke up to Austin carrying me inside.
"The last time you were out on your balcony you got a sunstroke, and now you’re sleeping out there?" he asked when he saw that I was awake. I yawned a little.
"I couldn’t sleep last night" i said and he gently let me down on the floor again. I almost fell though when I tried to walk and Austin caught me just in time.
"Well I guess I’ll carry you up to bed" he teased with a grin. I laughed but when he lifted me up I felt sick. He looked at me, a bit worried when he saw me frown. I jumped out from his arms and I ran over to the toilet and everything went down. A surprised Austin hurried after me and held my hair back as my breakfast and lunch left me.
"Maybe you’re getting sick?" he said and stroked my back.
"I guess the lack of sleep and lying in the sun wasn’t a good combination" I said and shook my head. Austin gave me my toothbrush and I brushed my teeth. He smiled a little and stroked my arm, before he kissed my shoulder.
"I have to go, but if you feel worse give me a call" he whispered.
"I’ll do that" I muttered and he just laughed a little and kissed my shoulder again.
"I’ll see you later" he said and walked out from the bathroom.

I was lying on the couch, just looking up at the ceiling when I felt nauseous again. Not that so much that I had to run to the bathroom. Just nauseous and my head hurt. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
I hate feeling like this. I really hate this. I thought over and over again. Then I opened my eyes and I looked up at the ceiling again. A small, innocent, thought made it inside my head. When was my period due? And the more I thought about it the more scared I got. It didn’t matter how many times I counted in my head and on my fingers. My period was late.
Fuck…

I had bought three pregnancy tests. Three different kinds and I locked the bathroom door. I picked out the first one and peed on it. Waited the ten minutes i had to wait and then I looked at it. A small pink plus. I swallowed and took out the second one. I peed on it as well and waited 15 minutes like that one needed. My body was trembling like crazy by now. I took the second test and it showed two blue lines and not one. I was pregnant. But just to make sure I took out the third one and I peed on that one as well. After 15 long minutes I looked at it and my eyes teared up. A smiley. A happy smiley.
"Holy fuck" I cried and rubbed my hands over my eyes. This was not happening. First everything with Dave and now a kid with Austin… When I didn’t even knew about what kind of relationship we had?
Austin would freak out… he would leave me. He wouldn’t want to be in this. I cried for a few minutes before I gathered some strength. I unlocked the door to the bathroom and walked out, straight to my phone and I picked it up. With trembling fingers I called Austin.
"Did it get worse?" he asked without really saying hi. I swallowed.
"Are you crying?" he asked when he heard me sob a little.
"Austin, we need to talk" I sobbed and teared up again. I could hear him breathing on the other side.
"what is going on?" he asked and sounded so worried.
"When you get back here we need to talk" I cried.