I woke up next to Austin and I saw flashes from the night before. Sex with Austin. Wonderful sex for hours with Austin. I swallowed and looked up in the ceiling. It was not the first time since I’ve gotten back. I’ve been home for almost two months now and I’ve had sex with Austin a few times. We hadn’t talked about our relationship but I guess I was back on being his girlfriend. Just like I wanted to but… Maybe we should wait some more. I don’t know… I sighed and looked at him. Sleeping so peacefully beside me. Relaxed and calm, with no worries in his face. Beautiful and mesmerizing. I loved Austin… But should I really be with him? Shouldn’t I wait until I was completely fine over Dave? Or should I be with Austin because I loved him before Dave and during my love for Dave? I sighed again and felt confused. Everything was just so damn hard.

I was out on my balcony, just enjoying the sun. A little bit of sun would do me good and I laid there for hours. It felt really good, until the nausea hit me and I had to go in. Typical me with my red genes to get a sunstroke. I slowly sat up and walked inside, and to my surprise Alan stood there with Austin. They both looked at me and I looked at them.
"You okay?" Alan asked.
"Sunstroke, I think" I said and shook my head.
Austin walked over to my sink and poured me a glass of water, and gave it to me before he pushed me over to the couch.
"Take it easy, and we’ll make some food for you" he said.
"for us" Alan corrected him.

I still felt nauseous but I did eat a little. My head hurt as well and I took a deep breath.
"It’s not getting better?" Alan asked and looked at me, a bit worried. I shook my head and closed my eyes. It’s been a while since I’ve been in the sun for so long. So I could understand the sunstroke.
"Go to bed, but take another glass of water and you’ll feel better tomorrow when you’ve gotten some sleep" he said. I nodded and did as he told me. Feeling Austin and Alan’s eyes on me the whole time. But I took my glass of water and then I walked up the stairs and laid myself down on the bed. It felt great to just lie down and enjoy my wonderful bed. But my skin stung a little.
"Austin?" I called and I heard him answer. He wondered if there was something wrong and I smiled. He cared so much.
"Chris?" he asked when I didn’t answer.
"Can you help me with some after sun lotion?" I asked.
"Sure" he answered and I could hear him smile. Alan said his goodbyes and Austin came up with a bottle of after sun lotion. He rubbed it over my back, bum and legs and I took the arms, belly and chest myself.
"Go to sleep, and I’ll take care of the dishes" he said.
"I love you Austin" I yawned and curled up on the bed.
"i love you too" he whispered back and kissed my temple.

I woke up to the sound of someone cursing down in the kitchen. I sat up and walked over to the railing and Austin stood there… And tried to make breakfast. But he had somehow failed.
"You need some help?" I asked and smiled. I felt much better today.
"I didn’t mean to wake you up" he said and glanced over his shoulder.
"It’s okay, but seriously… you need help?" I asked. He looked at me and shook his head.
"Take a shower or something, and when you get back this is going to be perfect" he grinned. I shook my head but I did walk down the stairs and in to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and then I jumped inside the shower. It felt great to have the water against my body. I walked out, dried my hair and my body before I stepped onto the scale. It had been some time since I last checked my weight and I knew that I had lost some weight. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, then I looked down and I just stared. I had not lost a pound, but gained a few. What the fuck?!
"What is it?" Austin asked behind me.
"I thought I lost weight but no… I’ve gained" I said and looked at him.
"It’s not like it visible, you’re still thin" he said and looked confused at me.
"But still… I’ve gained weight, i never gain this much" I said and looked at him.
"Maybe your scale is broken" Austin shrugged and dragged me out from the bathroom. I put one of his tees over my head and sat down by the table.
"And don’t tell me you’re not going to eat… I went into war with your kitchen to make that" he said and put the plates in front of me. I smiled and shook my head.
"No way, I’m starving" I said and it was the truth.
"Good" he said and kissed me.