Tom’s P.O.V

“No we need to talk about this! Tom, please tell them we need to figure this out!” Matt stood up from his spot on Austin’s sofa so he could face me, his eyes were pleading with me to try and convince the guys that something had to be done about my current situation. I sighed awkwardly, shifting my weight from one foot to the other, I shrugged; which earned me a sharp glare from the drummer. I knew he was just trying to look out for me, but it was hard to talk about what had happened, or more importantly, what was going to happen.

I was terrified, not for myself, no I got myself into this mess, but for everyone else. I knew what the man I owed money too was capable of, and even having a highly trained assassin on my side, I didn’t feel like we would stand a chance. I wish I hadn’t come back here, if I didn’t then Matt and Oli, and everyone else wouldn’t be in this mess with me. If I just left then maybe they could avoid any confrontations, but I knew they wouldn’t let me just walk away, especially Matt; he has watched me like a hawk since I returned, and even more so after the accident.

I felt guilt crawl into my stomach, a lot of this was my fault. Matt had gotten hurt because of me, Oli tried to kill himself again, and im sure I had something to do with it, now everyone I held near and dear was in danger, because of me. I felt my legs sway, urging me to sit on the floor as my eyes started to sting with the fear of the problem I had caused. Just as I went to say something, the door bell rang, causing everyone, myself included, to jump a bit; Austin smiled as he made his way to the door, opening it to reveal a tall looking man, he had short black hair, with a matching colored trim beard, plugs resided in his ears as well, he was sporting a red and black plaid shirt, and ill be damned if I didn’t say this guy looked like some kind of lumberjack.
“Jeremy Mckinnon! It has been too long my friend!” Austin pulled the man into a bear hug, which the visitor returned.

“Couldn’t agree more, Carlile! I brought the truck, so do you care to open the garage for me?” the man, Jeremy, asked as he let Austin move back, the taller man nodded, before shutting the front door, and darting off to the back.

“C’mon guys, we will talk later. Actions first!” Austin called, my eyes turned to Oli, who hung his head before he stood up. I knew the thought of Austin falling back into his old ways terrified him, frankly, I didn’t blame him. I quickly made my way to Oli’s side and hugged him, he hugged me back tightly.

“Don’t worry Ols, everything will be okay; don’t worry, Austin wont do anything that stupid.” I whispered as I pulled away from him, he nodded tiredly before walking after the lads.

I felt an arm snake around me and spin me around, of course it was no other than Matt, he smiled at me, and as much as I wish It didn’t, my heart rate raised to an abnormal level. Why he had such an affect on me was beyond me, and I hated that I felt this way; it just put him in more danger. He waited till everyone had gone to the back, before planting a quick kiss on my lips, and pulled me into his chest, rubbing circles in my back.

“S’gonna be okay Tom, we will figure it out.”

I just nodded and wrapped my arms around him, butterflies crawling around in my stomach, the drummer just giggled, as he slowly pulled away, and nodded his head towards the garage, before he filed out the door, after cursing everything in the entire world, I followed suit.

-&-

“isn’t this all…a bit…excessive?” I asked in total awe, Jeremy’s van was completely stocked full of weapons that I couldn’t even begin to name, guns, cross bows, knifes, everything. The owner just shrugged, as he pulled out a few things showing them to Austin.

“Dude! You really do never let me down, you know that, right?!” Austin excitedly grabbed what looked like an automatic assault rifle from the sellers hands, Jeremy smiled.

“I know, that’s why I’m your go to guy.” He added smugly, and Austin giggled, before asking to have a look at the others.

Oli’s face was indescribable, and I noticed Austin cast a glance at him before he entered the van, the taller vocalist turned around and approached my brother as he whispered something in his ear, which seemed to calm him down a bit; before returning to grab more of the illegal products.

This went on for about an hour, Austin sorting things out, and asking all of us what we felt comfortable with, allowing us to hold some of the huge guns. When it came to my turn I just shrugged, sure I was a good shot, and I liked guns, but I had never used something of this caliber before. It was a bit intimidating.

As we wrapped up, Jeremy got a serious look on his face as he faced Austin, “Now the fun part, are you just wanting to rent them, or you actually went to buy them?”

I heard Oli grunt a bit, as he watched Austin ponder his friends question; Lee put a hand on his band mates shoulder, as Austin smiled sadly at him.

“Rent for now, I’m not trying to get back in business, just have the thing I told you about to take care of.”

Oli visibly relaxed, as Jeremy just nodded his head, before assessing his merchandise.

“Well, you have 20 automatic assaults, and 15 hand guns, 5,000 rounds in total, and” he paused to count everyone up, “11 ankle guns, so that’s going to come too…” he hit a few buttons on his phone, adding up the price.

“$11,500 even, taking a grand off cause you’re a friend.”

Everyone’s eyes went wide, as Austin just thanked him, before walking in the house for a moment and returning with a suitcase, which he opened quickly, revealing what had to have been at least fifty thousand dollars, my jaw went slack. For one, holy shit, he’s loaded! For two, I felt terrible that he had to spend almost $12,000 on me, not including the 60k he already said he was giving to the dealer.Austin handed a stack of bills over to Jeremy who smiled and placed them in a duffel bag, before shaking his hand, and everyone else’s.

“Pleasure doing business with you as always Austin, just return them in a month if you can, I wont kill you if it’s a bit late though.” He laughed, but that didn’t sit so well with anyone else, judging on the looks on their faces.

“I appreciate it man! I will have them back to you as soon as possible.” Austin smiled as his friend nodded, and waved, before entering his van; the house owner opened the garage in order for the vehicle to leave, then shut it again; he grinned at us as the door closed.

“Well I know you all think this is crazy, and granted it kind of is, but we can’t be to careful. Do you all know how to shoot?”

The guys from Of mice snickered, and Austin shot them a dirty look, “I know you guys know how too, especially you Alan.” The ginger lowered his head in shame, as his friends shot him a dirty glare, guess they never let him live that down.

“I don’t…” lee quietly answered, Austin smiled at him before showing him the basics of the gun, the guitarist just nodded quietly.

“Anyone else?” Austin asked, but we all shook our heads.

“Good, now lets work on making the house a bit more secure. Just like old times, eh Oli?”my brother snickered, before dropping his gun onto a small table, as he walked off in a huff, Vegan and Jordan following after him. Austin’s smile faltered a bit, “Well I guess I could have expected that, I wish he would realize that I’m not going to be making this a habit…I just wanna make sure you all are safe. You guys know that…right?”

The vocalists friends all nodded, and assured him that his boyfriend was just worried, which seemed to calm Austin down a bit. Matt and Lee both tugged my sleeve, as the guys grabbed several pieces of metal, and what looked like really thick glass, we helped pick the items up and carried them into the living room. Vegan, Jordan and Oli were sitting on the sofa, but stood up to help us sit the things down.

Austin explained how to install the thick glass, which I learned was bullet proof, and how to drill the bars on after it, we all nodded before picking up different pieces and making our way to all the doors and windows. After 2 hours it was complete, and I could breathe a huge sigh of relief, I definitely felt safer now that all that was over with.

Jordan, Oli, Lee, Matt, Vegan and I were seated in the living room, while the others were cooking a late dinner for us. The clock on the wall read 10:01, I couldn’t believe how long of a day this had been, “Tom, can you come here?” I heard Austin’s voice call from the kitchen, the lads all looked at me, and I shrugged before making my way to the kitchen.

Austin smiled and motioned for me to follow him into the dining room, when we got in there he motioned for me to sit down.

“Uhm I kind of have a question for you.” He whispered softly, I nodded my head.

“Well normally I would speak with a parent with this, but since that’s not an option, id like to ask you…” I had no idea where he was going with this, “if…if I asked Oli to marry me…would I have your blessing?” his voice was so low I could hardly hear him, his face was bright red, and he messed with his hands in a nervous manor. I felt my jaw go slack, he was going to ask Oli to marry him? I mean he does make my brother happy, and he is good to him…most of the time…I sighed, before grabbing his hand, he tensed up as my face turned serious.

“yes Austin, you would have my blessing…IF…” his smile faltered as I trialed off, what could I say? I had conditions, “you promise me you wont make this killing or buying gun thing a habit. If you promise that you will never ever fucking hurt him, mentally or emotionally, cause if you do…so help me god, and if you do anything you can to keep him happy…he deserves to be happy Austin. I know he loves you, and vise versa, and you are a great guy…so please, just don’t hurt him.”

“Tom, I promise you. I want nothing more than to keep him happy, he is my world, and I would never do anything to hurt him. I know today was hard on him, and after the incident…I don’t even want to let him out of my sight. I want to propose tomorrow night, after our show; so I would like to take care of the whole…money situation tomorrow morning. Can we make that happen?”

That was something I didn’t see coming either, tomorrow morning? I didn’t know if I was ready to do that, but if it means Oli could be happy….”Sure, I will call them right now.”

Austin smiled brightly, and stood up before hugging me tightly, “Thank you Tom, thank you so much.”

I hugged him back, “No problem Austin, just remember your promise…and welcome to the family.”

He released me and basically sprinted back to the kitchen, I groaned before making my way to the back of the house where no one was, clicking on Jona’s Contact.

“Why Hello There, Sykes.” His voice sent a shiver down my spine, “Where my money?” well straight to the point, isn’t he?

“I have it, I can drop it off Tomorrow. Look Jona, I’m sor-“

“Save it, Tom. If you don’t have it here by tomorrow morning, 9 am sharp, I will kill you, and you know I’m not kidding. I’m sick and tired of you doing this, you have been putting this off for months! You cant just expect me to not have a consequence Tommy, remember the time you owed me a hundred bucks?”

I shuttered, of course I remembered. He beat me half to death with a bat, before…”You’re a good fuck though, I will give you that. Now Imagine that pain, the pain over 100 dollars, Sykes, and it will only be 600 times worse. Got it? 9 am sharp, you know the drill, oh and no games Tom. You and your little friends think its cute to suit up and buy some guns? You’re a joke, your being watched Tommy, I’m always Watching.”

The phone clicked off as I sunk to my knees, a small sob taking over me. What have I done? How could I allow myself to be so fucking stupid? Jona was being very lenient with me, he should have offed me today really. Now he was watching me too? I felt my phone vibrate, a text from him pulling up

From: Jona
Don’t cry yet, Tommy. We haven’t had any fun yet.

I sat up, shock taking over me, I furiously typed back to him.

To: Jona
What are you talking about?

My phone vibrated almost immediately, downloading a picture message, I braced myself for whatever it may be. When It finally popped up, it took my breath away, it was a picture of me, sitting on the floor of the back room, but how? I turned, looking at all the windows, no one was there, but that doesn’t mean their wasn’t just a second ago. The caption under it made me shiver, are we having fun yet?

I darted up from my spot on the floor, and rushed back into the living room, the guys all shot me curious glances, Matt sat down his plate, wincing from the pain that was left over from our ‘accident’ thanks again Jona. He stood up, walking towards me slowly, I just stood there, blinking away tears and shaking. I dropped my phone as he pulled me into a hug, I wrapped my arms around his neck and sobbed into his chest. He used his good hand to smooth my hair down,as he asked me what was wrong. I tried to catch my breath, but it felt impossible; I was never one to have panic attacks, so this was just that much scarier.

Matt pulled me to the couch, I felt the others staring at us, I heard Oli go to say something, but Austin whispered something to him, and he didn’t say another word. Matt sat down, before pulling me into his lap, I blushed; for starters Matt and I weren’t even dating, and he never wanted to do anything like this in front of the others.

“Can you tell us what happened, love?” he asked in a hushed tone, his voice was laced with concern, and his eyes were pleading with me to let him know why I was so upset. I sighed, before taking a deep breathe, “My phone, I need my phone.”

“I will get it,” Phil chimed, before grabbing the small device and handing it to me, I thanked him before continuing where I left off.

“Well I called Jona, to arrange the drop, and he said if I don’t have it to him by nine am that I’m a goner, he’s been watching me this whole time, he sent me…a picture of me in the back just a few seconds ago. I know their out there, watching us, I don’t think he would try anything though, not with all the precautions we took. It just scared me, and I’m just being a cry baby.” I finished my story, and turned to just look at Matt, I couldn’t bare to see my brothers pained expression, or my friends concerned faces.

Matt gently pulled my head into the crook of his neck, and clung closer to me, “No you aren’t being a cry baby…that’s a lot to take in Tommy, but don’t worry. We are all here for you, right?” he asked, everyone in the room made some sort of noise or word to let me know for sure. I smiled into my friends(?) skin, and planted a small kiss there, I knew no one could see it anyways.

“b-besides, I wouldn’t let them, you know I’d go through hell for you no matter what.” His voice was slightly broken, I knew he was blushing, the skin I had my head rested on grew a few degrees warmer, I smiled. I lifted my head up, wiping the remaining liquid off of my face, “Thank you all, I don’t know what I would have done without you…and thank you Austin, I promise I will pay you back somehow.”

Austin shook his head as best he could with Oli being sprawled out on his lap, “No need to! Your practically family Tom.” He winked at me, earning a few confused stares from everyone else, Oli included.

“Well I guess we should get some sleep,” Alan chimed in, before pushing himself off the couch, “Do you still have those air mattresses in the closet?” he asked Austin who nodded. Everyone minus Matt, Oli, Austin, and I left the room, Matt moved me off of him carefully, I frowned. Was he embarrassed?

“Oli can I talk to you?” he asked, my brother nodded and climbed off of his boyfriends lap, motioning for Matt to follow him into the room I remember being the studio.

The rest of the guys came back, saving an awkward silence between Austin and I, we arranged the mattresses on the floor, using the small pump to inflate them. They were all goofing off, and blowing air into each others faces, which was actually, quite funny. After several minutes Matt and Oli came back, the drummer came over to me, and motioned for me to follow him. I did as I was told, he stopped when we hit the kitchen, before moving forward and pressing his lips to mine in a needy fashion. I kissed him back, trying my hardest to keep up with his pace, I felt him smirk before he pulled away from me.

“Tom, I know I have been confusing lately…and that’s not fair to you…but I wanted to talk to Ols before I asked this…so…Tom…will you be my boyfriend?” his face was hopeful, despite the deep blush that lingered on his cheeks, and the fear that shook in his eyes. I smiled, “Of course, do you even hav’ta ask?”

He grinned, before pulling my chin up so ours eyes locked, I felt my stomach tie in knots as he pressed a chaste kiss on my nose. He grabbed my hand, before dragging me into the living room, smirking like mad the whole time.

“What are you smirking at, Nicholls?” Austin asked, clearly he was aware of the conversation Oli and him had just had, my brother was a mess of giggles, as he hid his face on his boyfriends shoulder.

“How much does a polar bear way?” Matt asked, trying not to laugh himself,

“Enough to break the ice.” I replied, my tone matching his. He chuckled, before holding our hands up, so everyone can see,

“You got yourself a boyfriend now!” Austin spat out, which earned woots and hollers, and the occasional “GAY!” thrown in, for the first time all day I was completely happy. Tomorrow was going to be hell, but hey that’s tomorrow, and that’s another story.

Notes

does anyone even read this anymore? lol
the view counter is broken, so it still says zero...and hardly anyone comments T-T
sorry im being ridiculous, i write this for my enjoyment as well; im just in a bleh mood.
my grandma is in critical condition and on a ventilator because she suffered from kidney failure today. they wont even let me see her, which kills me. she was the one who basically raised me, and i cant even begin to describe how i feel right now. life is shit...

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siren