Austin’s P.O.V

I screamed the last line into the Mic and the crowd erupted in roars of excitement, “THANK YOU LA! WE’RE OF MICE & MEN! MAKE SURE TO COME SAY HI AFTER THE SHOW AND CHECK OUT OUR NEW EP!”

The crowded room screeched one more time as I ran off the stage, Oli’s eyes locked on mine and I felt the butterflies pit in my stomach all over again, its been a year since I had seen those hazel depths, a year since I had seen him in general, really. I was a sweaty mess, but he still sauntered over and wrapped his arms around my midsection, resting his head in the crook of my neck, I laughed quietly wrapping an arm around his thin waist and pulling him closer to me.

“Sorry Im sweaty and probably don’t smell to good…I’m going to hit the shower in the back of the venue. Stay a bit so we can talk?” he nodded his head, before slipping out of my arms, leaving me with a yearning feeling in the pit of my stomach, I called after him. He stopped and turned on his heel to make his eyes, once again, lock on to mine.

“Please don’t leave…” I muttered my biggest fear to him, a loud cracking from the drums as Blessthefall took the stage was the only thing holding me together. His eyes flooded with hurt, and he re-approached me once again, leaning in and whispering in my ear.

“I promise I won’t leave, Austin.” I nodded quickly and turned to run to the shower. As soon as I was behind the safety of the steel door I fell to my knees, a silent sob racketing through my body. I hit the ground with my fist, I had missed Oli so much that it was almost ridiculous. He plagued my mind all the time, I never stopped thinking about him, not even in my dreams; he was all id see. As sad as it was to Admit, every night at 12:04 pm, the time he first arrived to LA with me, I would drive to the greyhound bus station, and wait. Hoping that one day I would see his brilliant face getting of one of the buses, I sometimes slept in his old room, silently crying myself to sleep as thoughts of the way he laid next to me flitted in and out of my brain. I couldn’t function without him by my side, even…even after Gielle and I had become friends again. She still wanted more, and I knew that much, that's when something hit me Oh no…

I quickly jumped up and into the shower, somehow I was in and out in 2 minutes flat, quickly running back to my previous spot; to my dismay Oli, Matt and the unfamiliar faces of his band were gone. Instead stood a pissed of Gielle, and my band mates, who’s faces fell to the floor. I approached them wearily,

“Where’s Oli?” I asked quietly, the guys kept there eyes glued to the floor and Gielle sneered at me. I faced her, fists balling up so tight causing my knuckles to shoot a pale white color,

“WHERE IS HE!?” I demanded as loud as I could, earning strange looks from the roadies and other people around, she growled at me.

“I sent that fucker away, Austin we just got back together, I’ve fixed you! Can you not see that? I couldn’t let him get in the way!” I gasped in horror, she scared him off…no, no, no, no!

"GIELLE WE AREN'T TOGETHER ANYMORE. FIX ME? DID YOU THINK THAT WAS EVEN POSSIBLE!? FUCK YOU!" I screamed in her face violently, she trembled slightly. No, This wasn’t happening, Oli was just right here…he could still be here! I all but pushed her out of my sprinting towards the door.

“IF YOU LEAVE NOW AUSTIN IM NEVER TAKING YOU BACK AGAIN!” she screamed harshly, I promptly flipped her off, before pushing past the emergency exit doors. I called out his name several times, a few fans tried talking to me, but I ran past them and down the street, desperately crying out for him. I wasn’t paying attention, my eyes were blurred over with tears and my feet were moving for themselves, until I crashed into someone, knocking us both over.

“Watch where your going asshole!” the person exclaimed, I went to apologize and came face to face with none other than Matt Nicholls,

“MATT! Where’s Oli!?”I asked in a quick panic, he shrugged and sighed.

“I don’t know, after that cunt came over and yelled in his face, calling him everything under the sun he took off…we cant find him.” SHIT.

“I may know where he is! Fuck okay, ill call you if I see him! Your number is the same right?”

He nodded slowly, and I spun around, only to be halted by his arm, “If you so much as hurt him Carlile I will fucking kill you, I don’t care how skilled you think you are, I will make you regret ever living.”

His eyes were narrow and cold, I nodded and he released me. I ran as fast as I could down the all too familiar streets, until I arrived at the destination I had been looking for, the bus station.

I ran around the building, and still had no sight of him, my mind was a whirlwind; my heart was screaming for me to stop before I regretted it, but I didn’t care. I ran away from the building and down the street a bit, looked around me, until my eyes fell upon a small trail from a park. Something was pulling me into, and I had no reason not to trust my instinct, I followed the path as fast my legs would take me, until a place where the road split into twos, I took the less beaten down one, it was almost over grown. How cliché? My feet came to a stop as I desperately looked for any sign of him, I heard a slight roar of water, was there a river here? How come Ive never seen this place before? All thoughts aside, I sprinted towards the sound of the roaring waves, and stopped as I heard a low pitched voice quietly singing, I looked up seeing a small wall of rocks that stood at least 50 feet above the crashing water below. On the wall stood none other than…

“OLI!” he jumped back, and my eyes widened as I saw his foot slip off the side, soon followed by the second as he plummeted to the depths of the river. “NO! OLI!” I shrugged my jacket off, before running and diving into the water, oh I hope its deep enough for this. I hit the water with a thud, diving beneath the surface. The water was freezing cold, something that was odd for the hot climate of California. I opened my eyes, but was only met with darkness. I felt my heart beating harshly, I felt myself slipping, but I had to hold a bit longer, for Oli. I felt something brush against my arm and instinctively grabbed it, I was thankful I did as I was met with another human hand. I quickly pulled him and myself to the surface, gasping fro breathe as I came up and swam us to shore. I pulled him into my lap and beat on his chest slightly, he was cold, his face was a horrible shade of blue and gray and his lips were even more frightening.

“NO NO NO NO OLI WAKE UP! OLI! PLEASE!” I screamed, trying to push on his chest and breathe life into his lungs, I clung to his chest, sobbing hysterically. I leaned down into him and felt a light thud echo in his chest, he still had a heart beat! I could still save him! I pushed violently on chest, 1,2,3 times and water poured from his mouth as he coughed up everything he had swallowed. I flipped him on his side as he sputtered out the water harshly, his eyes fluttered open as his hazel depths came into contact with brown iris of mine.

“You came…? Why did you save me?” he asked quietly, this was the second time since I have known him that he asked me why I saved him…did he…want to die? No, that’s nonsense. I pulled him into my chest, “Of course I came! Oli I could never lose you again…I cant handle that, I…I still love you Oli…” my voice shook as his glassy eyes held contact with mine, “I never stopped loving you…I never stopped hoping you’d come back to me, I knew it was selfish but I just couldn’t handle not being with you.”

He sighed sadly, as a shiver went down his spine, I could feel the chill nipping at my wet skin as well, I shivered against it; I leaned down and picked him up, cradling him to my arms. I marched back up the hill, much to my hearts dismay. I tried to breathe steadily, I was trying the best I could; but it was becoming harder and harder to move, I made it the wall we once stood on moments ago and sat him down next to a rock, he reached over and grabbed a small note book…confusion was taking me over. Why did he have that? I got my jacket and walked back to him, his eyes caught mine as I slipped my cell out of my jacket pocket and held it in my hand, then it hit me.The pain erupted through my body and send me to the ground, I heard Oli call out my name as he rushed over to me, I pointed at my jacket as I gripped the place on my skin where my heart was.

“Is your medicine in here?” he asked quickly, I nodded. He took a small bag with 3 pills out and handed me two, if I wasn’t in pain I would have smiled at how cute it was that he remembered the amount to give me. I swallowed them harshly from lack of water. He cradled my head in his lap as he ran fingers through my hair, which was significantly longer then it was year ago, yet again, so was his.

“Oli…I” he cut me off as he opened his mouth and to my surprise, he sang to me.

Eyes like a car crash
I know I shouldn't look but I can't turn away.
Body like a whiplash,
Salt my wounds but I can't heal the way
I feel about you.

I smiled at him, as the pain in my chest became a long distant memory, as he gazed down at me, his eyes were full of so much emotion, that I couldn’t even begin to dissect. Love, sorrow, and remorse were amongst them, but that’s just to name a few. I cuddled closer to him and gazed back at him from my spot. He was utterly perfect, he always would be.


I watch you like a hawk
I watch you like I'm gonna tear you limb from limb
Will the hunger ever stop?
Can we simply starve this sin?

Something in those words sent a chill down my spine, I had a gut feeling this song was for me from the start, but what was this a reference too? My past? Or the love we once had?


That little kiss you stole
It held my heart and soul
And like a deer in the headlights I meet my fate
Don't try to fight the storm
You'll tumble overboard
Tides will bring me back to you

A lone tear trickled down his cheek as he spun my hair around his slender fingers, he smiled sadly as he tried to press onwards, I took note of how well he could sing, his voice was intoxicating to say the least.

And on my deathbed, all I'll see is you
The life may leave my lungs
But my heart will stay with youWe were both crying by this point, my emotions finally took me over as he leaned in just that much closer to me, he ran a hand down my shaking chest, and took one hand under my chin and tilted my head up to look him in the eyes. I blinked away the water that was clouding my vision.

That little kiss you stole
It held my heart and soul
And like a ghost in the silence I disappear
Don't try to fight the storm
You'll tumble overboard
Tides will bring me back to you

I choked back a small sob, this was defiantly a song by him, written for us. Not just me, this was a song of all the things that we had pushed through, the words And like a ghost in the silence I disappear ringing in my head, we had kind of just vanished from each others life’s. We had a tragic history together, but that doesn’t matter now, does it?

The waves will pull us under
Tides will bring me back to you
The waves will pull us under
Tides will bring me back to you
The waves will pull us under
Tides will bring me back to you
Tides will bring me back to you

I had to fight the urge to chuckle, this was like he had planned this moment out ahead of time, even though I know he hadn’t. The words, the scenery, it was all so…fitting. This moment was all to perfect.


That little kiss you stole
It held my heart and soul
And like a ghost in the silence I disappear
Don't try to fight the storm
You'll tumble overboard
Tides will bring me back to you

He leaned only inches from my face as he softly sang the words to me, I put an arm up and grabbed the back of his head gently, pushing our foreheads together as best as we could.

That little kiss you stole
It held my heart and soul
And like a deer in the headlights I meet my fate
Don't try to fight the storm
You'll tumble overboard
Tides will bring me back to you

Our lips at long last clashed together, for the first time in over a year I felt like life was coming back to me, not even music could fill the empty hole that was in my heart since the day I last spoke to him. Leaving that room on that day was the hardest decision I ever made, I could only wish I never had to do it again. His lips softly fumbled with mine as we simply held each other close. It wasn’t a rough kiss, but when I felt his teeth tug on my bottom lip I couldn’t suppress the low moan that emitted from my throat, I allowed him to deepen the kiss as he moved to a different angle where my head was resting on the ground and he was able to lay comfortably on my chest. There surprisingly was nothing sexual feeling about the kiss, of course I would love to feel that someday with him, but good things come with time. This was simply a kiss that held every emotion we couldn’t put into words, our heart and soul if you will.
He gently pulled away for air, he rested his head on my chest and I encircled his shaking body with my arms.
"I love you Oli," I muttered softly into his ear, I felt him smile into my chest, before he turned his head, so our eyes could meet once again, he silently planted a small kiss on my cheek, "I love you too, Austin...I'm so proud of you."
I knew then, that every agonizing moment I had spent away from him was worth it, just to have him back in the safety of my arms where nothing could touch us. I would give up my world for him, in a way I already had, I gave up everything I ever knew to chase after a promise I made to him a year ago, but I was so thankful for it. I had a new life now, a new purpose and a new reason to want to live. This was my new world, and with him by my side, I could accomplish anything; game over, the end. With the way we decided to live our lives, we would change not only ourselves, or each other, but all of our fans as well. As we walked hand in hand in silence back to the venue I caught him smiling, as if he had felt the same thing I had. I wasn't sure how long we would have to work to get our relationship back to where we wanted it, I didn't even know what was in store for me even...but I was sure of one thing; We would take this world by storm.

Notes

AN: Song is Deathbeds by Bring Me the Horizon, i think its perfect, okay? :P

There will be once more chapter which will be the Epilogue, I didn’t think this would wrap up so fast though T-T oh man it went everywhere I wanted to take it and further, and I will be terribly sad to kiss the piece goodbye.

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siren