I woke up on my stomach with an arm draped around my back, I looked left and saw Austin on his stomach with his arm around me, I rolled on my back and gently pushed his arm away, I slid on my bra and underwear and looked in the mirror. I traced over my bruised and swollen nose then down to the bruises on my neck, then down to my collar bones and down my stomach, I grabbed onto my upper arms with the opposite hands and squeezed them, a tear fell as I squeezed my eyes shut.
"You're still beautiful" Austin whispered wrapped his long arms around my body and kissed my neck, I pushed his arms away and walked back to the room with him following me "what's wrong? Is it what I said" I turned around and faced him with red crying eyes,
"Everything's wrong" I cried, "I'm not beautiful! Look at me?" I fell to my knees burring my face in my hands, Austin rushed to my side and wrapped his arms around me,
"No listen to me, you're fucking beautiful okay? You don't think so ask ANYONE around you, ask any stranger they won't hesitate to agree"
"James would disagree" I muttered, he lifted my chin up and pecked my lips
"Fuck what James says, I say you're beautiful" he whispered, I smiled weakly and buried my head in his chest.
-
I thanked Austin for last night as he dropped me off back to my hotel room,
"how long are you here for?" He asked
"3 more days starting from tomorrow" I laughed "then I'll probably go back home to-"
"Why?" He cut me off,
"There's nothing here for me" I laughed,
"I'm here?" He smirked,
"Good bye Austin" I laughed, I went to shut the door but his foot stopped it, I opened the door again and looked at him
"You forgot to give me this" he laughed grabbing my face with both hands, when his lips met mine my stomach erupted with a thousand butterflies, I pulled Austin down and kissed him harder, I pulled away from him dragging my hand along his arms until our fingertips were the last things to touch. I looked back at him then looked back forwards, I made my way down to my room stripping off my clothes in the process, I crawled looked in the mirror and scruffed up my already messy hair.
Austin entered the room smirking as he tore off his top and pants, I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed the corner of his lips, he picked me up and threw me on the bed, he crawled his way up to me placing kisses all over my body, he kissed my collarbone and neck as I arched my back for him to unclasp my bra, he rubbed over my nipple piercing and placed his lips on mine, as our tongues were wrestling I started rolling my hips against his. I reached down and pulled down his briefs, I grabbed his member and started pumping it, Austin moaned against my lips and pulled away, I smirked and leaned up to kiss his nose, I pulled my hand away from his member and wrapped both arms around his neck lacing my fingers together, my mouth felt lonely so I re-connected our lips, I felt his hands slide from my knee up to my pant line, he wrapped his fingers in the side and pulled them down when he couldn't pull them down any farther I kicked them down. I pushed Austin onto his back and started placing a line of kisses from his lips to his briefs, I slowly pulled them down and watched his penis spring up when they came free, I wrapped my hand around his penis and slowly started pumping it, I kissed his tip and licked off the pre-cum, I licked from the base of his penis up to his tip before taking him whole.
After sucking Austin off for a bit I pulled him out of my mouth making a popping noise, I smirked and crawled back up to Austin's face, I brushed away some hair on his face and kissed him, he flipped us over so he was on top, he brought one of my legs up over his shoulder and I propped up my other leg while he positioned himself. He thrusted into me and kept going without giving me time to adjust, Austin and I kept our gazes fixated on each other the whole time, one of my hands entwined with his hair whilst my other hand clutched onto my propped up leg, Austin kept his hand on my hip whilst his other hand was holding onto the head board. Austin started thrusting more faster and I couldn't keep up, he was driving me crazy, my hand dropped from his hair to his shoulder, I dug my nails in his back and bit my bottom lip as I begun to feel myself tightening around him.
"I-I'm close" I stuttered out, he smirked and placed his lips on mine, Austin began to thrust into me even harder and faster then he slowed down and picked up the pace, "I'm not going until you're ready" I whimpered out,
"I know" he chuckled, his next few thrusts were becoming lazy and sloppy so I released the pit in my stomach moaning out in pleasure, I pulled Austin's face down to mine from his hair and kissed him, I rolled my hips against his then he pulled out and came all over my stomach.
"Even better than the first time" he laughed rolling off of me
"Might even be your last time too" I joked, Austin leaned on the floor and grabbed his phone out of his jeans pocket.
"Oh shit, I go to go I'm late for practice" he grabbed my face and kissed me before leaving and hurriedly putting on his clothes, I rolled out of bed grabbed my smokes and turned on the water for a bath, I put my smokes next to the basin and went to grab me my phone, ear phones and some clean clothes. When I got back the water was ready to go I stepped into the bath and put my earphones in immediately blasting three days grace - I hate everything about you, I rested my phone on the side of the bath and pulled out a smoke, I put it in between my lips and lit it.
I closed my eyes and let it all go, all my worries and stresses, James, my bruises, work; which I have tomorrow.
I took a long drag of my smoke and flicked the ashes on the floor, I opened my eyes and watched the smoke wander off into the air.
-
I woke up choking on cold water, I sat up ripping my earphones out my ears leaning over the side spitting and coughing up water, I looked down at my now wrinkly body, I wiped my mouth and sat up almost falling because I hadn't used my legs in a while, I wrapped a towel around me and brought my clothes back out to the room, I dried myself off and slipped on some undies, bandeau and a baggy black jumper that comes down to my knees. I walked out to the kitchen area and turned the jug on for a coffee, I jogged back to the bathroom and grabbed my phone, I had a text from Austin
From Austin
I need to see you later xo
To Austin
Sure, just text me the details unless you want to come over xo
From Austin
Alan will be over at 7 to pick you up, wear anything because you look good in everything :) xo
To Austin
Do I even have a say in this? Xo
From Austin
Sadly, no ;) xo
I shook my head and walked over to my bed and flopped down on it, the time was only 3PM so I had a few hours to spare, I sat up and tore the jumper off from my body, I walked over to my suitcase which had all my clothes pouring out of it. I took off my bandeau and replaced it with a bra, I pulled out some bow tie shorts and a small tight fitting black crop top and a beanie, I walked over to my traveling bag which was full of all my shoes, I pulled out a pair of black wedges and slipped them on. I slung my bag over my shoulder, made sure I had my smokes, wallet and phone, I headed out the door locking it behind me and started walking to a cafe down the road, I had my car in the parking lot but there was no need to use it.
I ordered myself a flat white and got a free muffin, I sat there eating my muffin when a male figure appeared across me, I looked up and saw Aaron smiling at me,
“Hey!” He exclaimed
“Hi Aaron” I laughed “what are you doing here?”
“Muffins! Their muffins are great here” he said holding up a box of muffins “you're coming out with us tonight, right?” I nodded,
“What do I wear? Dress, casual, classy?” I laughed,
“Casual, but not too casual” he stood up and held his arms out for a hug,
“Goodbye Aaron” I smiled giving him a hug, I sat back down and finished off my muffin, I took down the rest of my drink and went to the bathrooms to see how I looked. Terrible. Ugh, why did I even have to go out without any makeup on.
-
I had another quick shower to freshen up, I took my hair out from the bun it was in to prevent it from getting wet and messed it up a little, I got changed into what I was wearing tonight and did my make and shit like that, by the time I was done it was 5 to 7, I looked in the mirror one last time and quickly brushed my teeth and sprayed myself with perfume, by the time I was done Alan was impatiently waiting at the door. I grabbed my bag and opened the door flashing a cheesy smile and the ginger,
“Shall we?” He asked holding out his arm for me to join,
“We shall” I responded, linking arms with him all the way to the elevator, “where are we off too on this fine night?” I asked
“TO CELEBRATE!” Alan screamed running out of the elevator with one arm in the air and the other arm swaying by his side, he stopped at the front door and held it open for me and other people who passed through before I did, Alan led me to a black nissan parked outside the hotel, Austin stepped out of the car and greeted me with a hug and a kiss on the cheek; he opened up the back door and I got in followed by him, Alan got in the passenger and Tino was driving.
“Where are the others?” I asked
Meeting us there” Austin smiled
“Why is everyone treating me like um... I'm dying?” I laughed at the fact that that's not exactly what I meant to say, no one answered my question just turned up the radio even louder and ignored me.
-
“We always drink!” I shouted to Austin over the music,
“This is the party life okay!” He shouted back, I laughed and leaned over the table and gave him a sloppy wet kiss, I pulled back and held on to his shoulders and studied his face, his eyes were so beautiful to watch the world in, the colours from the club flashing in his eyes, they were a rich dark brown colour which I always felt safe every time I looked into them.
I let go of his shoulders sitting back down where I was, I left my hands on the table and Austin brought his up to mine and laced our fingers,
“Cara-Lee can I asked you something?” I nodded and squeezed his hands tighter, “will you go out with me?” He asked, “I mean, will you be my girlfriend?”
I was a bit taken back by his question, my heart and brain were telling me yes but my conscience was telling me what if he's just like James once you dig deeper? What about James? It hasn't even been a month and you're looking at moving forwards.
“Y-yes” I blurted out, completely ignoring everything my conscience had just told me, Austin smiled and pulled me out of the booth and into the most romantic, passionate, half-drunk, sloppiest kiss ever, I relaxed and kissed him back wrapping my arms around his neck, I pulled my head back and he kissed my nose, I laughed and nuzzled my head into his neck, Austin moved his arms from my face to my middle and pulled me up spinning me around in a circle.
“Austin put me down!” I squealed over the music,
“Never” he mumbled placing me on my feet,
“You just did” I winked, I grabbed his hand and pulled him out on the dance floor.

Notes

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