I want to be with Austin, yet I just want to be alone. The sun was starting to set and I was still walking around, so I decided to head back to the bus. When I got to the bus I went straight to my bunk not even looking at any of the guys. I had my headphones in and the music turned all the way up before I could even lay down in my bunk. I reached up to pull a star off the ceiling of my bunk, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. Taking the stars down, it'd be like me admitting that me and Austin aren't ever going to get back together. What if we don't get back together? What would I do? I was shaken out of my thoughts by someone tapping my shoulder, "You'll go deaf if you keep listening to your music at that volume." It was Alan, I didn't even have to look up to know that it was him.

"Alan, I have my music up at this volume so that nobody talks to me. I want to be alone with my thoughts. I just need to think. I just need, I just need I need Austin. I don't want him, I need him. I need him..." I started crying, but when Alan went to hold me I pushed him away.

"No, no." I just kept shaking my head at head and he left, I put my headphones back in and turned towards the wall and started crying. I just want everything to be back to normal again, I just want everything bad that has ever happened to just go away. I felt someone get into the bed and thinking it was Alan I pulled out my headphones,

"Go away Alan. I told you. I don't want to talk. I don't want to talk to you. I need Austin and you aren't him. And he isn't going to come back to me. So please just leave me alone." His arms wrapped around me and I saw the tattoos on his hands. It wasn't Alan. I didn't think I'd be so happy to see some tattoos.

"I never left you. I'm right here." He buried my head into my shoulder and brushed my hair away from my neck and started kissing. I rolled over to face him and started kissing him, I missed this so much, I ran my hands through his hair pulling him into me. I lifted his shirt over his head my hands running down his chest. He followed and took off my shirt, and unhooked my bra. Before we did anything else he leaned his head out of the bunk and yelled,

"Hey, uh, why don't you guys go get some food or just you know, leave the bus."He looked back over at me with a huge grin on his face, "Ciara, I missed you so much." I pulled him close to me again, he kissed me slowly then it was rough, and deep. I reached down, unbuttoning his jeans, he pulled them down,

"Phil won't walk in on us this time." He laughed and moved his hands down my sides and pushed his hands in between my thighs. Without breaking the kiss I pulled off my jeans. I grabbed him and started to rub, he pulled off his boxers and got on top of me, guiding himself in.

The next morning when I woke up Austin was still asleep, his arms wrapped tightly around my waist. It was dark out and the guys were either still gone or asleep. so I carefully climbed out of bed, making sure not to wake up Austin. I picked up my underwear and Austin's shirt and slipped them on. After walking around the bus for a few minutes, I decided to get back into bed.

When I woke up Austin was looking at me, "You look so much better in that shirt than I ever have." I wrinkled me nose at him,

"What's wrong?" I didn't answer just kept the look on my face.

"Your breath is horrible." His eyes got wide and he started to laugh then kissed me. I pushed him away and we were both laughing, he got up put on his boxers and brushed his teeth. Then brought me my toothbrush with toothpaste on it and a plastic cup. I brushed my teeth right there in bed. When I was down he picked me up bridal style and carried me to the back lounge. We sat there for hours just watching Disney movies and kissing.

"I missed you so much. When I kissed Alan and I realized that I was losing you I couldn't handle it." My eyes started to get watery and one tear slipped then another, then it was like the dam had burst. I was sobbing, I couldn't stop crying Austin was holding me and I still couldn't stop crying. Next thing I know Austin was letting go and someone else was holding me. I had my head buried in his chest and I stopped crying. When I looked up it was Alan holding me.

Notes

So yeah that slight sex scene was pretty horrible. Sorry.
TITLE CREDIT- Paramore