A Life Worth Living

My eyes were so blurred with tears, I didn’t notice the car or heard it honking. All I heard were tires screeching and a crunch of metal. Suddenly, I was surrounded by nothingness. The world abruptly turned upside down and the dark cloudy sky disappeared beneath me. A sharp ringing burned my ears, everything around me was echoed. I faintly heard sirens as I tried to scream for help, I even thought I heard Austin’s voice scream through the cluttered noise. My eyes became heavy and I became more weary.

“Charlotte Are you okay? Can you hear me?” Austin’s voice push passed all the rest.
“Austin..” I screamed as loud as my voice let me, but it came out as nothing more than a simple whisper in the wind.

The world around me turned black when my eyelids became weights. It’s as if someone flipped a switch shutting everything near me off. I could no longer hear Austin, the sirens, or the chaos in the background. I couldn’t feel the windshield against my cheek or the seat belt that cut off my circulation. My skin began to tingle and went numb. The only thing I could see in the darkness was the memory of Austin’s face when I told him. Maybe, I never should have told him to begin with. How was I to know that he would react that way? As if everything was a mistake.
I know we never talked about kids but I figured he would want them someday. Someday just came sooner than I thought. I was hoping he would be excited or even happy. I was excited. I was excited to see a little version of Austin or a small version of myself running around. To come home after a long day and see him or her. But Austin was right, we’re both too busy to handle a baby. He’s doing photoshoots, interviews, and is going on tour pretty soon. I’ll be on a different tour taking photos for a couple bands and also designing tattoos. Between all of that how are we supposed to handle a baby..?
*Beep, beep, beeeep* I felt a shock go through my body as I heard bustling past me. A bright light practically burned through my eyelids. I started to feel a tightness around my nose and mouth. I felt a coolness on my face. Soon, I could feel cold and calloused fingers trail across my warm cheeks. I heard a voice, barely even a whisper, in my ear, I couldn’t make out who it was or what they said. I could feel my lungs filling with clean air, I could see shadows moving to and fro. I could hear a monitor beeping with my every heartbeat, practically beating through my chest. My eyelids felt free again, they’re no longer anchors but the seaweed floating through the waves.

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