My Understandings

2 weeks after looking for Austin. I didn't have his phone number because he had obviously changed it. I had no way of finding him. I got a new phone myself and I was living with Aaron. We were practically bestfriends.
I had a job, not the best job but it was still a job. I worked in a music store so that wasn't too bad. Aaron was in his band and working behind a bar.
One day he came home and said something to me and praise this man because I had completely forgotten about it.
The door closed behind him and he jumped on the sofa with me, I was watching Beavis and Butthead and he threw his phone in my face "Dude, have you checked out Tumblr? its amazing!"
My face looked like it got hit with a bus. I had completely forgotten that tumblr existed.I sat in shock as Aaron asked me if I was okay. HOW THE FUCK DID I FORGET ABOUT TUMBLR.
I fell off the couch in a hurry and scurried over to my phone and immediately downloaded it. I remembered my login thankfully and my askbox was full.
I wasn't bothering with the askbox yet, I checked Austins account straight away but he had changed his URL. So i had to search through my profile to find the link to his. He had changed it to 'omamAus10' I scrolled down to where the post I saw last was and read up. Too see whats been going on.

"I had the best night with my little ginger prince. ♥ nothing can compare" It made my heart melt and a massive grin appear on my face. It was from when we.. yknow.
"My last day in this town and he's nowhere to be seen"
"Still nothing"
"Is this how much I mean to him?"
no no no no
There were not posts for a while after that. But the next photo was of him and Jax with the caption of. "We started a band Of Mice & Men, check us out"
There was then a picture of him and the whole band with the caption of "Jax, Phil, Tino, Jon & Me"
Then another but with a different guy. "Jon quit but we have this guy now! Welcome Shay"
After that post there were loads of picture of him and this Shayley guy with captions of "He helped me move on ♥" "what a guy ♥" "shay♥shay♥shay" my smile soon dropped, tears formed in my eyes, my heart broke once again. H-He was with s-someone else?
Everything I did, everything I went through to get here, just to realize that he had a new boyfriend. Not like he even asked me to be his boyfriend before but h-he. All I could think of was that he was just using me. As something to bone and when he finally did he didn't want anything to do with me, he had someone else.
Nothing was making sense, I fell onto the floor in a mess. I was a mess. Aaron immediately came over to me to comfort me. I explained everything to him and he had no words for me.

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