Would You Still Be There?

I was really surprised that my dad didn't mind that I'd lost my virginity; especially since Austin & I haven't even been dating for very long.

We were going to leave, & I was standing on Austin's porch when he tugged on my arm. I turned around, hearing the footsteps of my dad & siblings cease to a halt. I smiled up at him, placing both of my hands on his chest. Austin smiled down at me, gripping my hips & kissing me. He pulled me closer, his crotch hitting mine, making him groan. I laughed against his lips, making him laugh as well.

"I'll see you tomorrow," I said, a smile painted on my lips. Austin ceased my giggling with a kiss.

He let me go, & I approached Anthony. He smirked at me, & I crossed my arms & walked past him. I stepped next to my dad, walking beside him. He nudged me, & I looked up at him.

"I think Austin is perfect for you," he said. I smiled, looking down at my feet as I walked.

"Thanks, dad," I said. We arrived back at home within five minutes, my aunt rushing over to me to make sure I was okay.

"Where were you!? You left with that boy & didn't come back!" She exclaimed. Elizabeth chuckled.

"She was too busy getting her brains fucked out," she snickered. My face heated up as my uncle entered the room. I heard Anthony elbow her, followed by a grunt of pain.

"Oh!" My aunt exclaimed, & I nodded, turning around to glare at my sister.

"So, Austin is your boyfriend?" She asked me.

"Yeah. He is," I said, walking over to the living room & sitting on the couch. I readjusted Austin's shirt that I was wearing as I pulled out my phone. It rang in my hand, making me jump slightly. I recognized the number as Kylee's, & I rolled my eyes before answering.

"Hello?" I asked, standing up & retreating to my room. I closed & locked the door behind me, placing my free hand on my hip.

"Look, I don't want to draw this out, so-"

"Then don't," I said simply. She let out a frustrated groan, & I sighed, because she was wasting my time.

"I'm sorry," she said bitterly.

"For what? I ended the friendship," I said.

"I know that. I'm just sorry," she said, & she hung up. I shrugged & tossed my phone onto the nightstand beside my bed. I collapsed onto my bed, thinking about yesterday & how good Austin made me feel. I bit my lip, desperately wanting to feel that good again, but I knew I wouldn't be able to do it by myself.

~~

School was back in session two weeks later, & I was extremely frustrated because Austin & I hadn't had sex again. We hadn't gotten the opportunity, & it really sucked.

So, when Austin arrived to pick me up, he could tell I was frustrated. He walked with me to school, out hands clasped together.

"We just don't have the opportunity," he told me.

"I know, but I just want to feel something!" You made me feel so good!" I complained, & he chuckled.

"How about this... I grabbed some condoms this morning, so how about at lunch, we find somewhere private, & we have sex," he suggested. I smiled.

"Well, if you have more than one condom... we could do it before school... during lunch... maybe even after," I joked, causing Austin to laugh. He kissed me as we approached the school.

We walked around campus, & Austin suggested the unisex bathroom. I shook my head, because school bathrooms are fucking disgusting. We gave up & headed over to our friend group, sitting down with frustrated sighs. They all noticed, but didn't say anything.

"Hey guys," Ben said. I looked at him & smiled, then I turned to Austin & pulled him in for a kiss. He deepened it, pushing his tongue in my mouth, meeting mine. Without thinking, I climbed into his lap, straddling him & grinding down onto his crotch, causing him to groan. He slid his hands to my ass, holding me in place securely. The table went quiet, but I didn't care. I was so in the mood.

"What are they doing?" One of them whispered.

"Ladies & gents, it appears to me that they had sex for the first time, so they're craving it & can't keep their hands off of each other," Ben informed them. He was right.

Austin slipped his cold hands up the back of my shirt, giving me goosebumps along my whole body.

"Howbdo you know?" Another asked.

"A little birdie told me they heard a certain someone scream out Austin's name a couple weeks ago," Ben said. I froze, pulling my lips off of Austin's.

"Babe, who's your neighbor?" I asked, watching as he facepalmed.

"Kylee is," he said. I groaned. No wonder she'd called me... but why did she apologize?

"& I heard EVERYTHING." I swirled around, glaring at my former best friend.

"What do you want?" I asked as Austin snaked his arms around my waist.

"Well, I'd called to apologize, because, well, the whole school has seen you two have sex. I recorded it. Oops," she said with an annoying laugh as she held the video up in front of my face. My jaw dropped & my eyes filled with tears. I looked around the cafeteria, noticing everyone's eyes on Austin & I. My face grew red & hot, my breathing quickened, & I was looking around frantically as they all laughed & stared.

There was arguing among my friends & Kylee for her to take down the video. What the Hell was I going to do?

I stood up, grabbing my things & pulling Austin up with me, numbly pushing the doors of the cafeteria open, wiping warm tears away as I did so. Everywhere I looked, there were people staring, & others were laughing.

I was living in a nightmare.

Austin tugged me along, walking me off campus towards my aunt & uncle's. I was a hot, crying mess by the time Austin & I stepped over the threshold.

I fell into his arms as soon as the door was shut, & I sobbed into his chest.

"What's going on!?" Elizabeth asked from behind me. I could hear four pairs of footsteps, & I knew we had a small audience. I turned around, wiping my eyes furiously as Austin pulled me against his chest.

"Everyone knows," I said with a shake of my head.

"Everyone knows what?" My dad asked. I let out another sob before answering.

"Everyone knows we had sex! Kylee heard us & recorded it! Everyone saw it!" I exclaimed, collapsing to the floor in a crying heap. Austin knelt down next to me, pressing a soft kiss to my temple while rubbing my back.

"I'm gonna kick her ass! Elizabeth yelled, "no one messes with my baby sister & gets away with it. That's my job." That only made me cry harder, & Austin picked me up bridal style, & he let me wrap my arms around his neck. He carried me back to my room, setting me down on my bed gently. I clung onto his shirt, & he cuddled up next to me, wrapping me up in his arms. I sobbed into his chest, & he shushed me while he rubbed my lower back. He pressed a soft kiss against my forehead while tangling his legs with mine.

How could something so good turn so bad?

~~

Two weeks. Two weeks I stayed home from school. My dad, my aunt, my uncle, my siblings & Austin were doing everything they could to get the situation sorted out, but it seemed the office & the principle couldn't do anything until they spoke to me. Austin was telling me about his days at school, letting me know about all the suicide jokes people were making. I wouldn't kill myself because of this, but I wasn't going to show my face until completely necessary, & it seemed that time was coming up, & fast.

"Cassie, you need to get up. Austin's going to be here in twenty minutes," my dad said, turning on my bedroom light & stepping into the room. I groaned, rolling onto my back & rubbing my eyes. I heard him leave, & I threw my covers off of me, letting the cold air embrace my bare skin. I grabbed my bathrobe off of the back of my door, & I put it on, tying it around my waist. My head was pounding as I padded down the hallway towards the bathroom.

I looked at myself in the bathroom mirror, cringing at my appearance. My eyes were red & puffy, whatever makeup that was on my face from the past two weeks smeared. I removed my bathrobe, hanging it up on the door before looking at my body.

I had hardly eaten, & I was starving. I could see my hip bones, noticing they were sticking out more than usual. I sighed, tearing my eyes away as I turned around to start the shower.
When I got out of the shower, I wrapped myself up in a towel, drying my face & taking a deep breath.

I walked back to my room, quickly getting dressed & drying my hair. I walked back to the bathroom, hanging my towel up & immediately starting to brush out my hair. I then applied some mascara to my lashes before brushing my teeth & retrieving a pair of socks & my black converse, which I put on. There was a knock on the front door, & I answered it, letting Austin in & welcoming him in with a tight hug. He rubbed my back soothingly, calming me down slightly.

"I need to eat... then we'll leave," I muttered, my voice hoarse. Austin nodded, following me into the kitchen. I quickly made a bowl of cereal, eating it as fast as I could. When I was done, I set my bowl in the sink, & I grabbed my bag, following Austin out the door. He grabbed my hand, lacing his fingers through mine delicately. I sighed as we walked, not ready for the day ahead of me.

We arrived at school minutes later, & I tried to desperately hide myself by pushing myself into Austin's side. People stared as we walked by, making me feel extremely self-conscious about myself. I stopped walking, making Austin stop as well.

"I can't. I can't do this!" I exclaimed quietly, looking around frantically. Austin shushed me while pulling me against his chest as I let out quiet sobs.

"You have to, baby. You just have to," Austin said quietly. How could I walk around knowing most of the school had seen me naked? I've only had sex once & I already felt like a whore.

~~

Austin walked me to my first period, & we arrived just as the tardy bell rang. He kissed me goodbye, leaving me alone for the first time today. I sighed & smoothed out the shirt I was wearing, which happened to be one of Austin's, & I smiled slightly, but that smile disappeared when I grabbed the handle on the door. I took a deep breath & pulled the door open, catching everyone's attention. I rested my back against the door after it swung shut, my eyes sweeping over the room full of students.

"Miss Barnett," my teacher said, sounding surprised that I was there, "welcome back." My gaze met hers, & I didn't move as everyone stared at me.

"Thought you'd killed yourself, whore," someone piped up.

"That is enough, Danielle!" My teacher shouted suddenly as I inhaled a sharp breath. Miss Cameron walked over to me, handing me a green slip of paper.

"They want you in the office, sweetheart. I'd go if I were you," she told me quietly. I swallowed thickly with a nod, not making any means to move. She led me outside, pulling me into her arms suddenly. I wrapped my arms around her, returning her hug & squeezing my eyes shut.

"I'm so sorry. You didn't deserve any of that," she said. I pulled away, looking up at her with a sigh.

"I guess that's what I get for ending a friendship," I said solemnly. Miss Cameron shook her head.

"Don't talk like that. Nothing is your fault. Now go. They need you in the office as soon as possible," she said. I nodded & left her standing there, walking to the office with only negative thoughts.

I entered the office, requesting to see the principle, & I was led straight through to his office. He looked up, smiling at me as the door was closed.

"Miss Barnett, please take a seat," he told me, & I did as as he said, my hands shaking with nerves.

"Could you possibly get Austin down here? I kind of need him right now," I said quietly. Mr. Smith nodded, standing up & leaving his office for a minute before returning.

Austin showed up five minutes later, sitting down next to me while taking my hand. I took a deep breath.

"Okay Cassidy. I'm just going to ask you a few questions, okay? Nothing too difficult," Mr. Smith said, & I nodded in understanding.

"You know the person who did this, correct?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. Kylee Garvin," I said. Mr. Smith nodded.

"Could you tell me if there was any reason she would have done this?"

"Yeah. I'm quite sure she did it because I ended our friendship a while back. It seemed she was interested in Austin, because she saw the two of us kiss, & she stormed away looking slightly jealous," I said, squeezing Austin's hand. Mr. Smith nodded again.
"I think that is it, Miss Barnett. We'll call you up if we need any more information. But until then, I'm going to have a talk with Miss Garvin about her removing the video & consequences. You two have a wonderful day," He said. Austin & I left, him pulling me into his side as we exited the office.

"I hope she doesn't get off Scott-free," I muttered as Austin walked me back to class.

"I doubt she will, Cassie. What she did was way bad," Austin said. I nodded as we arrived at my class, & Austin pulled the door open, following me inside, one hand on my hip.

"I have something to say," he said, catching me & everyone else by surprise. He looked at Miss Cameron who nodded for him to continue, & Austin cleared his throat while pulling me against him.

"If any of you want to call my girlfriend a whore for losing her virginity, you can say hello to my fist. I won't tolerate that shit, you hear me? & I'm sure most of you have lost your virginity, so wouldn't that make you hypocrites? Don't give me any bullshit excuses either. All of you just want to fit in. Realize that sex is a beautiful thing, & to go around sleeping with every male or female rather than a partner is a waste. Sex is about love & trust, & Cassie, I seriously think I'm falling in love with you," Austin said, looking down at me rather than everyone else. I gasped, my eyes filling with tears. I pushed Austin outside, placing my lips against his hungrily.

He pushed me against the wall, placing a hand on the small of my back & the other on the back of my neck. Our lips moved together slowly, Austin's tongue pressing against my bottom lip. However, I broke the kiss & looked up at him.

"You love me?" I asked quietly as butterflies fluttered in my stomach. He grinned down at me.

"Yeah. Yeah I do. I love you, Cassie," Austin said.

"I love you too, Austin," I said softly.

Notes

Oh my god this took forever. But, it's nice and long because I left you guys hanging for three months before the last two chapters, and I'm sorry. I'd love it if you guys would comment, though! :)