The First Punch

Today was the last tour date, in Mesa, AZ. It actually was a beautiful day, despite having it be 1:30pm and Ray and I having gone through 8 sweat soaked shirts combined. Ray has really become a bitch in the past 3 weeks. The band should’ve just finished playing their set and they might be by here soon.
Oh and just to kind of fill you in… You can’t talk about Vic to Ray.. Or she might attack you. It turns out Ray had cheated on Vic with Elmakias. And when Adam found out that she was with Vic he went straight to Vic to tell and apologize to him. Vic didn’t blame Adam, though he was rightfully pissed at Ray. And that day broke up with her. He told her she couldn’t sleep on the bus anymore and was to ride with the merch like she had before. Vic basically acted like she had never existed and never talked nor made eye contact with her.
“Oh fucking look.. Another shirt I have to change.” She was so fucking whiny and annoying now. I mean we had all gone to school with her but now she was just fucking annoying. She pulled her shirt off and searched for a new one. As she had her back turned the boys were walking to our text. A huge crowd of fans were with them, they hadn’t seen me looking at them.
“Mine’s soaked too. By the by.. Band is coming.” I pulled off my crop top and she quickly pulled on a merch shirt and turned quick. She adjusted her shirt as the boys came to the tent.
“Oh hot damn Axl! You gonna put on a shirt?” Tony laughed, I was in a bikini top so I just decided to just wear that with my cut up jean shorts and bright blue Vans that Tony had gotten for me. I turned around to see the boys all shirtless (except Jaime, he had a tank top on). Tony looked good.. He went around the table and came towards me. He grabbed at the back of my neck and pulled me into a kiss.. and that kiss turned into making out which then turned to fans swarming. But we didn’t pull away.
“You know you have to pay for that shirt… It’s not fucking free.. Especially not for you.” I could hear Vic say. The crowd started to drown out Vic and Ray talking. But I assume it wasn’t friendly if they did talk.
“Oh my God Jaime!!! Sign my shirt!!” A fangirl screamed. And I assume he signed it because I heard, “OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!"
“Mike fuck me!” Once I heard this I pulled away from Tony and watched. I looked around and didn’t see Ray but Vic was there. Ugh Mike could never say no to a girl that would spread her legs for him..
“Uh..” Mike leaned in to whisper in her ear. She nodded, then nodded again, then nodded again. And Mike full on kissed her on the lips. All the fans quickly pulled out their phones and took pictures. They kept kissing until Mike pulled away took her by the hand and they ran, to the bus I assume. I rolled my eyes and Tony kissed me again hard on the lips.
“You are so beautiful.” He said quietly pulling my body closer to his and we started to make out again. I assumed now all the cameras were on us. But we weren’t camera shy. I never was when I was with Mike.. And I’m still not with Tony. I pulled away from Tony and and smiled.
“OMG TONY CAN YOU SIGN MY SHOE?!” Another fangirl screamed. He looked at me, smiled and walked to her. I walked to the table and sat in the chair. I started to space out and my mind was wandering.
I was never camera shy because I was a SuicideGirl.. which was basically alternative modeling. Since I had almost 2 full sleeves, some-uh-other tattoos, stretched ears, and other piercings. I used to dye my hair all the time but I haven’t in like a year cause it’s so dead. But anyways I’m one of the top SuicideGirls and pinup models, when I’m not doing merch shit. When we get back home I have a shoot for a huge magazine.
This is one of the reasons Mike liked to be with me, so he could go around showing all of my pictures to his friends.. My name.. May Berry. Tony knows about all this because Mike had shown him one of my pictures. Well Mike only caring about my pictures was mainly the reason that Vic and I hooked up. Mike was busy at a bar so he had Vic pick me up from a photo shoot .. And I just had a robe on, with all of my lingerie underneath. My makeup was still done and so was my hair. I never carried a key with me to shoots, so he took me to his place. I was eating some food while Vic went to his room to work on his computer. I just couldn’t resist it. I untied my robe and let it fall to the ground. Slipped out of my heels and walked lightly to the door of his room. It was cracked so I gently pushed it open. I stood in the doorway as Vic looked at me. He put his laptop on the bedside table and sat up straight in bed. I walked to his bed and crawled onto it.
"Uh... Alex what are you doing?" Vic questioned as I got on top of him.
"Oh come on you know you want it.." I said taking off his hat.
"Yes I do... You're amazing but uh... We don't tell anyone about this.. Deal?"
"Deal." I giggled then I pulled off his shirt and started to--- I quickly snapped out of my haze and looked at Vic who was trying to get my attention. He laughed.
"Alex what are you thinking about? You really spaced out hardcore." He said looking at me while fans swarmed Jaime and Tony. One girl came to Vic and asked if she could hug him. He nodded and pulled her in for a hug. When she pulled away she introduced herself to Vic and they got into a short conversation. She then left and the crowd started to clear out.
Tony came around the table and I stood up so he could sit down. After he sat down he patted his lap and I sat down. Then Vic and Jaime raced to the empty seat.. Jaime got there first and without hesitation Vic sat on his lap. Vic turned his head dramatically and looked into Jaimes' eyes.
"I'm Lian now..." And everyone started laughing... "Fuck you I'm not getting up." Vic said seriously but kind of jokingly.
"You're ass is bony as fuck.. Ugh gooooooo!" Jaime whined. And we were all still laughing. A fan then came up to the tent. She was crying and only wearing a bra, short shorts, and slip on vans. She was trying to talk to us but we couldn't understand. I then got up and went to her to comfort her. I brought a shirt to cover her up and she pulled it on.
"Sweetie are you okay? Let's just calm down and tell me what happened." I tried to soothe her, the guys had gotten up from the chairs and let us sit down. They went to the back of the tent and watched. After about 5 minutes her tears had slowed down and practically stopped. "Do you want to talk now?" I said putting my hand on her knee. She sniffled.
"Well u-Uhm I was the girl that left with Mike. Long story short he asked if I was 18, I said yes. Then he found out I was only 16 and he just went crazy." She sniffled again, pulling at the shirts hem. I shook my head and turned to look at the guys. Vic and Tony were shaking their heads and Jaime had his hands on the top of his head and he was also shaking his head. I saw Vic lean to Tony and he said something. Tony nodded his head smiling and Jaime laughed and shook his head too. “Uhm I think I’m going to leave. Thank you so much for helping me.” She reached into her pocket and pulled out $20. She handed it to me, smiled and walked out of the tent towards the exit.
“What the fuck is up with Mike?” Jaime asked sitting down next to me. Tony came over, I got up then he sat down in my seat. He patted his lap and I sat down.
“I’m going to the bus to figure out what’s up.. It’s better if I go alone so we can just talk.” Vic said going to the front of the table.
“Vic you can’t do that. At least let us come and stand outside of the bus.” Jaime said.
“Dude I’ll be fine. Just brother to brother. It’s better that way.” Vic said walking towards where the bus is.
“Do you think he will figure out what’s going on with Mike?” I asked and Jaime nodded.
“Usually they figure each other out.” He said.
It was 7:00 now and Vic still wasn’t back. It had been 4 hours and like 30 minutes and he still wasn’t back, Tony had gone to watch MIW and to catch up with the guys. It was now just Jaime and I waiting for a sign from Vic or for Tony to come back.
“What happened to Ray?” I asked turning to Jaime.
“She said she was done being our merch girl. And she left. Maybe you could talk to Lian or one of your model friends about the position.” Jaime explained and I nodded and could tell I looked a little relieved because he was looking at me strangely.
“I mean I loved Ray. But after that whole thing with Vic and her just becoming a little bitch I kinda just started to hate her.” I said looking up to see a bunch of screaming fans all facing the left.
“What the fuck is going on?” Jaime asked and I shrugged. We kept looking, then we realized that there was a mob of people because All Time Low was walking through. As they passed our tent slowly Jack smiled and he pushed his way through the crowd. I got up from my seat and ran to him. I jumped up into his arms and he swung me around. When he put me down I didn’t want to let go of him. He held me in his arms and kissed me on the top of my head. Even though we always see each other we act like we haven’t see each other in like 5 years.
“Hello Alexandria, how has this day treated you?” We pulled away and I smiled at his use of words.
“I’m actually pretty chill today. We still on for chillin at Evolution?” He laughed.
“We always hang out at vegan restaurants! When can we go for ribs?!” He whined and I punched him in the arm. I looked behind him and it looked like ATL was having an impromptu signing. “Just kidding!!” He said rubbing his arm. I laughed and saw we had a line of customers now.
“I gotta go dude. This lines crazy.” I smiled, gave him a quick hug, and went to the table. Jaime was trying to sell stuff and sign stuff. I took on a few customers and sold a few shirts to just one girl. The end of this crazy non stop line of customers couldn’t come any faster.. Just as it was turning 8 the line disappeared and I saw some tents starting to pack up. OM&M was right across from us and right now their tent was down and all of their merch was gone except for one shirt on the table and like 20 wrist bands. In just 10 minutes there were only 5 or so wrist bands left and the tee shirt was gone.
I looked at our tent and Jaime and Tony were to help me take it down because Ray was gone. Tony had just gotten back when we started to take down the tent, he had brought Ryan with him and he helped take down the tent too. The boys all took down the tent while I crushed boxes. We had no shirts left and only 1 wrist band. I took the wrist band for Melody, a fellow SG, because she is in love with the band. After the tent was all down all we had left to do was just clean up and take the table down. The guys disassembled the table while I went around and picked up trash. As I looked around I found my crop top and slid it on.
We were all done by now with everything gone from our space and we all headed to our busses. We all got to the PTV bus and Ryan had branched off earlier to go to the MIW bus. When we got onto the bus we saw Mike and Vic sitting next to each other, laughing. Then they looked at us and kept laughing.
"Hey guys.. What's up?" I asked looking to them.
"Nothin much Alex just watching this fuckin show! It's hilarious.." Mike stated looking at me. I slightly smiled and looked at Mike. What did Vic do to Mike?? He seems so content. “Uh Alex can I have a quick word with you in the back?” He asked. As I started to walk to the back behind Mike, Tony grabbed my wrist.
“Want me to stand outside of the door?” He asked looking scared. I shook my head and he let go. I continued to the back and shut the door behind us.
“So Alex.. Our relationship was shit and, I’ll admit I was the fucking worst asshole ever. I did unimaginable things to you and I really fucked up your mental state. I did tons of shit to you, even though I knew what you had been through. I’m so sorry Alex. I know you won’t accept an apology for what I did to you for like 3 years. But I just want you to know Alex, I’m done being a prick. I’ve learned a hard lesson and I understand if you don’t want to talk to me anymore. I regret every little thing I did to you.. I’m so sorry Alex.” He said not breaking eye contact with me the whole time. He stepped back and sat on the couch with his head in his hands. It looked like he was going to start crying.
“Can I just ask you one question Mike?” He nodded and looked up with a tear streaming down his left cheek.
“I felt like if-if I didn’t do anything you were going to leave me. I-I fucking love you Alex.. I never fucking showed it. I thought you were too good for me and I-I don’t even know. More than anything I-I just wanted to have the power to make you stay.” He let the tear fall and others started to follow.
“Mike in the beginning before any of the shit you did to me, I was fucking falling head over heels for you. I never wanted to leave you! But when you started to drink heavily and you started to cheat on me and was just ultimately just using me for my body. That’s when I bitterly started to hate you! You never saw the love..” I shook my head and sat down. I could feel tears starting to well up in my eyes.
“Alex.. I know you’ll always hate me for it. I just needed to tell you why I did it and that I am so sorry.” He stood up and held out a hand for me. I took it and he pulled me up. He let go of my hand and opened the door for me. I looked at him before I left.
“Did you really love me?” I asked. He slightly smiled.
“I’ve never stopped.” He said wiping the tears off of my face with his thumb.

Notes

Hey guys! I've been having some trouble with my depression so sorry I haven't been on for a while. I promise I'll have another chapter or two done this week! How did you like the chapter?! Anything surprise you? Are you mad about anything?! Comment, rate, subscribe!<3 xoxo